thank you jeebus

there's iron in m&ms. believe it baby. this is probably a mixed blessing. yes, at least i'm getting iron, no i shouldn't be encouraged to do so through m&ms. i am tempted though.

today started off a bit rough for me. i woke up this morning wanting to tell my mom about this stupid dream i had. instead i will tell all of you. i'll try to keep it short. please note, yesterday i watched a TONNE of television. i'm a little surprised i managed to get off the floor at all. so, in brackets will be the show/movie that was referenced in my dream.

i dreamed that danielle, jordy and i were shopping in new york at this sort of market where they sell knock-off bags (csi NY). we were having fun, and then i had to go to the bathroom. i guess i hadn't been feeling well and somehow decided to take a pregnancy test in a public bathroom-like i *ever* would-but it is a dream (MEN WITH BROOMS). anyway, i told danielle i have to go home. so somehow we're back at her house, but the house is exactly her mother-in-law's in real life. and i'm a bit worried, but not totally about being pregnant (csi MIAMI). so danielle is asking me about who's baby it is (law & order SVU) and i'm like, i don't know... i've had my period since the last time i had sex. so since i didn't get to see any of the ladies on tv have babies, that's where my dream ended. oh, and i remember being happy about starting to get a baby belly. cause i love them. and i love pregnant ladies.

anyone who says that tv doesn't influence children should hop over to my brain. weird things happen here... i still freak myself out with that stalker one where the guy lives the girl's ceiling and phones her using her own phone line. maybe i'm just easily influenced.

oh, and yesterday i deleted over 1000 emails. sent and received. for real. and that was only in one account.

the height of the matter

ummm... i may have been lying to myself for the past few years. as in the past 10. i think when i go to the doctor's on thursday, i will get her measure me. i measured myself today. i'm going to say, not the most accurate method. sit down for this one, i think i may be shorter than 5"10.

when james and karen were over, somehow (via ian) it came up that i think i'm 5"10. maybe i used to be. on my passport it says 175cm. and that's my german passport. the germans are accurate. then ian started throwing out crazy ideas of me being as short as 5"7. i was in shock. people have never hit me with those kind of numbers before. i was willing to concede to 5"9-5"9 1/2. he was having none of it. as of this afternoon, he may be closer to the mark than me.

maybe once i start with yoga again (this week, for sure) my muscles will elongate and i'll be tall again. wish me luck, it's been a hard day!

fated

i really need to find my headphone for my iPod. at the gym tonight there was a heavy breather. i don't just mean, "wooo! i'm hardcore working out, so my breath is heavy". i mean, this guy had such random expulsions of air, it was totally distracting me from the flare article on traveling to ireland that i stumbled on.

which brings me to my title.

i don't want to put any kind of pressure on myself regarding this trip. because that is basically what i'm running away from. my goals there include but are not exclusive to: having a job where i really am finished when my shift is over, traveling around a bit, learning some irish, being able to mimic an irish accent at least somewhat decently (i claim no skills in this area currently), meeting people with cute irish accents, and having heaps of fun. so far, i have no idea how long i'm going for. depending on circumstances, i could be there for forever. i could also be there for a month. it's hard to say. but it is super fun to read into little things and accept them as fate saying i'm on the right track. i could be lying to myself, but i don't mind.

according to the article, designer bags are becoming super hot in ireland, so i'm really excited about that. it means i don't *have* to bring 10 bags with me. 4 or so will probably do. not including luggage bags. those are a totally separate issue. but i mean, c'mon! how often does someone come across a travel article about a place they're going to and it talks about one of their favourite things? actually, i'm kinda interested in those odds... if anyone knows off hand.

along with getting my passports worked out this week, i'm going to start thinking about key clothing to bring with me, so that when i see something on my list i can scoop it up, and not rush when i'm leaving. luckily, i won't have to really worry about the season. if i'm only gone for fall through spring i won't have to worry about summery clothes, except for going to spain and greece, and maybe the red sea. hmmm... this could be trickier than i thought.

anyway, back to work, and then to sleep!

