i do!
yahoo!!!
i love them, and kinda want to make out with them.
yay!
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
takin' a break
today i don't think i'll go to the gym.
i'm going to wait for my furniture, do some work, and hopefully have a nap. i'm also going to relax about getting to the german consulate until next week.
i'm going to wait for my furniture, do some work, and hopefully have a nap. i'm also going to relax about getting to the german consulate until next week.
layin' down the law
i don't know why i can't sleep lately. well, i could probably figure it out. i am going to try one of two methods. i may end up trying both.
i will either:
1. be more strict with my body. stick to a schedule, and follow it. things that would need controlling: eating times, waking times, sleeping times, gym times, and work times.
2. let my body tell me what it wants. eat when i'm hungry, sleep when tired (would i ever get out of bed) and go to the gym and work when i have time.
any suggestions? maybe i'll just make a list of things to talk to my doctor about... i'm sure she's dying to see what i come up with this time. so far, it's anemia, my height, and now sleeping problems. three should be enough for one visit.
i will either:
1. be more strict with my body. stick to a schedule, and follow it. things that would need controlling: eating times, waking times, sleeping times, gym times, and work times.
2. let my body tell me what it wants. eat when i'm hungry, sleep when tired (would i ever get out of bed) and go to the gym and work when i have time.
any suggestions? maybe i'll just make a list of things to talk to my doctor about... i'm sure she's dying to see what i come up with this time. so far, it's anemia, my height, and now sleeping problems. three should be enough for one visit.
good call
PHEWSH! what a day!
trust your gut.
i just took the garbage downstairs, and of course, i'm in my grossest pants, my hair still drying, and basically bumming, and the hottest guy in my building is in the elevator. him: what's the plan? me: for tonight? (looks down at outfit) uh... not much, i'm pretty tired. i had to force myself to bring the garbage down. him: oh, i just leave it for the morning when i'm heading out. (in head, me: well, maybe if i got up in the morning, or better yet: got my ass out of my house by noon, i would. want to make out?) me: have fun tonight. him: yeah, take care.
why trust your gut? cause the last thing i did, was put the pants on. i only see people in my building when i don't want to. and only in underwear would be that time... moving out in 30 days or not.
trust your gut.
i just took the garbage downstairs, and of course, i'm in my grossest pants, my hair still drying, and basically bumming, and the hottest guy in my building is in the elevator. him: what's the plan? me: for tonight? (looks down at outfit) uh... not much, i'm pretty tired. i had to force myself to bring the garbage down. him: oh, i just leave it for the morning when i'm heading out. (in head, me: well, maybe if i got up in the morning, or better yet: got my ass out of my house by noon, i would. want to make out?) me: have fun tonight. him: yeah, take care.
why trust your gut? cause the last thing i did, was put the pants on. i only see people in my building when i don't want to. and only in underwear would be that time... moving out in 30 days or not.
paint a picture
OHMYGOSH!
so, today i got passport photos done.
if i'm going to the gym, i really try to not shower before, because i have to shower after, and my skin gets too dry. so, i did wash my face and brush my teeth, and even tied my hair back so the pictures wouldn't look like i'd literally rolled out of bed... because i almost had.
oh boy. so, the guy at the place (where it says 10 min passport photos) is like, yeah, but they're not ten mins. i'm like, okay, i need them anyway, let's roll. he then tells me i'm really shiny. but i didn't understand what he said... so he repeated it, and i tell him i'm going to the gym, so i didn't want to shower first. he tells me it's okay, because he has baby powder. the passport people don't like too shiny. so he dusts my T-zone and i'm like, thanks for looking out for me. i know these pics are gonna look rough, no need for me to be shiny on top of it. anyway, pics were taken, and as i'm walking down the street (i had to go back later to pick up the final product) i started thinking, that's a lot of powder he put on me. wouldn't it suck if i'm walking down the street with white streaks on my face? yeah, it sucked. i looked in the mirror and saw two big white powder marks across my forehead. as soon as i got the pictures, i was like, let's see how much shows in the photos. it's not that bad, but i do have a visible white streak. worse than the white streak? is how tired i look, and how one eye is bigger than the other! the best part is that i've had waaaay worse passport photos, and i'm actually a bit impressed these turned out this well.
so, today i got passport photos done.
if i'm going to the gym, i really try to not shower before, because i have to shower after, and my skin gets too dry. so, i did wash my face and brush my teeth, and even tied my hair back so the pictures wouldn't look like i'd literally rolled out of bed... because i almost had.
oh boy. so, the guy at the place (where it says 10 min passport photos) is like, yeah, but they're not ten mins. i'm like, okay, i need them anyway, let's roll. he then tells me i'm really shiny. but i didn't understand what he said... so he repeated it, and i tell him i'm going to the gym, so i didn't want to shower first. he tells me it's okay, because he has baby powder. the passport people don't like too shiny. so he dusts my T-zone and i'm like, thanks for looking out for me. i know these pics are gonna look rough, no need for me to be shiny on top of it. anyway, pics were taken, and as i'm walking down the street (i had to go back later to pick up the final product) i started thinking, that's a lot of powder he put on me. wouldn't it suck if i'm walking down the street with white streaks on my face? yeah, it sucked. i looked in the mirror and saw two big white powder marks across my forehead. as soon as i got the pictures, i was like, let's see how much shows in the photos. it's not that bad, but i do have a visible white streak. worse than the white streak? is how tired i look, and how one eye is bigger than the other! the best part is that i've had waaaay worse passport photos, and i'm actually a bit impressed these turned out this well.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
thank you jeebus
there's iron in m&ms. believe it baby. this is probably a mixed blessing. yes, at least i'm getting iron, no i shouldn't be encouraged to do so through m&ms. i am tempted though.
today started off a bit rough for me. i woke up this morning wanting to tell my mom about this stupid dream i had. instead i will tell all of you. i'll try to keep it short. please note, yesterday i watched a TONNE of television. i'm a little surprised i managed to get off the floor at all. so, in brackets will be the show/movie that was referenced in my dream.
i dreamed that danielle, jordy and i were shopping in new york at this sort of market where they sell knock-off bags (csi NY). we were having fun, and then i had to go to the bathroom. i guess i hadn't been feeling well and somehow decided to take a pregnancy test in a public bathroom-like i *ever* would-but it is a dream (MEN WITH BROOMS). anyway, i told danielle i have to go home. so somehow we're back at her house, but the house is exactly her mother-in-law's in real life. and i'm a bit worried, but not totally about being pregnant (csi MIAMI). so danielle is asking me about who's baby it is (law & order SVU) and i'm like, i don't know... i've had my period since the last time i had sex. so since i didn't get to see any of the ladies on tv have babies, that's where my dream ended. oh, and i remember being happy about starting to get a baby belly. cause i love them. and i love pregnant ladies.
anyone who says that tv doesn't influence children should hop over to my brain. weird things happen here... i still freak myself out with that stalker one where the guy lives the girl's ceiling and phones her using her own phone line. maybe i'm just easily influenced.
oh, and yesterday i deleted over 1000 emails. sent and received. for real. and that was only in one account.
today started off a bit rough for me. i woke up this morning wanting to tell my mom about this stupid dream i had. instead i will tell all of you. i'll try to keep it short. please note, yesterday i watched a TONNE of television. i'm a little surprised i managed to get off the floor at all. so, in brackets will be the show/movie that was referenced in my dream.
i dreamed that danielle, jordy and i were shopping in new york at this sort of market where they sell knock-off bags (csi NY). we were having fun, and then i had to go to the bathroom. i guess i hadn't been feeling well and somehow decided to take a pregnancy test in a public bathroom-like i *ever* would-but it is a dream (MEN WITH BROOMS). anyway, i told danielle i have to go home. so somehow we're back at her house, but the house is exactly her mother-in-law's in real life. and i'm a bit worried, but not totally about being pregnant (csi MIAMI). so danielle is asking me about who's baby it is (law & order SVU) and i'm like, i don't know... i've had my period since the last time i had sex. so since i didn't get to see any of the ladies on tv have babies, that's where my dream ended. oh, and i remember being happy about starting to get a baby belly. cause i love them. and i love pregnant ladies.
anyone who says that tv doesn't influence children should hop over to my brain. weird things happen here... i still freak myself out with that stalker one where the guy lives the girl's ceiling and phones her using her own phone line. maybe i'm just easily influenced.
oh, and yesterday i deleted over 1000 emails. sent and received. for real. and that was only in one account.
Monday, June 27, 2005
the height of the matter
ummm... i may have been lying to myself for the past few years. as in the past 10. i think when i go to the doctor's on thursday, i will get her measure me. i measured myself today. i'm going to say, not the most accurate method. sit down for this one, i think i may be shorter than 5"10.
when james and karen were over, somehow (via ian) it came up that i think i'm 5"10. maybe i used to be. on my passport it says 175cm. and that's my german passport. the germans are accurate. then ian started throwing out crazy ideas of me being as short as 5"7. i was in shock. people have never hit me with those kind of numbers before. i was willing to concede to 5"9-5"9 1/2. he was having none of it. as of this afternoon, he may be closer to the mark than me.
maybe once i start with yoga again (this week, for sure) my muscles will elongate and i'll be tall again. wish me luck, it's been a hard day!
when james and karen were over, somehow (via ian) it came up that i think i'm 5"10. maybe i used to be. on my passport it says 175cm. and that's my german passport. the germans are accurate. then ian started throwing out crazy ideas of me being as short as 5"7. i was in shock. people have never hit me with those kind of numbers before. i was willing to concede to 5"9-5"9 1/2. he was having none of it. as of this afternoon, he may be closer to the mark than me.
maybe once i start with yoga again (this week, for sure) my muscles will elongate and i'll be tall again. wish me luck, it's been a hard day!
fated
i really need to find my headphone for my iPod. at the gym tonight there was a heavy breather. i don't just mean, "wooo! i'm hardcore working out, so my breath is heavy". i mean, this guy had such random expulsions of air, it was totally distracting me from the flare article on traveling to ireland that i stumbled on.
which brings me to my title.
