i caved

sooooo many times today.

i *did* end up going to hope today. i got my eyelashes fixed, deposited money into my mom's account, and then gave my brother cheques so he could pay hydro, gas, and phone. i'd been avoiding his calls for the last couple of days... i could tell he wanted money, he was very nice on the phone. and persistant. both clear signs.

on the way home i called danielle. oh weak am i! she said she was going to the mall. i *may* have mentioned that i need new jeans. we shopped. BUT i didn't buy any underwear, and what i did buy was on a list of things i needed. t-shirts, tanks, and a long shirt, oh and the jeans. the skirt wasn't on a list, but i will wear it to danielle's wedding rehearsal, so i'm sure that at some point it would have been on a list. and i didn't buy shoes either. but now i need a pair of cute pink sandal-ish things to go with the skirt. i never wear skirts. i think they look stupid on me. i know that they do. i may wear it tomorrow and see if anyone says anything. i should fake tan my legs if i do that. they are this gross grey colour that is usually reserved for the dead.

oh yeah, so i bought a million tops today. anticipating that this could be my next favourite shirt, i bought one pink and one white shirt that says i (heart) mom. i love it already. and i bought one to send to my friend sarah. i think we should wear them together. well, i don't really think that. but i can guarantee people would ask about it. i also bought one that says voted best hair, 2005. how could i resist? i would have bought this one with a little chick on it, but it was yellow, and yellow does nothing for my skin. oh and i bought a swimsuit too. and by swim suit i mean bikini. clearly for private and tanning purposes, but übercute. and danielle and i bought tickets to this clinique event at guildford on the 15th. there are going to be lots of goodie bags, and presents and samples, etc.. we are very excited about this. the tickets are $10 but you get a $10 g/c when you go. so it's free if you plan to spend $10 on something. fun!

my abs and shoulders are still hurting from tuesday. for real. i had to ask people to please not make me laugh today because i was in so much pain. it was embarrassing. and since i just spend a million dollars at the mall, i should probably not spend money on a massage, unless i get it from rachel's sister who is an RMT but isn't practicing right now, so i could get one from her for $25. but then i'd have to drive to the rock. boo urns.

day one after the cleanse involved a veggie burger for lunch and more rice pasta for dinner. i had half of a crispy rice and chocolate thing from purdy's. i am very weak. i put some freshly purchased cheddar cheese on the pasta sauce. now i feel somewhat ill. it's hard to tell if it's the abs, the tummy, or a combo.