couching tiger

when i bought my new chair and couch, i was told there is a three week wait on delivery. yesterday i got a call that i can have them as early at wednesday. needless to say, i will be anxiously awaiting the phone call on wednesday to let me know the 4 hour time frame that they will be here.

oh! to sit on a comfy chair/sofa again. i'm very excited.

cruisin' for karma

last week, if you'll recall, i went off on a big rant about tom cruise and katie, "isn't she wonderful" holmes. on thursday, when i got home, there were only like 10 mins left of oprah, and of course! it was the very oprah show that got me going in the first place. and then! the next day, i brought my friend some movies (she's not allowed to leave the house right now) and some breakkie. what was she watching? YES!! the same oprah.

woe is me.

iJames and dr.K have left the building

yesterday james and karen stayed for a visit on their way to victoria for the tall ships.

it was so great to see them. now that karen has her own practice, i don't think that it will be very easy to convince them to move to bc. not that i'll be here in a bit, but still.

there was lots of talking, went for indian (since they hadn't had indian since i last saw them), went for a little walk, came back played tonnes of euchre and had eton surprise. which was a hit (thanks to michelle for the recipe). i have a feeling ian will be more than happy to cut strawberries for that again.

this morning we got up super early so james and karen could go to the ferry and ian could get to work and still go to breakkie. we went to the naam, and service was a bit slow, but since there were only a few other people there at 7am, it wasn't bad. everyone left at a good time.

there was talk of meeting up in kelowna so we could go camping before i leave for europe. that would be awesome. i really do have a great time hanging out with them, and it always makes me sad to see them leave. luckily going back to bed for 5 hours helps.

gifted again?!

wow! how's that for a week? i got something else in the mail today, but i must have been at the gym when hot stu dropped it off.

kenji sent me 3 tapes of law and order, SVU, CI, CSI, CSI miami, and probably some CSI NY. :o)

how stoked and excited am i? very. also exciting is that iJames (aka Huge) and dr. Karen are coming to visit tonight!

this is turning out to be a great week, insomnia or not.

with a name like ursula...you'll be swinging.

that's what erna told me today when i told her i was moving to europe for a while.

oh erna.

today ian and i went shopping for a couch and a chair for me. inspiration furniture is having a sale, so i cashed in on it. i bought a chocolate brown micro-fibre two-seater and a chocolate brown, armless chair.

they look very nice. very modern. YAY!

gifted!

today i got fun things in the mail from office jan who is currently in japan.

i got some cute tissues (one package has a pig that says one, the next a pig that says one, a cow that says two, and the last one a pig that says one, a cow that says two and a sheep that says three! so cute!!!) and some mystery product that may or may not be jel filled. maybe it's lip gloss. maybe i have no idea. neither of which were the bracelet that the customs tag said, but that was a good decoy. it's all very exciting.

thanks janet! thanet!

yahooooo!!! presents!!!

call de police, police

i know that i am not the best dressed person out there. especially not in kits.

BUT i do know to not wear a skirt that's so short that when i walk in it, you can see my red underwear. also, i know to not wear clear straps on my bra to the gym.

1. buy a longer skirt.

2. buy a bra that sits properly under your lululemon shirt, or just don't dress like you're gonna hit a club after you work out.

kids these days.

focus! focus!

it's true, a crap sleep makes it hard for me to focus.

last night i made a wicked list of things to get done today, i've only done two. well, actually i guess i've done three. hey, things are starting to look up.

yesterday, toren brought me two more travel books: ireland and scotland. now i have books for everywhere i want to go in europe, spain and greece were already passed on earlier. during the non-sleeping hours last night, i totally read through the ireland one, and i'm determined to remember some irish words. slán leat is really the only thing i remember so far. oh, except that i recognise, "how are you?" because to me it looks fairly french. it's very exciting. and as i was telling G today, i'm more than happy to add another barely used language to my roster. dutch being the first.

i had a weird-o dream this morning. i dreamed my sister and i couldn't get on the same flight together to germany. so i made her pretend she needed to use a wheelchair (i think this might have got us to first class, like when i took my mom to cirque and we got front row for the price of the cheapest tickets). anyway, at some point she got up to walk, and then we were about to get busted by a stewardess, and we had to tell her my sister only needs the wheelchair for long-distances.