i don't want to put any kind of pressure on myself regarding this trip. because that is basically what i'm running away from. my goals there include but are not exclusive to: having a job where i really am finished when my shift is over, traveling around a bit, learning some irish, being able to mimic an irish accent at least somewhat decently (i claim no skills in this area currently), meeting people with cute irish accents, and having heaps of fun. so far, i have no idea how long i'm going for. depending on circumstances, i could be there for forever. i could also be there for a month. it's hard to say. but it is super fun to read into little things and accept them as fate saying i'm on the right track. i could be lying to myself, but i don't mind.
according to the article, designer bags are becoming super hot in ireland, so i'm really excited about that. it means i don't *have* to bring 10 bags with me. 4 or so will probably do. not including luggage bags. those are a totally separate issue. but i mean, c'mon! how often does someone come across a travel article about a place they're going to and it talks about one of their favourite things? actually, i'm kinda interested in those odds... if anyone knows off hand.
along with getting my passports worked out this week, i'm going to start thinking about key clothing to bring with me, so that when i see something on my list i can scoop it up, and not rush when i'm leaving. luckily, i won't have to really worry about the season. if i'm only gone for fall through spring i won't have to worry about summery clothes, except for going to spain and greece, and maybe the red sea. hmmm... this could be trickier than i thought.
anyway, back to work, and then to sleep!
which brings me to my title.
i don't want to put any kind of pressure on myself regarding this trip. because that is basically what i'm running away from. my goals there include but are not exclusive to: having a job where i really am finished when my shift is over, traveling around a bit, learning some irish, being able to mimic an irish accent at least somewhat decently (i claim no skills in this area currently), meeting people with cute irish accents, and having heaps of fun. so far, i have no idea how long i'm going for. depending on circumstances, i could be there for forever. i could also be there for a month. it's hard to say. but it is super fun to read into little things and accept them as fate saying i'm on the right track. i could be lying to myself, but i don't mind.
according to the article, designer bags are becoming super hot in ireland, so i'm really excited about that. it means i don't *have* to bring 10 bags with me. 4 or so will probably do. not including luggage bags. those are a totally separate issue. but i mean, c'mon! how often does someone come across a travel article about a place they're going to and it talks about one of their favourite things? actually, i'm kinda interested in those odds... if anyone knows off hand.
along with getting my passports worked out this week, i'm going to start thinking about key clothing to bring with me, so that when i see something on my list i can scoop it up, and not rush when i'm leaving. luckily, i won't have to really worry about the season. if i'm only gone for fall through spring i won't have to worry about summery clothes, except for going to spain and greece, and maybe the red sea. hmmm... this could be trickier than i thought.
anyway, back to work, and then to sleep!
Sunday, June 26, 2005
couching tiger
when i bought my new chair and couch, i was told there is a three week wait on delivery. yesterday i got a call that i can have them as early at wednesday. needless to say, i will be anxiously awaiting the phone call on wednesday to let me know the 4 hour time frame that they will be here.
oh! to sit on a comfy chair/sofa again. i'm very excited.
oh! to sit on a comfy chair/sofa again. i'm very excited.
cruisin' for karma
last week, if you'll recall, i went off on a big rant about tom cruise and katie, "isn't she wonderful" holmes. on thursday, when i got home, there were only like 10 mins left of oprah, and of course! it was the very oprah show that got me going in the first place. and then! the next day, i brought my friend some movies (she's not allowed to leave the house right now) and some breakkie. what was she watching? YES!! the same oprah.
woe is me.
woe is me.
Saturday, June 25, 2005
iJames and dr.K have left the building
yesterday james and karen stayed for a visit on their way to victoria for the tall ships.
it was so great to see them. now that karen has her own practice, i don't think that it will be very easy to convince them to move to bc. not that i'll be here in a bit, but still.
there was lots of talking, went for indian (since they hadn't had indian since i last saw them), went for a little walk, came back played tonnes of euchre and had eton surprise. which was a hit (thanks to michelle for the recipe). i have a feeling ian will be more than happy to cut strawberries for that again.
this morning we got up super early so james and karen could go to the ferry and ian could get to work and still go to breakkie. we went to the naam, and service was a bit slow, but since there were only a few other people there at 7am, it wasn't bad. everyone left at a good time.
there was talk of meeting up in kelowna so we could go camping before i leave for europe. that would be awesome. i really do have a great time hanging out with them, and it always makes me sad to see them leave. luckily going back to bed for 5 hours helps.
it was so great to see them. now that karen has her own practice, i don't think that it will be very easy to convince them to move to bc. not that i'll be here in a bit, but still.
there was lots of talking, went for indian (since they hadn't had indian since i last saw them), went for a little walk, came back played tonnes of euchre and had eton surprise. which was a hit (thanks to michelle for the recipe). i have a feeling ian will be more than happy to cut strawberries for that again.
this morning we got up super early so james and karen could go to the ferry and ian could get to work and still go to breakkie. we went to the naam, and service was a bit slow, but since there were only a few other people there at 7am, it wasn't bad. everyone left at a good time.
there was talk of meeting up in kelowna so we could go camping before i leave for europe. that would be awesome. i really do have a great time hanging out with them, and it always makes me sad to see them leave. luckily going back to bed for 5 hours helps.
Friday, June 24, 2005
gifted again?!
wow! how's that for a week? i got something else in the mail today, but i must have been at the gym when hot stu dropped it off.
kenji sent me 3 tapes of law and order, SVU, CI, CSI, CSI miami, and probably some CSI NY. :o)
how stoked and excited am i? very. also exciting is that iJames (aka Huge) and dr. Karen are coming to visit tonight!
this is turning out to be a great week, insomnia or not.
kenji sent me 3 tapes of law and order, SVU, CI, CSI, CSI miami, and probably some CSI NY. :o)
how stoked and excited am i? very. also exciting is that iJames (aka Huge) and dr. Karen are coming to visit tonight!
this is turning out to be a great week, insomnia or not.
with a name like ursula...you'll be swinging.
that's what erna told me today when i told her i was moving to europe for a while.
oh erna.
today ian and i went shopping for a couch and a chair for me. inspiration furniture is having a sale, so i cashed in on it. i bought a chocolate brown micro-fibre two-seater and a chocolate brown, armless chair.
they look very nice. very modern. YAY!
oh erna.
today ian and i went shopping for a couch and a chair for me. inspiration furniture is having a sale, so i cashed in on it. i bought a chocolate brown micro-fibre two-seater and a chocolate brown, armless chair.
they look very nice. very modern. YAY!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
gifted!
today i got fun things in the mail from office jan who is currently in japan.
i got some cute tissues (one package has a pig that says one, the next a pig that says one, a cow that says two, and the last one a pig that says one, a cow that says two and a sheep that says three! so cute!!!) and some mystery product that may or may not be jel filled. maybe it's lip gloss. maybe i have no idea. neither of which were the bracelet that the customs tag said, but that was a good decoy. it's all very exciting.
thanks janet! thanet!
yahooooo!!! presents!!!
i got some cute tissues (one package has a pig that says one, the next a pig that says one, a cow that says two, and the last one a pig that says one, a cow that says two and a sheep that says three! so cute!!!) and some mystery product that may or may not be jel filled. maybe it's lip gloss. maybe i have no idea. neither of which were the bracelet that the customs tag said, but that was a good decoy. it's all very exciting.
thanks janet! thanet!
yahooooo!!! presents!!!
call de police, police
i know that i am not the best dressed person out there. especially not in kits.
BUT i do know to not wear a skirt that's so short that when i walk in it, you can see my red underwear. also, i know to not wear clear straps on my bra to the gym.
1. buy a longer skirt.
2. buy a bra that sits properly under your lululemon shirt, or just don't dress like you're gonna hit a club after you work out.
kids these days.
BUT i do know to not wear a skirt that's so short that when i walk in it, you can see my red underwear. also, i know to not wear clear straps on my bra to the gym.
1. buy a longer skirt.
2. buy a bra that sits properly under your lululemon shirt, or just don't dress like you're gonna hit a club after you work out.
kids these days.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
focus! focus!
it's true, a crap sleep makes it hard for me to focus.
last night i made a wicked list of things to get done today, i've only done two. well, actually i guess i've done three. hey, things are starting to look up.
yesterday, toren brought me two more travel books: ireland and scotland. now i have books for everywhere i want to go in europe, spain and greece were already passed on earlier. during the non-sleeping hours last night, i totally read through the ireland one, and i'm determined to remember some irish words. slán leat is really the only thing i remember so far. oh, except that i recognise, "how are you?" because to me it looks fairly french. it's very exciting. and as i was telling G today, i'm more than happy to add another barely used language to my roster. dutch being the first.
i had a weird-o dream this morning. i dreamed my sister and i couldn't get on the same flight together to germany. so i made her pretend she needed to use a wheelchair (i think this might have got us to first class, like when i took my mom to cirque and we got front row for the price of the cheapest tickets). anyway, at some point she got up to walk, and then we were about to get busted by a stewardess, and we had to tell her my sister only needs the wheelchair for long-distances.
maybe i'm doing something bad and feel guilty about it. the thing is, i can usually recognise guilt from a mile away!!!
okay, now i'm going to be late if i don't go. and that's the ultimate motivation.
last night i made a wicked list of things to get done today, i've only done two. well, actually i guess i've done three. hey, things are starting to look up.
yesterday, toren brought me two more travel books: ireland and scotland. now i have books for everywhere i want to go in europe, spain and greece were already passed on earlier. during the non-sleeping hours last night, i totally read through the ireland one, and i'm determined to remember some irish words. slán leat is really the only thing i remember so far. oh, except that i recognise, "how are you?" because to me it looks fairly french. it's very exciting. and as i was telling G today, i'm more than happy to add another barely used language to my roster. dutch being the first.
i had a weird-o dream this morning. i dreamed my sister and i couldn't get on the same flight together to germany. so i made her pretend she needed to use a wheelchair (i think this might have got us to first class, like when i took my mom to cirque and we got front row for the price of the cheapest tickets). anyway, at some point she got up to walk, and then we were about to get busted by a stewardess, and we had to tell her my sister only needs the wheelchair for long-distances.
maybe i'm doing something bad and feel guilty about it. the thing is, i can usually recognise guilt from a mile away!!!
okay, now i'm going to be late if i don't go. and that's the ultimate motivation.
insomnia strikes again
maybe it's karma because of my rage against tom and katie. in any case, i can't sleep!!! boo-urns. it's especially frustrating because i was sooo tired while getting my ass kicked at nintendo tonight.