maybe i'm doing something bad and feel guilty about it. the thing is, i can usually recognise guilt from a mile away!!!

okay, now i'm going to be late if i don't go. and that's the ultimate motivation.

insomnia strikes again

maybe it's karma because of my rage against tom and katie. in any case, i can't sleep!!! boo-urns. it's especially frustrating because i was sooo tired while getting my ass kicked at nintendo tonight.

and for some reason all i can smell are these bagels i grabbed from ian's house that we ended up having an argument about whether or not i could smell them through the bag. they smell like sugar/fake syrup. that, and the ever-present iron.

lack of sleep will do that to you kids.

okay, i need to focus.

i will make a list.

oh, and p.s., it's times like these that make me think my friends don't blog enough.

as advertised

i was thinking of blogging about how much i hate tom cruise and katie holmes, and how much their very existence makes me ill, but then jeffy kinda covered it in his blog. i love oprah. i cannot watch her talk about/to tom cruise. it makes me nauseous. not that it takes that much recently, but honestly, what's more than barfing? a migrane? violent. yes. it makes me violent. and embarassed for them.

oh! i am sooo in love! i'm going to jump around, on furniture, because that will show you how much in love i am. so much so, that i will act like i'm even younger than katie, "isn't she wonderful" holmes.

seriously, i can usually separate myself from this media insanity, and at least genuinely not care. neither of them are very good at their profession, and i find them both incredibly annoying... when i see them anywhere, let alone on every magazine at the grocery store, i want to rip off my own leg and beat myself until i pass out so i don't have to look at them anymore. why can't i distance myself this time? because, worse than j-lo and ben affleck, these two are everywhere, boring the hell out of me with their inane adoration. at least there's arguable talent in the j-lo/ben affleck combo. they're not even going to invite katie holmes back to the sequel of batman begins. and this is probably the height of her career. brutal.

i cna't even decide if them breaking up would end this torture? i mean, everyone will have to then blame angelina and try to figure out why something so horrible could happen. (see jen and brad).

in any case, i don't exactly want them dead, i just don't want to ever hear of them again. inevitably this overexposure will lead to the backlash that will prolong the painful experience that is katie holmes and tom cruise.

cuttin' muffins

there are two stories here:

1. i just got back from the gym and the grocery store. i can't believe how many people are at the gym (please note i got there around 10.30). and then afterwards, how many people were full-out grocery shopping. it's crazy. it's like when you travel somewhere. how do so many people have the need to say fly to germany on a wednesday. or why is my flight to japan that started in mexico city so full. i had no idea there were so many mexicans going to japan every day. it always leads to my next statement: don't these people work? it's what i'm always thinking as i drive along 1st ave. at some weird pre-rush hour time where these people should be at work, not in my way.

2. in the section of the gym that i like to do cardio (it's away from the noisy weights and boys grunting, and often has yoga-style music playing) there were only two of us on the machines. the other people were doing mat stuff. anyway, i got on the eliptical machine right next to the other girl. the other two don't have a place for your water. so i'm huffing away, and then i smelled it. stinkville. and i totally tried to breathe through my mouth, but whenever i do that, i remember that that actually means you're tasting what you smell. so i literally was trying not to barf!

i really think farting's okay. in fact, i do it. :oD it's hard to believe, i know. but please don't fart at the gym. i have a sensitive nose.

now i have to change my msn name from muffin. it brings up bad memories.

i wonder if i took you home

would you still be in love, baby?

clearly a totally stolen title but whatev, the point is there.

on the way home, and completely unrelated to the events of the evening, i was thinking about how crap it is that a guy is expected to want to sleep with a girl as quickly as possible. if he's super shy or not very experienced (awkward) then these become valid excuses, and cute even. but if a girl has any kind of want to get it on before three dates then she's easy... and becomes a non-viable choice for a long-term relationship that's based on anything more than sex.

of course there are exceptions. it's still annoying.

head trauma

last night after the gym, i almost KO'd myself. how can this have happened, you may ask. well, apparently getting into my car is NOT my forte. i have caused massive bruising on my arms, i've hurt my toe, and last night, i hit my head. i'm happy to report there has been no visual signs of this clumbsiness.

and since i'm already a little loopy, no one's noticed the internal damage! yahoo!!!

in other exciting news, i've got lots of sex in a pan... so anyone that's interested is hereby invited over (once i get dressed) to indulge in that and some cherry cha cha. oh, and danielle's mom gave me masses of cheese sticks... some of which are also up for grabs.

because i know everyone's wondering about my experience with iron pills i'll elaborate. they taste really really gross. you know when you were a kid and had that metal play set in the back yard? well, they taste like that. and PLEASE don't tell me you never licked it once, because i don't believe any of you! the difference is that the taste lasts a long time.

the end of strawberry season

(thank goodness!)

if strawberries and sugar and whipping cream had iron, i would have cured myself in one sitting. unfortunately, they do not.

had a great time meeting michelle, and being stuffed sick with the aforementioned goodies. say hello to a new tradition of annual strawberry socials. this was such a great idea... tea and chatting... that i plan to do this at least once a year. sorry to steal your idea michelle. it will be done with thoughts of you.

if i can roll myself out of bed (i no longer have a couch) father's day will be spent with the stewarts. we're going out for sushi/rolls.

heaven

today's surprise bridal shower turned out very well. i would even say it was a success. i made way too much food though. it always makes me sad to bring food that i've made home. part of the problem, as in the real world, was distribution. i brought over nanaimo bars, cherry cha cha, spinach dip (this tasted good, why wasn't it eaten? non-vegetarians is what i think.) chocolate dipped strawberries (these WERE all eaten) chips, crackers, and buns (i *told* marlene i would grab buns, but she bought some too... hers were boring safeway ones, my deluxe, she put hers out). anyway, i gave some buns to a homeless guy and some to becca to take home.

danielle was surprised (she thought the massage party was a hoax, and that it might be tonight). and i think everyone had fun! yay! i am soooooo glad that is over. four more wedding events and it's over (stagette, rehearsal, real, and brunch).

massages were awesome and exactly what i needed to finish off the week. thanks becca. it's nice to have someone come over and do it. that's service. she has a portable bed, so it's not like we're forsaking quality for convenience. oh no. things were good. i seriously need to look into more frequent massages. like weekly. that's my dream... one of them.

breathe.

tomorrow is a strawberry social and then it's a whole new week.

goodnews/badnews

goodnews

had my follow-up appointment with the skin doctor...cause i got all those tests done march. i don't have lupus (i didn't actually know we were testing for that...oops). anyway, i also don't have rheumatoid (sp?) arthritis. whatever. oh, and my kidneys are functioning great. anyway, my eczema looks really good, you can't even tell i have it on my hands anymore. so he (the doctor) is happy about that. as am i!!!


badnews

i have anemia! i now have two options. eat meat or take iron pills. or maybe do both. the information has been passed on to my real doctor and i'll talk to her about it. in the meantime, dr. jeffy gave me some advice including finding out what kind it is. and telling me that spinach won't help me. i guess this explains the increased dizziness and tiredness. i still wouldn't do that stupid cleanse again.

i feel like this diagnosis just confirms my feelings of being detached from my body lately. on one hand, i've felt like i don't have any clue why my body's being so weird...detached by the symptoms. on the other, the symptoms have contributed to the detachment. first the mind, then the body. step one and two.

funny thing though. at the beginning of the appointment when he was looking through the test results, he was like, yeah, your iron levels are really low... and i said: that's why i have eczema? *laugh* it didn't make sense to me either... i mean, how are they connected? he said no, they do the test because it has something to do with an organ...kidneys, i think. so yeah, not connected.


tomorrow dalia picks up my couch. in some ways it will be sad to say goodbye to it. including not having anywhere comfortable to sit. and making karen and james use their camping equipment when they sleep over next friday. in other ways, i'm happy. yay! i get to get a new couch!!!