and for some reason all i can smell are these bagels i grabbed from ian's house that we ended up having an argument about whether or not i could smell them through the bag. they smell like sugar/fake syrup. that, and the ever-present iron.
lack of sleep will do that to you kids.
okay, i need to focus.
i will make a list.
oh, and p.s., it's times like these that make me think my friends don't blog enough.
and for some reason all i can smell are these bagels i grabbed from ian's house that we ended up having an argument about whether or not i could smell them through the bag. they smell like sugar/fake syrup. that, and the ever-present iron.
lack of sleep will do that to you kids.
okay, i need to focus.
i will make a list.
oh, and p.s., it's times like these that make me think my friends don't blog enough.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
as advertised
i was thinking of blogging about how much i hate tom cruise and katie holmes, and how much their very existence makes me ill, but then jeffy kinda covered it in his blog. i love oprah. i cannot watch her talk about/to tom cruise. it makes me nauseous. not that it takes that much recently, but honestly, what's more than barfing? a migrane? violent. yes. it makes me violent. and embarassed for them.
oh! i am sooo in love! i'm going to jump around, on furniture, because that will show you how much in love i am. so much so, that i will act like i'm even younger than katie, "isn't she wonderful" holmes.
seriously, i can usually separate myself from this media insanity, and at least genuinely not care. neither of them are very good at their profession, and i find them both incredibly annoying... when i see them anywhere, let alone on every magazine at the grocery store, i want to rip off my own leg and beat myself until i pass out so i don't have to look at them anymore. why can't i distance myself this time? because, worse than j-lo and ben affleck, these two are everywhere, boring the hell out of me with their inane adoration. at least there's arguable talent in the j-lo/ben affleck combo. they're not even going to invite katie holmes back to the sequel of batman begins. and this is probably the height of her career. brutal.
i cna't even decide if them breaking up would end this torture? i mean, everyone will have to then blame angelina and try to figure out why something so horrible could happen. (see jen and brad).
in any case, i don't exactly want them dead, i just don't want to ever hear of them again. inevitably this overexposure will lead to the backlash that will prolong the painful experience that is katie holmes and tom cruise.
oh! i am sooo in love! i'm going to jump around, on furniture, because that will show you how much in love i am. so much so, that i will act like i'm even younger than katie, "isn't she wonderful" holmes.
seriously, i can usually separate myself from this media insanity, and at least genuinely not care. neither of them are very good at their profession, and i find them both incredibly annoying... when i see them anywhere, let alone on every magazine at the grocery store, i want to rip off my own leg and beat myself until i pass out so i don't have to look at them anymore. why can't i distance myself this time? because, worse than j-lo and ben affleck, these two are everywhere, boring the hell out of me with their inane adoration. at least there's arguable talent in the j-lo/ben affleck combo. they're not even going to invite katie holmes back to the sequel of batman begins. and this is probably the height of her career. brutal.
i cna't even decide if them breaking up would end this torture? i mean, everyone will have to then blame angelina and try to figure out why something so horrible could happen. (see jen and brad).
in any case, i don't exactly want them dead, i just don't want to ever hear of them again. inevitably this overexposure will lead to the backlash that will prolong the painful experience that is katie holmes and tom cruise.
cuttin' muffins
there are two stories here:
1. i just got back from the gym and the grocery store. i can't believe how many people are at the gym (please note i got there around 10.30). and then afterwards, how many people were full-out grocery shopping. it's crazy. it's like when you travel somewhere. how do so many people have the need to say fly to germany on a wednesday. or why is my flight to japan that started in mexico city so full. i had no idea there were so many mexicans going to japan every day. it always leads to my next statement: don't these people work? it's what i'm always thinking as i drive along 1st ave. at some weird pre-rush hour time where these people should be at work, not in my way.
2. in the section of the gym that i like to do cardio (it's away from the noisy weights and boys grunting, and often has yoga-style music playing) there were only two of us on the machines. the other people were doing mat stuff. anyway, i got on the eliptical machine right next to the other girl. the other two don't have a place for your water. so i'm huffing away, and then i smelled it. stinkville. and i totally tried to breathe through my mouth, but whenever i do that, i remember that that actually means you're tasting what you smell. so i literally was trying not to barf!
i really think farting's okay. in fact, i do it. :oD it's hard to believe, i know. but please don't fart at the gym. i have a sensitive nose.
now i have to change my msn name from muffin. it brings up bad memories.
1. i just got back from the gym and the grocery store. i can't believe how many people are at the gym (please note i got there around 10.30). and then afterwards, how many people were full-out grocery shopping. it's crazy. it's like when you travel somewhere. how do so many people have the need to say fly to germany on a wednesday. or why is my flight to japan that started in mexico city so full. i had no idea there were so many mexicans going to japan every day. it always leads to my next statement: don't these people work? it's what i'm always thinking as i drive along 1st ave. at some weird pre-rush hour time where these people should be at work, not in my way.
2. in the section of the gym that i like to do cardio (it's away from the noisy weights and boys grunting, and often has yoga-style music playing) there were only two of us on the machines. the other people were doing mat stuff. anyway, i got on the eliptical machine right next to the other girl. the other two don't have a place for your water. so i'm huffing away, and then i smelled it. stinkville. and i totally tried to breathe through my mouth, but whenever i do that, i remember that that actually means you're tasting what you smell. so i literally was trying not to barf!
i really think farting's okay. in fact, i do it. :oD it's hard to believe, i know. but please don't fart at the gym. i have a sensitive nose.
now i have to change my msn name from muffin. it brings up bad memories.
i wonder if i took you home
would you still be in love, baby?
clearly a totally stolen title but whatev, the point is there.
on the way home, and completely unrelated to the events of the evening, i was thinking about how crap it is that a guy is expected to want to sleep with a girl as quickly as possible. if he's super shy or not very experienced (awkward) then these become valid excuses, and cute even. but if a girl has any kind of want to get it on before three dates then she's easy... and becomes a non-viable choice for a long-term relationship that's based on anything more than sex.
of course there are exceptions. it's still annoying.
clearly a totally stolen title but whatev, the point is there.
on the way home, and completely unrelated to the events of the evening, i was thinking about how crap it is that a guy is expected to want to sleep with a girl as quickly as possible. if he's super shy or not very experienced (awkward) then these become valid excuses, and cute even. but if a girl has any kind of want to get it on before three dates then she's easy... and becomes a non-viable choice for a long-term relationship that's based on anything more than sex.
of course there are exceptions. it's still annoying.
Monday, June 20, 2005
head trauma
last night after the gym, i almost KO'd myself. how can this have happened, you may ask. well, apparently getting into my car is NOT my forte. i have caused massive bruising on my arms, i've hurt my toe, and last night, i hit my head. i'm happy to report there has been no visual signs of this clumbsiness.
and since i'm already a little loopy, no one's noticed the internal damage! yahoo!!!
in other exciting news, i've got lots of sex in a pan... so anyone that's interested is hereby invited over (once i get dressed) to indulge in that and some cherry cha cha. oh, and danielle's mom gave me masses of cheese sticks... some of which are also up for grabs.
because i know everyone's wondering about my experience with iron pills i'll elaborate. they taste really really gross. you know when you were a kid and had that metal play set in the back yard? well, they taste like that. and PLEASE don't tell me you never licked it once, because i don't believe any of you! the difference is that the taste lasts a long time.
and since i'm already a little loopy, no one's noticed the internal damage! yahoo!!!
in other exciting news, i've got lots of sex in a pan... so anyone that's interested is hereby invited over (once i get dressed) to indulge in that and some cherry cha cha. oh, and danielle's mom gave me masses of cheese sticks... some of which are also up for grabs.
because i know everyone's wondering about my experience with iron pills i'll elaborate. they taste really really gross. you know when you were a kid and had that metal play set in the back yard? well, they taste like that. and PLEASE don't tell me you never licked it once, because i don't believe any of you! the difference is that the taste lasts a long time.
the end of strawberry season
(thank goodness!)
if strawberries and sugar and whipping cream had iron, i would have cured myself in one sitting. unfortunately, they do not.
had a great time meeting michelle, and being stuffed sick with the aforementioned goodies. say hello to a new tradition of annual strawberry socials. this was such a great idea... tea and chatting... that i plan to do this at least once a year. sorry to steal your idea michelle. it will be done with thoughts of you.
if i can roll myself out of bed (i no longer have a couch) father's day will be spent with the stewarts. we're going out for sushi/rolls.
if strawberries and sugar and whipping cream had iron, i would have cured myself in one sitting. unfortunately, they do not.
had a great time meeting michelle, and being stuffed sick with the aforementioned goodies. say hello to a new tradition of annual strawberry socials. this was such a great idea... tea and chatting... that i plan to do this at least once a year. sorry to steal your idea michelle. it will be done with thoughts of you.
if i can roll myself out of bed (i no longer have a couch) father's day will be spent with the stewarts. we're going out for sushi/rolls.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
heaven
today's surprise bridal shower turned out very well. i would even say it was a success. i made way too much food though. it always makes me sad to bring food that i've made home. part of the problem, as in the real world, was distribution. i brought over nanaimo bars, cherry cha cha, spinach dip (this tasted good, why wasn't it eaten? non-vegetarians is what i think.) chocolate dipped strawberries (these WERE all eaten) chips, crackers, and buns (i *told* marlene i would grab buns, but she bought some too... hers were boring safeway ones, my deluxe, she put hers out). anyway, i gave some buns to a homeless guy and some to becca to take home.
danielle was surprised (she thought the massage party was a hoax, and that it might be tonight). and i think everyone had fun! yay! i am soooooo glad that is over. four more wedding events and it's over (stagette, rehearsal, real, and brunch).
massages were awesome and exactly what i needed to finish off the week. thanks becca. it's nice to have someone come over and do it. that's service. she has a portable bed, so it's not like we're forsaking quality for convenience. oh no. things were good. i seriously need to look into more frequent massages. like weekly. that's my dream... one of them.
breathe.
tomorrow is a strawberry social and then it's a whole new week.
danielle was surprised (she thought the massage party was a hoax, and that it might be tonight). and i think everyone had fun! yay! i am soooooo glad that is over. four more wedding events and it's over (stagette, rehearsal, real, and brunch).
massages were awesome and exactly what i needed to finish off the week. thanks becca. it's nice to have someone come over and do it. that's service. she has a portable bed, so it's not like we're forsaking quality for convenience. oh no. things were good. i seriously need to look into more frequent massages. like weekly. that's my dream... one of them.
breathe.
tomorrow is a strawberry social and then it's a whole new week.