today during a crazy amount of carcasonne i won a couple games. my skills are improving, i am becoming a more worthy opponent. i plan to eventually crush everyone in my path. it may take a lot of sitting in front of my computer, but with the couch gone, where else will i sit? heh heh! first manhattan, and then ontario!!! muwah ha ha ha!!!

so sore!

i totally called it. my shoulders are so frickin' sore this morning. i think what put me over the edge was the extra flexing last night (see dorkville below). how i will be able to do anything today is beyond me. with the exception of having a massage of course. i could easily handle that!

dorkville

oh my gosh, i am such a dork. so i was just sitting here touching my arm because it's sore. and then i started to examine it. and by examine, i mean flex and touch the muscle and stuff like that. the conclusion: still chubby, but more muscle, i think. yup (just felt both sides and flexed again and stuff). i think i am getting stronger! soon i won't be the weakest woman in the world. i will be weak, but not the weakest! yahoo!!!

who wants to arm wrestle?! bring it on!

marriage proposal

this evening, someone asked if i would marry them. they did just have some of the amazing chocolate dipped strawberries that i made today. and then we discussed the best mac and cheese. i think they might have been under the influence.

it was kinda funny though, because i was telling ian that as i was making lunch this afternoon, i was like: huh, i really wouldn't mind being a stay-at-home person. i could just work part time, and have fun cooking and stuff. that would be good times, i think. i need to test this out... to see if i really would like it.

went to foundation again for the benito or whatever it's called called. yum! and ian took apart my couch so dalia can pick it up on saturday. it's gonna be a bit weird to only have two chairs for furniture until i get around to buying a new couch. i may not buy one until i get back...in the meantime, i'll look into some throw pillows and not invite many people over, i guess.

speaking of which, in one week and 13 hours (ish) james and karen will be here! yahoo! with them comes catan and euchre action. i schooled ian a bit tonight, so that if he's my partner we don't get completely slaughtered. also tonight, i went over to bre's sister's house (with the strawberries) and we went down to the beach and watched stef do some poi, or whatever it is. she lit them up and it was wicked. it was soooo funny when some kids (posing as older than they were) came over and asked if they could watch too. did i mention they had taken their shirts off just before they walked over. we made fun of them, and i was like: you are closer to 16 than to 19 buddy, cause he really looked 14. anyway, he tried to pull off, oh i'm almost 19 and failed miserably. turns out they were from surrey, and no one wanted their pot enough to pretend we liked them. i guess there are limits for everyone!


(oh, in fairness i should mention that i played carcasonne with jeffy again today. i didn't win, but i came close one game. i'll probably stick with only mentioning my wins mostly, unless it's significant in some other way. let it be known, jeffy almost always wins, cause he's a great player, and by great, i mean a JERK player always mooching in on my cities.)

i am soooo weak!

oh god. this morning, after a crap sleep last night i quickly got ready for the gym. luckily i forgot the name of the street the kits community centre is on, because it gave me time to eat my soy bar. my arms are already killing me, and it's just the same day. i think tomorrow i'm going to be crying!

i may have to explore the option of liposuction more in depth. too bad all these doctors i know are GPs. :oD

on that note: time to get the chocolate dipped strawberries going!!

winning streak

today i won two things. a game of carcasonne with kenji and jeffy and a gift basket at the clinique party. did i mention i'm back? :o)

kenji and jeffy are really good at games... and honestly, i haven't won at carcasonne online yet. one time i came close. but then this stranger that we let join our game beat us. that's when we made the rule: no strangers. i say it's because i hate them. jeffy says it's because they're not that fun to play with. jeffy's hardcore at catan and carcasonne. but i like it, despite rarely winning. i feel like i really have to try hard, which means i will be able to crush others, and on occasion, the master. it improves my game, and makes winning sweeter.

at the clinique counter there was a huge basket that was the grand prize, and some small flower pots for the other prizes. i won one with perfume, eyeliner (the one i almost bought with yvonne at holts), some age cream thing...that now that i think about it, i probably already have a sample of, and a double sided brush (the most exciting part, because those are soooo expensive, and i didn't have that one). but you also got a gift bag that had mascara, a puffy thing, a bag, ummm... some perfume, lipgloss, and maybe some other stuff. and then with a purchase you get to pick some sample stuff to take too. very exciting.