Saturday, June 18, 2005
goodnews/badnews
goodnews
had my follow-up appointment with the skin doctor...cause i got all those tests done march. i don't have lupus (i didn't actually know we were testing for that...oops). anyway, i also don't have rheumatoid (sp?) arthritis. whatever. oh, and my kidneys are functioning great. anyway, my eczema looks really good, you can't even tell i have it on my hands anymore. so he (the doctor) is happy about that. as am i!!!
badnews
i have anemia! i now have two options. eat meat or take iron pills. or maybe do both. the information has been passed on to my real doctor and i'll talk to her about it. in the meantime, dr. jeffy gave me some advice including finding out what kind it is. and telling me that spinach won't help me. i guess this explains the increased dizziness and tiredness. i still wouldn't do that stupid cleanse again.
i feel like this diagnosis just confirms my feelings of being detached from my body lately. on one hand, i've felt like i don't have any clue why my body's being so weird...detached by the symptoms. on the other, the symptoms have contributed to the detachment. first the mind, then the body. step one and two.
funny thing though. at the beginning of the appointment when he was looking through the test results, he was like, yeah, your iron levels are really low... and i said: that's why i have eczema? *laugh* it didn't make sense to me either... i mean, how are they connected? he said no, they do the test because it has something to do with an organ...kidneys, i think. so yeah, not connected.
tomorrow dalia picks up my couch. in some ways it will be sad to say goodbye to it. including not having anywhere comfortable to sit. and making karen and james use their camping equipment when they sleep over next friday. in other ways, i'm happy. yay! i get to get a new couch!!!
today during a crazy amount of carcasonne i won a couple games. my skills are improving, i am becoming a more worthy opponent. i plan to eventually crush everyone in my path. it may take a lot of sitting in front of my computer, but with the couch gone, where else will i sit? heh heh! first manhattan, and then ontario!!! muwah ha ha ha!!!
had my follow-up appointment with the skin doctor...cause i got all those tests done march. i don't have lupus (i didn't actually know we were testing for that...oops). anyway, i also don't have rheumatoid (sp?) arthritis. whatever. oh, and my kidneys are functioning great. anyway, my eczema looks really good, you can't even tell i have it on my hands anymore. so he (the doctor) is happy about that. as am i!!!
badnews
i have anemia! i now have two options. eat meat or take iron pills. or maybe do both. the information has been passed on to my real doctor and i'll talk to her about it. in the meantime, dr. jeffy gave me some advice including finding out what kind it is. and telling me that spinach won't help me. i guess this explains the increased dizziness and tiredness. i still wouldn't do that stupid cleanse again.
i feel like this diagnosis just confirms my feelings of being detached from my body lately. on one hand, i've felt like i don't have any clue why my body's being so weird...detached by the symptoms. on the other, the symptoms have contributed to the detachment. first the mind, then the body. step one and two.
funny thing though. at the beginning of the appointment when he was looking through the test results, he was like, yeah, your iron levels are really low... and i said: that's why i have eczema? *laugh* it didn't make sense to me either... i mean, how are they connected? he said no, they do the test because it has something to do with an organ...kidneys, i think. so yeah, not connected.
tomorrow dalia picks up my couch. in some ways it will be sad to say goodbye to it. including not having anywhere comfortable to sit. and making karen and james use their camping equipment when they sleep over next friday. in other ways, i'm happy. yay! i get to get a new couch!!!
today during a crazy amount of carcasonne i won a couple games. my skills are improving, i am becoming a more worthy opponent. i plan to eventually crush everyone in my path. it may take a lot of sitting in front of my computer, but with the couch gone, where else will i sit? heh heh! first manhattan, and then ontario!!! muwah ha ha ha!!!
Friday, June 17, 2005
so sore!
i totally called it. my shoulders are so frickin' sore this morning. i think what put me over the edge was the extra flexing last night (see dorkville below). how i will be able to do anything today is beyond me. with the exception of having a massage of course. i could easily handle that!
dorkville
oh my gosh, i am such a dork. so i was just sitting here touching my arm because it's sore. and then i started to examine it. and by examine, i mean flex and touch the muscle and stuff like that. the conclusion: still chubby, but more muscle, i think. yup (just felt both sides and flexed again and stuff). i think i am getting stronger! soon i won't be the weakest woman in the world. i will be weak, but not the weakest! yahoo!!!
who wants to arm wrestle?! bring it on!
who wants to arm wrestle?! bring it on!
marriage proposal
this evening, someone asked if i would marry them. they did just have some of the amazing chocolate dipped strawberries that i made today. and then we discussed the best mac and cheese. i think they might have been under the influence.
it was kinda funny though, because i was telling ian that as i was making lunch this afternoon, i was like: huh, i really wouldn't mind being a stay-at-home person. i could just work part time, and have fun cooking and stuff. that would be good times, i think. i need to test this out... to see if i really would like it.
went to foundation again for the benito or whatever it's called called. yum! and ian took apart my couch so dalia can pick it up on saturday. it's gonna be a bit weird to only have two chairs for furniture until i get around to buying a new couch. i may not buy one until i get back...in the meantime, i'll look into some throw pillows and not invite many people over, i guess.
speaking of which, in one week and 13 hours (ish) james and karen will be here! yahoo! with them comes catan and euchre action. i schooled ian a bit tonight, so that if he's my partner we don't get completely slaughtered. also tonight, i went over to bre's sister's house (with the strawberries) and we went down to the beach and watched stef do some poi, or whatever it is. she lit them up and it was wicked. it was soooo funny when some kids (posing as older than they were) came over and asked if they could watch too. did i mention they had taken their shirts off just before they walked over. we made fun of them, and i was like: you are closer to 16 than to 19 buddy, cause he really looked 14. anyway, he tried to pull off, oh i'm almost 19 and failed miserably. turns out they were from surrey, and no one wanted their pot enough to pretend we liked them. i guess there are limits for everyone!
(oh, in fairness i should mention that i played carcasonne with jeffy again today. i didn't win, but i came close one game. i'll probably stick with only mentioning my wins mostly, unless it's significant in some other way. let it be known, jeffy almost always wins, cause he's a great player, and by great, i mean a JERK player always mooching in on my cities.)
it was kinda funny though, because i was telling ian that as i was making lunch this afternoon, i was like: huh, i really wouldn't mind being a stay-at-home person. i could just work part time, and have fun cooking and stuff. that would be good times, i think. i need to test this out... to see if i really would like it.
went to foundation again for the benito or whatever it's called called. yum! and ian took apart my couch so dalia can pick it up on saturday. it's gonna be a bit weird to only have two chairs for furniture until i get around to buying a new couch. i may not buy one until i get back...in the meantime, i'll look into some throw pillows and not invite many people over, i guess.
speaking of which, in one week and 13 hours (ish) james and karen will be here! yahoo! with them comes catan and euchre action. i schooled ian a bit tonight, so that if he's my partner we don't get completely slaughtered. also tonight, i went over to bre's sister's house (with the strawberries) and we went down to the beach and watched stef do some poi, or whatever it is. she lit them up and it was wicked. it was soooo funny when some kids (posing as older than they were) came over and asked if they could watch too. did i mention they had taken their shirts off just before they walked over. we made fun of them, and i was like: you are closer to 16 than to 19 buddy, cause he really looked 14. anyway, he tried to pull off, oh i'm almost 19 and failed miserably. turns out they were from surrey, and no one wanted their pot enough to pretend we liked them. i guess there are limits for everyone!
(oh, in fairness i should mention that i played carcasonne with jeffy again today. i didn't win, but i came close one game. i'll probably stick with only mentioning my wins mostly, unless it's significant in some other way. let it be known, jeffy almost always wins, cause he's a great player, and by great, i mean a JERK player always mooching in on my cities.)
Thursday, June 16, 2005
i am soooo weak!
oh god. this morning, after a crap sleep last night i quickly got ready for the gym. luckily i forgot the name of the street the kits community centre is on, because it gave me time to eat my soy bar. my arms are already killing me, and it's just the same day. i think tomorrow i'm going to be crying!
i may have to explore the option of liposuction more in depth. too bad all these doctors i know are GPs. :oD
on that note: time to get the chocolate dipped strawberries going!!
i may have to explore the option of liposuction more in depth. too bad all these doctors i know are GPs. :oD
on that note: time to get the chocolate dipped strawberries going!!
winning streak
today i won two things. a game of carcasonne with kenji and jeffy and a gift basket at the clinique party. did i mention i'm back? :o)
kenji and jeffy are really good at games... and honestly, i haven't won at carcasonne online yet. one time i came close. but then this stranger that we let join our game beat us. that's when we made the rule: no strangers. i say it's because i hate them. jeffy says it's because they're not that fun to play with. jeffy's hardcore at catan and carcasonne. but i like it, despite rarely winning. i feel like i really have to try hard, which means i will be able to crush others, and on occasion, the master. it improves my game, and makes winning sweeter.
at the clinique counter there was a huge basket that was the grand prize, and some small flower pots for the other prizes. i won one with perfume, eyeliner (the one i almost bought with yvonne at holts), some age cream thing...that now that i think about it, i probably already have a sample of, and a double sided brush (the most exciting part, because those are soooo expensive, and i didn't have that one). but you also got a gift bag that had mascara, a puffy thing, a bag, ummm... some perfume, lipgloss, and maybe some other stuff. and then with a purchase you get to pick some sample stuff to take too. very exciting.
there were three stations to travel to over the evening, the eye and lips section, a bronzer/blush section and a skin care consulation section. totally fun! honestly.
oh, and they DID have strawberry stuff there. some tart thing, and of course chocolate dipped strawberries! the strawberries were perfectly ripe, so they were über delicious. and when we got there, they had some sandwiches out, and i remembered what ang told me about how when they pass the sandwiches out at her board meetings, she takes a bunch of the veggie ones as soon as they get to her, because otherwise she will only be left with meat ones. so i ate two egg ones really quickly. and the rest were gone when i went back... only meat ones were left. good call ang.