there were three stations to travel to over the evening, the eye and lips section, a bronzer/blush section and a skin care consulation section. totally fun! honestly.

oh, and they DID have strawberry stuff there. some tart thing, and of course chocolate dipped strawberries! the strawberries were perfectly ripe, so they were über delicious. and when we got there, they had some sandwiches out, and i remembered what ang told me about how when they pass the sandwiches out at her board meetings, she takes a bunch of the veggie ones as soon as they get to her, because otherwise she will only be left with meat ones. so i ate two egg ones really quickly. and the rest were gone when i went back... only meat ones were left. good call ang.

sweating to the oldies

ohmygosh!

i don't know what it was but today i was sweating hardcore at the gym. it was funny though, because as i was totally sweating i came across an article about excessive sweaters in the men's magazine that i picked up to read. apparently you can have botox injected into your pits. i don't think i really have a problem with sweat, but it was funny that i was soooo sweaty today, and i came across the article.

also in the magazine were tips on spanking properly. which i found very interesting. and then i guessed that it wasn't an american magazine. and it wasn't. oh canada. improving on sex anyway we can. yahoo!!!

strawberry socials

i've never been to one in my life. well, not that i know of. BUT!!! as of sunday, i'll have been to 2! can you believe it? well, do.

tomorrow is the clinique strawberry social. okay, i totally know this sounds a bit bonkers. especialy because danielle and i had to buy tickets. (you get the money back from the ticket if you buy anything). the best part is that they are going to be giving away tonnes of stuff. you get a gift bag if you go, and a discount on anything you buy, and there are going to be lots of prizes. it's all very exciting. i hope they have strawberries there.

which brings me to my next strawberry social... on sunday. also very fun, because i *know* there will be strawberry items there. yay! and i'm excited to meet the hostess who has hinted at the potential of martha stewart recipes. i'm stoked about someone who also uses martha as a selling point for food. to me, it equals fine ingredients, a lot of hard work, and delicious results. yay martha!! yay followers of the martha gospel!!

with all these strawberry centred events going on, i'm going to buy some strawberries in the valley and make chocolate covered strawberries. it'll be my first time, but i have made chocolate icecream bowls before, so really, how hard can this be?

welcome back

it was a regular kind of day today. which means, it was kinda nice.

i was telling yvonne that i'm starting to feel like myself again. i've kind of been continuing on the "cleaning house" theme lately.

i've told a couple people off within the last week. including my boss. once i told her, "i think you're crazy. you need to get your priorities straight. what are you doing? what are your goals here?" our relationship has come back to us being friends. of course, part of that is that i'm only doing contract work for the store and i'm way less stressed out about it. another part is that i'd really just had enough, and needed to clean my slate. she was really receptive, which only encouraged me to keep going. anyway, it's been nice to work with her again.

she's not the only one, i've pretty much been on a roll. and it feels good. it's not even really the telling off part, cause i didn't really consider it that. but i did put some stuff out there. i guess it's a bit of an emotional cleanse, since i've finally recovered from the physical one.

to this i say, welcome back, ursula. i've been feeling a lot better about stuff, i'm getting excited about things again, and working on clearer perspective. as predicted, the closer i get to finishing up things on my list, the less stressed i feel. thanks for bearing with me... i'm getting there.

hot lips cured me

to celebrate my not getting sick from food anymore, and my miraculous recovery (almost) from whatever was wrong with the side of my face, today i had hot lips.

oh how i missed you.

in other news, i *finally* finished the project that brings rachel to tears. i doubt there are things she hates more, but between them, cross-stitch and quilting that is, it's hard to say which she hates the most. anyway, i finished the cross-stitch that i was still working on at knitting in the buff, and for whatever number of years i'd been working on it before then. possibly two. i will take a picture and post it. it's going to be her birthday present. i will hang it at my house, somewhere prominent... so she can see it everyday she's there. it will be a magical things. :o)

also today, i got some work done, and ad that was unexpectedly due (i got the details on friday, and was simply told to look into it. this morning i saw that the deadline was on friday). and have plenty more where that came from. i didn't nap today, and now i have to stay up late to at least make up for playing games for a good portion of the day... and doing a bit of cross-stitch of course.