kenji and jeffy are really good at games... and honestly, i haven't won at carcasonne online yet. one time i came close. but then this stranger that we let join our game beat us. that's when we made the rule: no strangers. i say it's because i hate them. jeffy says it's because they're not that fun to play with. jeffy's hardcore at catan and carcasonne. but i like it, despite rarely winning. i feel like i really have to try hard, which means i will be able to crush others, and on occasion, the master. it improves my game, and makes winning sweeter.
at the clinique counter there was a huge basket that was the grand prize, and some small flower pots for the other prizes. i won one with perfume, eyeliner (the one i almost bought with yvonne at holts), some age cream thing...that now that i think about it, i probably already have a sample of, and a double sided brush (the most exciting part, because those are soooo expensive, and i didn't have that one). but you also got a gift bag that had mascara, a puffy thing, a bag, ummm... some perfume, lipgloss, and maybe some other stuff. and then with a purchase you get to pick some sample stuff to take too. very exciting.
there were three stations to travel to over the evening, the eye and lips section, a bronzer/blush section and a skin care consulation section. totally fun! honestly.
oh, and they DID have strawberry stuff there. some tart thing, and of course chocolate dipped strawberries! the strawberries were perfectly ripe, so they were über delicious. and when we got there, they had some sandwiches out, and i remembered what ang told me about how when they pass the sandwiches out at her board meetings, she takes a bunch of the veggie ones as soon as they get to her, because otherwise she will only be left with meat ones. so i ate two egg ones really quickly. and the rest were gone when i went back... only meat ones were left. good call ang.
sweating to the oldies
ohmygosh!
i don't know what it was but today i was sweating hardcore at the gym. it was funny though, because as i was totally sweating i came across an article about excessive sweaters in the men's magazine that i picked up to read. apparently you can have botox injected into your pits. i don't think i really have a problem with sweat, but it was funny that i was soooo sweaty today, and i came across the article.
also in the magazine were tips on spanking properly. which i found very interesting. and then i guessed that it wasn't an american magazine. and it wasn't. oh canada. improving on sex anyway we can. yahoo!!!
i don't know what it was but today i was sweating hardcore at the gym. it was funny though, because as i was totally sweating i came across an article about excessive sweaters in the men's magazine that i picked up to read. apparently you can have botox injected into your pits. i don't think i really have a problem with sweat, but it was funny that i was soooo sweaty today, and i came across the article.
also in the magazine were tips on spanking properly. which i found very interesting. and then i guessed that it wasn't an american magazine. and it wasn't. oh canada. improving on sex anyway we can. yahoo!!!
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
strawberry socials
i've never been to one in my life. well, not that i know of. BUT!!! as of sunday, i'll have been to 2! can you believe it? well, do.
tomorrow is the clinique strawberry social. okay, i totally know this sounds a bit bonkers. especialy because danielle and i had to buy tickets. (you get the money back from the ticket if you buy anything). the best part is that they are going to be giving away tonnes of stuff. you get a gift bag if you go, and a discount on anything you buy, and there are going to be lots of prizes. it's all very exciting. i hope they have strawberries there.
which brings me to my next strawberry social... on sunday. also very fun, because i *know* there will be strawberry items there. yay! and i'm excited to meet the hostess who has hinted at the potential of martha stewart recipes. i'm stoked about someone who also uses martha as a selling point for food. to me, it equals fine ingredients, a lot of hard work, and delicious results. yay martha!! yay followers of the martha gospel!!
with all these strawberry centred events going on, i'm going to buy some strawberries in the valley and make chocolate covered strawberries. it'll be my first time, but i have made chocolate icecream bowls before, so really, how hard can this be?
tomorrow is the clinique strawberry social. okay, i totally know this sounds a bit bonkers. especialy because danielle and i had to buy tickets. (you get the money back from the ticket if you buy anything). the best part is that they are going to be giving away tonnes of stuff. you get a gift bag if you go, and a discount on anything you buy, and there are going to be lots of prizes. it's all very exciting. i hope they have strawberries there.
which brings me to my next strawberry social... on sunday. also very fun, because i *know* there will be strawberry items there. yay! and i'm excited to meet the hostess who has hinted at the potential of martha stewart recipes. i'm stoked about someone who also uses martha as a selling point for food. to me, it equals fine ingredients, a lot of hard work, and delicious results. yay martha!! yay followers of the martha gospel!!
with all these strawberry centred events going on, i'm going to buy some strawberries in the valley and make chocolate covered strawberries. it'll be my first time, but i have made chocolate icecream bowls before, so really, how hard can this be?
welcome back
it was a regular kind of day today. which means, it was kinda nice.
i was telling yvonne that i'm starting to feel like myself again. i've kind of been continuing on the "cleaning house" theme lately.
i've told a couple people off within the last week. including my boss. once i told her, "i think you're crazy. you need to get your priorities straight. what are you doing? what are your goals here?" our relationship has come back to us being friends. of course, part of that is that i'm only doing contract work for the store and i'm way less stressed out about it. another part is that i'd really just had enough, and needed to clean my slate. she was really receptive, which only encouraged me to keep going. anyway, it's been nice to work with her again.
she's not the only one, i've pretty much been on a roll. and it feels good. it's not even really the telling off part, cause i didn't really consider it that. but i did put some stuff out there. i guess it's a bit of an emotional cleanse, since i've finally recovered from the physical one.
to this i say, welcome back, ursula. i've been feeling a lot better about stuff, i'm getting excited about things again, and working on clearer perspective. as predicted, the closer i get to finishing up things on my list, the less stressed i feel. thanks for bearing with me... i'm getting there.
i was telling yvonne that i'm starting to feel like myself again. i've kind of been continuing on the "cleaning house" theme lately.
i've told a couple people off within the last week. including my boss. once i told her, "i think you're crazy. you need to get your priorities straight. what are you doing? what are your goals here?" our relationship has come back to us being friends. of course, part of that is that i'm only doing contract work for the store and i'm way less stressed out about it. another part is that i'd really just had enough, and needed to clean my slate. she was really receptive, which only encouraged me to keep going. anyway, it's been nice to work with her again.
she's not the only one, i've pretty much been on a roll. and it feels good. it's not even really the telling off part, cause i didn't really consider it that. but i did put some stuff out there. i guess it's a bit of an emotional cleanse, since i've finally recovered from the physical one.
to this i say, welcome back, ursula. i've been feeling a lot better about stuff, i'm getting excited about things again, and working on clearer perspective. as predicted, the closer i get to finishing up things on my list, the less stressed i feel. thanks for bearing with me... i'm getting there.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
hot lips cured me
to celebrate my not getting sick from food anymore, and my miraculous recovery (almost) from whatever was wrong with the side of my face, today i had hot lips.
oh how i missed you.
in other news, i *finally* finished the project that brings rachel to tears. i doubt there are things she hates more, but between them, cross-stitch and quilting that is, it's hard to say which she hates the most. anyway, i finished the cross-stitch that i was still working on at knitting in the buff, and for whatever number of years i'd been working on it before then. possibly two. i will take a picture and post it. it's going to be her birthday present. i will hang it at my house, somewhere prominent... so she can see it everyday she's there. it will be a magical things. :o)
also today, i got some work done, and ad that was unexpectedly due (i got the details on friday, and was simply told to look into it. this morning i saw that the deadline was on friday). and have plenty more where that came from. i didn't nap today, and now i have to stay up late to at least make up for playing games for a good portion of the day... and doing a bit of cross-stitch of course.
i don't know if i blogged it, but i did tell danielle that i thought the bridesmaid's dress makes my boobs look smaller. when i put it on, and she pinned it, i was like: huh, i can barely remember a time when my boobs *were* this small. weird, but fun. i like boobs as much as the next girl, but it's always fun to mess around with change!
okay, pj's, jann arden, some fruit, and designing. whoo hoo!
oh how i missed you.
in other news, i *finally* finished the project that brings rachel to tears. i doubt there are things she hates more, but between them, cross-stitch and quilting that is, it's hard to say which she hates the most. anyway, i finished the cross-stitch that i was still working on at knitting in the buff, and for whatever number of years i'd been working on it before then. possibly two. i will take a picture and post it. it's going to be her birthday present. i will hang it at my house, somewhere prominent... so she can see it everyday she's there. it will be a magical things. :o)
also today, i got some work done, and ad that was unexpectedly due (i got the details on friday, and was simply told to look into it. this morning i saw that the deadline was on friday). and have plenty more where that came from. i didn't nap today, and now i have to stay up late to at least make up for playing games for a good portion of the day... and doing a bit of cross-stitch of course.
i don't know if i blogged it, but i did tell danielle that i thought the bridesmaid's dress makes my boobs look smaller. when i put it on, and she pinned it, i was like: huh, i can barely remember a time when my boobs *were* this small. weird, but fun. i like boobs as much as the next girl, but it's always fun to mess around with change!
okay, pj's, jann arden, some fruit, and designing. whoo hoo!
Monday, June 13, 2005
waste-o
okay, i *did* watch speed 2 tonight. it's just over. it was bad. but really, not as bad as i thought it would be. i think i have a bit of a soft spot in my heart for stupid action movies. well, sometimes at least.
i do feel like that's a lot of time of my life that i won't get back, but i did need to let my hair dry after showering, and i needed something to kill the time while i enjoyed some mac & cheese.
so, maybe not so bad afterall.
i'm tossing around the idea of doing work instead of going to bed, but i think bed is winning.
i do feel like that's a lot of time of my life that i won't get back, but i did need to let my hair dry after showering, and i needed something to kill the time while i enjoyed some mac & cheese.
so, maybe not so bad afterall.
i'm tossing around the idea of doing work instead of going to bed, but i think bed is winning.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
babies! babies! babies!
thanks to cheryl for the tip on checking out kenji's blog ASAP. a cute little baby boy was born today. congratulations.
apparently there's some type of insurance you can get to have cute babies. Kai, of course, was born with a full head of hair... and i bet that's one kid that'll be able to get his dad to help him dye it green. oh the bonding! and now Rei has a little brother. yay!!!
things like this make me consider getting one of those baby things. once i grow up, of course!
apparently there's some type of insurance you can get to have cute babies. Kai, of course, was born with a full head of hair... and i bet that's one kid that'll be able to get his dad to help him dye it green. oh the bonding! and now Rei has a little brother. yay!!!
things like this make me consider getting one of those baby things. once i grow up, of course!
take a picture, it'll last longer
i've never had my hair in hot rollers, i do like this "pods on my head" look. makes me think of bun boy.
well, this is the cutest picture of the day for me, so i had to post it.
okay, my boobs and sides look funny, but that's where it's getting taken in. this is pretty much how i'll look on the 16th. hopefully the bangs are less curly... i really should have asked her to flat iron it. they started curling up 70's style as soon as i left the salon.
hairy situation
today was getting hairs did for danielle's wedding, and dress fitting for the same event. i swear to god, if i gain a pound and it choses to go to my chest instead of my ass (why, it would change its mind now, who knows) i will not be able to fit back into it. i wouldn't let her take any in around the butt. i need to sit down in this thing. and it's already going to be f'ing hot. anyway, hair and dress are good.
my face was still hurting when i woke up this morning, but by the afternoon, things were getting better. i'll try to make a doctor's appointment for next week some time. oh, and good news, i ate lunch today, and was only a little sick, and after dinner, barely sick at all. so i'm getting back on the food train... which hopefully will not lead to any of the above mentioned chest expansion.
after hair and dress i went to a&b sound. picked up some cds: jann arden, coldplay, weezer and dmb. leonard cohen has finally been ousted by a newer and younger model.
after dinner was: RETURN OF THE SITH!!! yahoo!!! finally! i can't believe i've seen it now. totally the best of the new three. perhaps my favourite ever. i don't care what original 3 purists say, i loved this one. way better than i expected, and ewan is f'ing hottt. the light sabre fights were wicked. i am a happy $10.95 payee.
i got the lady to take a couple pics of me in my dress. i'll see how they turned out and decide if i will upload. stay tuned.
my face was still hurting when i woke up this morning, but by the afternoon, things were getting better. i'll try to make a doctor's appointment for next week some time. oh, and good news, i ate lunch today, and was only a little sick, and after dinner, barely sick at all. so i'm getting back on the food train... which hopefully will not lead to any of the above mentioned chest expansion.
after hair and dress i went to a&b sound. picked up some cds: jann arden, coldplay, weezer and dmb. leonard cohen has finally been ousted by a newer and younger model.
after dinner was: RETURN OF THE SITH!!! yahoo!!! finally! i can't believe i've seen it now. totally the best of the new three. perhaps my favourite ever. i don't care what original 3 purists say, i loved this one. way better than i expected, and ewan is f'ing hottt. the light sabre fights were wicked. i am a happy $10.95 payee.
i got the lady to take a couple pics of me in my dress. i'll see how they turned out and decide if i will upload. stay tuned.
Friday, June 10, 2005
hanged over
today was a messed up hang over. i haven't had one in years, but (i'm guessing) a combintion of not drinking in about a month and not having had any chocolate in a long time didn't work out so well for me. oh, and to top it off, at the end of the night, gio bought me a pita (this means bread and dairy). i felt like crap this morning, and since i didn't wake up until 10, i couldn't go back to bed for a morning nap. so instead i napped this afternoon.
i really really wanted pancakes for breakkie, but that didn't happen, and i couldn't make them at home because i have no eggs. oops. so i had left over pad thai!
then i made ian come over so we could have dinner. went to foundation and had a wicked veggie burger... ian had some mango and rice pasta dish... i can't remember exactly, but it was tasty of course. i was a little worried about bringing him there (cause it's all veggie, and i had a not-so-great experience when i tried to introduce another meat eater to it). anyway, ian loved it. yay! and he had sweet potato pie, so i finally got to taste a dessert there. so i was on a good food high, but now i'm crashing.
i didn't do too much else today except avoid committing to working next week, because i'm supposed to be finished!!! and think about how i could be getting work done, but how much i'd rather just sit around, maybe even napping.
tomorrow i work, and try to avoid working next week.
i really really wanted pancakes for breakkie, but that didn't happen, and i couldn't make them at home because i have no eggs. oops. so i had left over pad thai!
then i made ian come over so we could have dinner. went to foundation and had a wicked veggie burger... ian had some mango and rice pasta dish... i can't remember exactly, but it was tasty of course. i was a little worried about bringing him there (cause it's all veggie, and i had a not-so-great experience when i tried to introduce another meat eater to it). anyway, ian loved it. yay! and he had sweet potato pie, so i finally got to taste a dessert there. so i was on a good food high, but now i'm crashing.
i didn't do too much else today except avoid committing to working next week, because i'm supposed to be finished!!! and think about how i could be getting work done, but how much i'd rather just sit around, maybe even napping.
tomorrow i work, and try to avoid working next week.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
toothpaste
i was trying to explain to someone how anal i am about the littlest thing s. and he sent me this link..
toothpaste song
toothpaste song
oh, i broke the rule
but not that drunk. just a little.
ummm... those f;ing prada shoes are so uncomfortable.
and oh, i can't wait fro breakkie. pancakes!!! oh, and apparantly drinking makes me be less sick to wheat, cause i had a pits. no, a pita.
ummm... those f;ing prada shoes are so uncomfortable.
and oh, i can't wait fro breakkie. pancakes!!! oh, and apparantly drinking makes me be less sick to wheat, cause i had a pits. no, a pita.
the lord works in mysterious ways
after my morning nap i headed out to the coq to pick up anghold for some knicker-type shopping... how much underwear can a girl have? well, it was specific to the gown i'm wearing in july, so clearly, i didn't have enough.
anyway, i stopped on granville island for a jesus puppet for K, but they were out. they only had abraham (which i would like to mention, i recognised!) so she's going to look at home or order in jesus. that's the news on that, K.
then ang and i went to diane's, and picked up bras. yahoo! and went for dinner at thai away home. then we went to her friend's house to hang out for a bit.
after dropping ang off at school, i headed for church. clearly i misunderstood when the minister said the wednesday class is over in june. i thought he meant at the end, but i guess that's just when he's leaving. that means i got to come home, talk to rachel online and blog. and maybe sweep the floor and shower.
yay!
anyway, i stopped on granville island for a jesus puppet for K, but they were out. they only had abraham (which i would like to mention, i recognised!) so she's going to look at home or order in jesus. that's the news on that, K.
then ang and i went to diane's, and picked up bras. yahoo! and went for dinner at thai away home. then we went to her friend's house to hang out for a bit.
after dropping ang off at school, i headed for church. clearly i misunderstood when the minister said the wednesday class is over in june. i thought he meant at the end, but i guess that's just when he's leaving. that means i got to come home, talk to rachel online and blog. and maybe sweep the floor and shower.
yay!
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
morning nap
it's almost time to indulge in my recently aquired habit of having a morning nap.
but i only got up an hour and a half ago? i know, but someone's got to be tired. i may only go back for a 1/2 hour. that would require a lot of discipline at this point. but i do have lots of house work to do before i go and pick ang up for some underthings shopping. and dinner.
it's going to be a busy afternoon. i should get some rest... you know, to build up my strength.
but i only got up an hour and a half ago? i know, but someone's got to be tired. i may only go back for a 1/2 hour. that would require a lot of discipline at this point. but i do have lots of house work to do before i go and pick ang up for some underthings shopping. and dinner.
it's going to be a busy afternoon. i should get some rest... you know, to build up my strength.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
keep the faith 2
my friend kenji is one of the wisest people i know (this has nothing to do with any tapes he may be sending me). tonight we talked about a few things, including how i feel like a phoney at church because i don't think i have the right faith. i want to believe, but the concrete evidence part of me is so strong. i am of two minds when it comes to the idea/faith of a lord. kenji, as usual, came to the rescue, "i like thinking of god as sophia, incarnate wisdom". which kinda works for me. and with that in mind, it looks like church this wednesday... with one less thing to feel guilty about and one more person to pray for. thanks kenj.
keep the faith
(hey, that's a quality bon jovi tune!)
as mentioned, this has been the shittest year of my life. there are people who have had it worse off than me, absolutely. and i'm sure it's a bit arrogant of me to fall onto this, but really, having a blog is a bit arrogant. what should really happen is that i pick up the phone and talk to someone. then again, it is after midnight... who would be up?
i really do feel like my friends are my family, as part of being my friend one of the unspoken deals is that i will want to adopt your parents... or make them want to adopt me. i'm really into parents. they tend to be into me.
it's like i've been searching for replacements in case of emergency. my roommate's parents (from first year) were like my "ontario parents" for a long time. they picked me up and dropped me off at the airport to go home (we usually ran a bit late, but it became expected that i would have to run for the plane) i would go over for easter dinner, they let me drive their car and their daughter to kingston from ottawa. they came to my graduation. honestly, her parents are some of the funniest people you could meet. her dad has unstoppable dad humour, and her mom is so generous and quirky and sweet! i think about them a lot, and should probably have kept in better contact with them.
now my friend will be going through something that i truly would not wish on anyone. her mom is probably about where my mom was 8 months ago. i'm sure part of it is unresolved issues with my mom's death, but i really can't believe that this is happening. i totally totally get that parents will die, and they should before their children. i can't get my head around this... i have so many arguments against this, but i'm just not getting a response.
so, dear friend, please remember that there are people all the way over here who love you and your family. friends that hope for the best, and who understand.
as mentioned, this has been the shittest year of my life. there are people who have had it worse off than me, absolutely. and i'm sure it's a bit arrogant of me to fall onto this, but really, having a blog is a bit arrogant. what should really happen is that i pick up the phone and talk to someone. then again, it is after midnight... who would be up?
i really do feel like my friends are my family, as part of being my friend one of the unspoken deals is that i will want to adopt your parents... or make them want to adopt me. i'm really into parents. they tend to be into me.
it's like i've been searching for replacements in case of emergency. my roommate's parents (from first year) were like my "ontario parents" for a long time. they picked me up and dropped me off at the airport to go home (we usually ran a bit late, but it became expected that i would have to run for the plane) i would go over for easter dinner, they let me drive their car and their daughter to kingston from ottawa. they came to my graduation. honestly, her parents are some of the funniest people you could meet. her dad has unstoppable dad humour, and her mom is so generous and quirky and sweet! i think about them a lot, and should probably have kept in better contact with them.
now my friend will be going through something that i truly would not wish on anyone. her mom is probably about where my mom was 8 months ago. i'm sure part of it is unresolved issues with my mom's death, but i really can't believe that this is happening. i totally totally get that parents will die, and they should before their children. i can't get my head around this... i have so many arguments against this, but i'm just not getting a response.
so, dear friend, please remember that there are people all the way over here who love you and your family. friends that hope for the best, and who understand.
Monday, June 06, 2005
i cried
yesterday was waxing day. if i said it didn't hurt, i'd be lying.
ang, bre, stef and i met up in the Burn and got it done. i also tried threading for the first time. never, ever have your moustache threaded. i don't even think i had more than ten hairs there. i wanted to try threading there, because wax on my face irritates it. threading your eyebrows = great. moustache/upper lip/whatever you want to call it = crying pain. so far no skin irritation from the threading... but man, it hurts!
i haven't decided if i'm going to blog about the rest of the waxing experience. maybe later, when i'm more awake.
yesterday was my friend's mom's birthday. as usual, it was very nice to go to their house and have yummy food, and hang out. oh, and that brings me to my next thing. my friend's sister is an RMT in ontario. but she's come back now, and has to take another course here before she can practise in BC. i want to arrange a time for people to come over for massages. she'll bring her table. $25/30mins and $40/hour. i will also send out an email. i'm only going to have 2 or 3 people over (depending on how long people want massages). so first come, first serve.
in other exciting news, i'm going to try to cut back on wheat and soy permanently. i do realise the implications of this (very little/no toast). ever since i got off the cleanse, i've been feeling really sick. and this yummy soy cereal with soy milk makes me want to barf every morning.
i think i'll do some work today. yay!
ang, bre, stef and i met up in the Burn and got it done. i also tried threading for the first time. never, ever have your moustache threaded. i don't even think i had more than ten hairs there. i wanted to try threading there, because wax on my face irritates it. threading your eyebrows = great. moustache/upper lip/whatever you want to call it = crying pain. so far no skin irritation from the threading... but man, it hurts!
i haven't decided if i'm going to blog about the rest of the waxing experience. maybe later, when i'm more awake.
yesterday was my friend's mom's birthday. as usual, it was very nice to go to their house and have yummy food, and hang out. oh, and that brings me to my next thing. my friend's sister is an RMT in ontario. but she's come back now, and has to take another course here before she can practise in BC. i want to arrange a time for people to come over for massages. she'll bring her table. $25/30mins and $40/hour. i will also send out an email. i'm only going to have 2 or 3 people over (depending on how long people want massages). so first come, first serve.
in other exciting news, i'm going to try to cut back on wheat and soy permanently. i do realise the implications of this (very little/no toast). ever since i got off the cleanse, i've been feeling really sick. and this yummy soy cereal with soy milk makes me want to barf every morning.
i think i'll do some work today. yay!
Sunday, June 05, 2005
new crush
ang blogged about this contest where you take a word and change it by one letter to make a new word. i'm in love with this contest. i think i have a crush on it. thanks for sharing ang!
in a perfect world... all the geeks get girls
in a perfect world... all the geeks get girls
wheat sugar dairy
i ate them all yesterday. i don't know if it's connected, but today i felt like crap. so shortly after getting up, i went back to bed. yvonne and i discussed the possibility of my sickness being soy related. there's a good chance, but i'm ignoring that.
i didn't do much today, it felt really weird, because i'm usually busy trying to do/fix something but today i just sat around. i did play some nintendo... a couple games of mariokart, but i totally sucked.
and i met up with ang and her mom for dinner in port moody: yummy. then it was off to the theatre to watch star wars with danielle and jordy, but it was sold out. sadness ensued. so i went with plan B...go home, watch the rock, and do some laundry. not an ideal saturday night, but i wasn't feeling top notch anyway.
i didn't do much today, it felt really weird, because i'm usually busy trying to do/fix something but today i just sat around. i did play some nintendo... a couple games of mariokart, but i totally sucked.
and i met up with ang and her mom for dinner in port moody: yummy. then it was off to the theatre to watch star wars with danielle and jordy, but it was sold out. sadness ensued. so i went with plan B...go home, watch the rock, and do some laundry. not an ideal saturday night, but i wasn't feeling top notch anyway.
Saturday, June 04, 2005
ketchup
today i met up with 2 friends, and got lots done. here are the details.
this morning i started to work right away. did a poster/collage thingy in good time. and sent it off.
then i went to the gym. i was so close to not going, but knowing that i was going to meet kirsten at the cinnamon bun place on alma was incentive enough. and i went up two levels on the bike. okay, embarrassingly, i thought there were only 10 levels on the bike when i started, not 20. that's all i'm going to say.
it was so much fun to see her. she is such a riot. she has this naive innocence that is great for someone as sceptical as me to be around. so sweet. we talked about her trip to europe, her art, her work, her now getting married, and me moving and then leaving for europe. all very exciting. she also insisted that i have my now traditional barbeque for the fireworks if i'm still here when they're on in july.
how appropriate will that be? it was my first real party here, the year i moved in, i still don't know how i fit that many people in my house, and for a barbeque, no less. and then losing my keys on the beach, and magically finding them by digging through the sand. sometimes i have good luck...well bad luck to lose them, good luck to find them... it's all about perspective.
yeah, it was really awesome to see her again. i'm glad she's moved back here from the island. much better this way!
then ian came over and we sat around while he ate his cinnamon bun, and i watched oprah while he showered (nicole kidman and will farell, fun show). then we went downtown to return my modem to the telus store, and go to holt's. i *tried* to get him to go to the furla store, and even bothered to lie and say they have men's stuff there. he was having none of it, so instead we went to the bose store and then to chapters. oh, and then to find a basket for my bike. i wasn't super impressed with a basket costing $19.99, mostly because it was wicker. although wicker on a bike is much much much cuter than wicker in one's house.
we went to another bike store, and the baskets cost more there. that's when i decided that having the book rack on the back would be enough, and i could just bungy my own basket to the back. cause the price is right. :o) free.
then we went to wild garlic for dinner. it was pretty yum. usually the mashed taters are better, but there was garlic all around... always a good thing. then, at ian's suggestion, we DQ'd something different. and then i got my ass kicked at scrabble. i can't find our score card, so once i move we're going to have to start again. maybe then i won't have to cheat by using GA. i really thought it was okay. we also talked about boys and girls. and some confessions were made. which can be fun... when i don't have to be the one making them.
also discussed, paint colours, flooring, vaginas being the place to be, and how hot accents are. oh, and my period. that was discussed in some detail.
all in all, a good day. but i think tomorrow i will have rice and veggies. my body will thank me for it. i'm totally garlic/dairy/breaded out.
this morning i started to work right away. did a poster/collage thingy in good time. and sent it off.
then i went to the gym. i was so close to not going, but knowing that i was going to meet kirsten at the cinnamon bun place on alma was incentive enough. and i went up two levels on the bike. okay, embarrassingly, i thought there were only 10 levels on the bike when i started, not 20. that's all i'm going to say.
it was so much fun to see her. she is such a riot. she has this naive innocence that is great for someone as sceptical as me to be around. so sweet. we talked about her trip to europe, her art, her work, her now getting married, and me moving and then leaving for europe. all very exciting. she also insisted that i have my now traditional barbeque for the fireworks if i'm still here when they're on in july.
how appropriate will that be? it was my first real party here, the year i moved in, i still don't know how i fit that many people in my house, and for a barbeque, no less. and then losing my keys on the beach, and magically finding them by digging through the sand. sometimes i have good luck...well bad luck to lose them, good luck to find them... it's all about perspective.
yeah, it was really awesome to see her again. i'm glad she's moved back here from the island. much better this way!
then ian came over and we sat around while he ate his cinnamon bun, and i watched oprah while he showered (nicole kidman and will farell, fun show). then we went downtown to return my modem to the telus store, and go to holt's. i *tried* to get him to go to the furla store, and even bothered to lie and say they have men's stuff there. he was having none of it, so instead we went to the bose store and then to chapters. oh, and then to find a basket for my bike. i wasn't super impressed with a basket costing $19.99, mostly because it was wicker. although wicker on a bike is much much much cuter than wicker in one's house.
we went to another bike store, and the baskets cost more there. that's when i decided that having the book rack on the back would be enough, and i could just bungy my own basket to the back. cause the price is right. :o) free.
then we went to wild garlic for dinner. it was pretty yum. usually the mashed taters are better, but there was garlic all around... always a good thing. then, at ian's suggestion, we DQ'd something different. and then i got my ass kicked at scrabble. i can't find our score card, so once i move we're going to have to start again. maybe then i won't have to cheat by using GA. i really thought it was okay. we also talked about boys and girls. and some confessions were made. which can be fun... when i don't have to be the one making them.
also discussed, paint colours, flooring, vaginas being the place to be, and how hot accents are. oh, and my period. that was discussed in some detail.
all in all, a good day. but i think tomorrow i will have rice and veggies. my body will thank me for it. i'm totally garlic/dairy/breaded out.
Friday, June 03, 2005
i caved
sooooo many times today.
i *did* end up going to hope today. i got my eyelashes fixed, deposited money into my mom's account, and then gave my brother cheques so he could pay hydro, gas, and phone. i'd been avoiding his calls for the last couple of days... i could tell he wanted money, he was very nice on the phone. and persistant. both clear signs.
on the way home i called danielle. oh weak am i! she said she was going to the mall. i *may* have mentioned that i need new jeans. we shopped. BUT i didn't buy any underwear, and what i did buy was on a list of things i needed. t-shirts, tanks, and a long shirt, oh and the jeans. the skirt wasn't on a list, but i will wear it to danielle's wedding rehearsal, so i'm sure that at some point it would have been on a list. and i didn't buy shoes either. but now i need a pair of cute pink sandal-ish things to go with the skirt. i never wear skirts. i think they look stupid on me. i know that they do. i may wear it tomorrow and see if anyone says anything. i should fake tan my legs if i do that. they are this gross grey colour that is usually reserved for the dead.
oh yeah, so i bought a million tops today. anticipating that this could be my next favourite shirt, i bought one pink and one white shirt that says i (heart) mom. i love it already. and i bought one to send to my friend sarah. i think we should wear them together. well, i don't really think that. but i can guarantee people would ask about it. i also bought one that says voted best hair, 2005. how could i resist? i would have bought this one with a little chick on it, but it was yellow, and yellow does nothing for my skin. oh and i bought a swimsuit too. and by swim suit i mean bikini. clearly for private and tanning purposes, but übercute. and danielle and i bought tickets to this clinique event at guildford on the 15th. there are going to be lots of goodie bags, and presents and samples, etc.. we are very excited about this. the tickets are $10 but you get a $10 g/c when you go. so it's free if you plan to spend $10 on something. fun!
my abs and shoulders are still hurting from tuesday. for real. i had to ask people to please not make me laugh today because i was in so much pain. it was embarrassing. and since i just spend a million dollars at the mall, i should probably not spend money on a massage, unless i get it from rachel's sister who is an RMT but isn't practicing right now, so i could get one from her for $25. but then i'd have to drive to the rock. boo urns.
day one after the cleanse involved a veggie burger for lunch and more rice pasta for dinner. i had half of a crispy rice and chocolate thing from purdy's. i am very weak. i put some freshly purchased cheddar cheese on the pasta sauce. now i feel somewhat ill. it's hard to tell if it's the abs, the tummy, or a combo.
i *did* end up going to hope today. i got my eyelashes fixed, deposited money into my mom's account, and then gave my brother cheques so he could pay hydro, gas, and phone. i'd been avoiding his calls for the last couple of days... i could tell he wanted money, he was very nice on the phone. and persistant. both clear signs.
on the way home i called danielle. oh weak am i! she said she was going to the mall. i *may* have mentioned that i need new jeans. we shopped. BUT i didn't buy any underwear, and what i did buy was on a list of things i needed. t-shirts, tanks, and a long shirt, oh and the jeans. the skirt wasn't on a list, but i will wear it to danielle's wedding rehearsal, so i'm sure that at some point it would have been on a list. and i didn't buy shoes either. but now i need a pair of cute pink sandal-ish things to go with the skirt. i never wear skirts. i think they look stupid on me. i know that they do. i may wear it tomorrow and see if anyone says anything. i should fake tan my legs if i do that. they are this gross grey colour that is usually reserved for the dead.
oh yeah, so i bought a million tops today. anticipating that this could be my next favourite shirt, i bought one pink and one white shirt that says i (heart) mom. i love it already. and i bought one to send to my friend sarah. i think we should wear them together. well, i don't really think that. but i can guarantee people would ask about it. i also bought one that says voted best hair, 2005. how could i resist? i would have bought this one with a little chick on it, but it was yellow, and yellow does nothing for my skin. oh and i bought a swimsuit too. and by swim suit i mean bikini. clearly for private and tanning purposes, but übercute. and danielle and i bought tickets to this clinique event at guildford on the 15th. there are going to be lots of goodie bags, and presents and samples, etc.. we are very excited about this. the tickets are $10 but you get a $10 g/c when you go. so it's free if you plan to spend $10 on something. fun!
my abs and shoulders are still hurting from tuesday. for real. i had to ask people to please not make me laugh today because i was in so much pain. it was embarrassing. and since i just spend a million dollars at the mall, i should probably not spend money on a massage, unless i get it from rachel's sister who is an RMT but isn't practicing right now, so i could get one from her for $25. but then i'd have to drive to the rock. boo urns.
day one after the cleanse involved a veggie burger for lunch and more rice pasta for dinner. i had half of a crispy rice and chocolate thing from purdy's. i am very weak. i put some freshly purchased cheddar cheese on the pasta sauce. now i feel somewhat ill. it's hard to tell if it's the abs, the tummy, or a combo.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
clarification
clarify my body:
i guess i'm supposed to feel revitalised and stuff. maybe the cleanse was too mild to notice a huge difference, but i think something stronger would probably have killed me! *laugh* i was really excited when i woke up this morning, because the cleanse is OVER! but, as i was cataloguing my food, trying to decide what to eat, i remembered that i gave away all of my good food to that girl at work. this morning's breakfast ended up being rice cakes with organic sugarless cashew butter and some homemade raspberry jam... my sugar fix.
clarify my space:
for people that live far away (cause 2 out of 2 people have said) no, i don't live in the condo in the pictures, someone else does. i had to do a building inspection, to remove the subjects. i move in on the 28th of july. as if i'd have all white walls! gross!
clarify my mind:
i've changed my mind, i'm going to jet to hope today. shower first and then go. hopefully it will be a quick trip. i'm just delaying the inevitable otherwise. because i will have to go to hope, and i will not like it. get it done now, or later. now will feel better in the long run.
i guess i'm supposed to feel revitalised and stuff. maybe the cleanse was too mild to notice a huge difference, but i think something stronger would probably have killed me! *laugh* i was really excited when i woke up this morning, because the cleanse is OVER! but, as i was cataloguing my food, trying to decide what to eat, i remembered that i gave away all of my good food to that girl at work. this morning's breakfast ended up being rice cakes with organic sugarless cashew butter and some homemade raspberry jam... my sugar fix.
clarify my space:
for people that live far away (cause 2 out of 2 people have said) no, i don't live in the condo in the pictures, someone else does. i had to do a building inspection, to remove the subjects. i move in on the 28th of july. as if i'd have all white walls! gross!
clarify my mind:
i've changed my mind, i'm going to jet to hope today. shower first and then go. hopefully it will be a quick trip. i'm just delaying the inevitable otherwise. because i will have to go to hope, and i will not like it. get it done now, or later. now will feel better in the long run.
working/playing
today i spent hours pricing jewelry at home and listening to leonard cohen (it's what was in my stereo, and i couldn't move for all of the jewelry). at least i didn't have to work at the store. and i got the first look at new soul flower. i think it's susan's best season yet. i picked out a bracelet and earrings, but forgot my wallet when i went in to pay. oops. i also got my ass kicked at a game of carcassonne with jeffy. but i'm still super excited about being able to play online again... and NOT have to get a PC to do so. now we just need to set up a time so that three or more of us can play catan. oooh sweet catan.
i was tossing around the idea of going to hope tomorrow, but i've decided not to. i can go another day. i have lots of house stuff and general random things to do tomorrow. like pick up my clinique order at holt's and drop off that modem to telus. and a bunch of other less fun things that will feel good to get done.
amazingly, i've stuck to the last day of my cleanse. it's been hardest at the beginning and the end. at the beginning because i was in withdrawal, and at the end because i was in bore-ville. tomorrow i will allow myself some cheese. i'll take it easy... i don't want to make myself sick...but it's very exciting. i didn't go to the grocery store today because i knew i wouldn't be strong enough to resist the freshly baked bread and delicious cheese.
i also got to talk to my friend sarah today. we were online for over an hour and a half. catching up takes a while. she may come out in july for a few days, which would be fun. then i'd get to see her before i leave for europe (just in case i don't go to ontario on my way). it'd be nice to see her mom before i leave.
i was tossing around the idea of going to hope tomorrow, but i've decided not to. i can go another day. i have lots of house stuff and general random things to do tomorrow. like pick up my clinique order at holt's and drop off that modem to telus. and a bunch of other less fun things that will feel good to get done.
amazingly, i've stuck to the last day of my cleanse. it's been hardest at the beginning and the end. at the beginning because i was in withdrawal, and at the end because i was in bore-ville. tomorrow i will allow myself some cheese. i'll take it easy... i don't want to make myself sick...but it's very exciting. i didn't go to the grocery store today because i knew i wouldn't be strong enough to resist the freshly baked bread and delicious cheese.
i also got to talk to my friend sarah today. we were online for over an hour and a half. catching up takes a while. she may come out in july for a few days, which would be fun. then i'd get to see her before i leave for europe (just in case i don't go to ontario on my way). it'd be nice to see her mom before i leave.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
day 15
i am soooooo tired of this cleanse. i want a sandwich, and although it is one day too early, today could be the day. otherwise the cleanse is going well.
photos
so, the pics are pretty obvious, the one of the kitchen is with rachel's mom - who looks like she's whipping something up to eat, but it's a lie.
pics
i've uploaded some of the pics to flickr. once jeffy comes online i'll get them to my blog. i'm working at home today, yay!
here we go down now to the southside
it's official. on the 28th of july i will move in to my newly purchased, two bedroom, twice as big as my current place, condo in white rock, also known as the rock. it's true that the rock is known as a place where white people go to die, but it's a nice little town, and my condo is a block from the express bus to downtown. and as rachel's mom said, i'll have family near-by; by family she means her family, which is übersweet. and although i can't have a barbeque on my balcony, rachel's mom has told me that if i want to have a barbeque, i can just use their house.
i hope to trade ian my barbeque for services. he needs a barbeque, and i need someone to put flooring in to my apartment... and i'll need him to fix the aluminium wiring... and there's the plug in the bathroom that needs to be changed, and of course painting to be done. and lots of it...
the whole apartment is currently various shades of white. i took lots of polaroids so i can figure out colours, flooring and setup. this will be a little more exciting than when i did my current condo because i feel like i now know what style works best for my life and i won't have to stress about committing to a style. i guess time will tell though - i haven't been able to spend more than 15mins in ikea since i furnished this place three years ago.
i can't figure out uploading pics to my blog (despite detailed instructions from jeffy), so i will scan these tomorrow and email to people.
oh, i got an oil change and the emergency light switch fixed in my car, so now i'm totally ready to roll on short notice.
i hope to trade ian my barbeque for services. he needs a barbeque, and i need someone to put flooring in to my apartment... and i'll need him to fix the aluminium wiring... and there's the plug in the bathroom that needs to be changed, and of course painting to be done. and lots of it...
the whole apartment is currently various shades of white. i took lots of polaroids so i can figure out colours, flooring and setup. this will be a little more exciting than when i did my current condo because i feel like i now know what style works best for my life and i won't have to stress about committing to a style. i guess time will tell though - i haven't been able to spend more than 15mins in ikea since i furnished this place three years ago.
i can't figure out uploading pics to my blog (despite detailed instructions from jeffy), so i will scan these tomorrow and email to people.
oh, i got an oil change and the emergency light switch fixed in my car, so now i'm totally ready to roll on short notice.
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