i don't know if i blogged it, but i did tell danielle that i thought the bridesmaid's dress makes my boobs look smaller. when i put it on, and she pinned it, i was like: huh, i can barely remember a time when my boobs *were* this small. weird, but fun. i like boobs as much as the next girl, but it's always fun to mess around with change!

okay, pj's, jann arden, some fruit, and designing. whoo hoo!

waste-o

okay, i *did* watch speed 2 tonight. it's just over. it was bad. but really, not as bad as i thought it would be. i think i have a bit of a soft spot in my heart for stupid action movies. well, sometimes at least.

i do feel like that's a lot of time of my life that i won't get back, but i did need to let my hair dry after showering, and i needed something to kill the time while i enjoyed some mac & cheese.

so, maybe not so bad afterall.

i'm tossing around the idea of doing work instead of going to bed, but i think bed is winning.

babies! babies! babies!

thanks to cheryl for the tip on checking out kenji's blog ASAP. a cute little baby boy was born today. congratulations.

apparently there's some type of insurance you can get to have cute babies. Kai, of course, was born with a full head of hair... and i bet that's one kid that'll be able to get his dad to help him dye it green. oh the bonding! and now Rei has a little brother. yay!!!

things like this make me consider getting one of those baby things. once i grow up, of course!

take a picture, it'll last longer

i've never had my hair in hot rollers, i do like this "pods on my head" look. makes me think of bun boy.


well, this is the cutest picture of the day for me, so i had to post it.


okay, my boobs and sides look funny, but that's where it's getting taken in. this is pretty much how i'll look on the 16th. hopefully the bangs are less curly... i really should have asked her to flat iron it. they started curling up 70's style as soon as i left the salon.

hairy situation

today was getting hairs did for danielle's wedding, and dress fitting for the same event. i swear to god, if i gain a pound and it choses to go to my chest instead of my ass (why, it would change its mind now, who knows) i will not be able to fit back into it. i wouldn't let her take any in around the butt. i need to sit down in this thing. and it's already going to be f'ing hot. anyway, hair and dress are good.

my face was still hurting when i woke up this morning, but by the afternoon, things were getting better. i'll try to make a doctor's appointment for next week some time. oh, and good news, i ate lunch today, and was only a little sick, and after dinner, barely sick at all. so i'm getting back on the food train... which hopefully will not lead to any of the above mentioned chest expansion.

after hair and dress i went to a&b sound. picked up some cds: jann arden, coldplay, weezer and dmb. leonard cohen has finally been ousted by a newer and younger model.

after dinner was: RETURN OF THE SITH!!! yahoo!!! finally! i can't believe i've seen it now. totally the best of the new three. perhaps my favourite ever. i don't care what original 3 purists say, i loved this one. way better than i expected, and ewan is f'ing hottt. the light sabre fights were wicked. i am a happy $10.95 payee.

i got the lady to take a couple pics of me in my dress. i'll see how they turned out and decide if i will upload. stay tuned.

hanged over

today was a messed up hang over. i haven't had one in years, but (i'm guessing) a combintion of not drinking in about a month and not having had any chocolate in a long time didn't work out so well for me. oh, and to top it off, at the end of the night, gio bought me a pita (this means bread and dairy). i felt like crap this morning, and since i didn't wake up until 10, i couldn't go back to bed for a morning nap. so instead i napped this afternoon.

i really really wanted pancakes for breakkie, but that didn't happen, and i couldn't make them at home because i have no eggs. oops. so i had left over pad thai!

then i made ian come over so we could have dinner. went to foundation and had a wicked veggie burger... ian had some mango and rice pasta dish... i can't remember exactly, but it was tasty of course. i was a little worried about bringing him there (cause it's all veggie, and i had a not-so-great experience when i tried to introduce another meat eater to it). anyway, ian loved it. yay! and he had sweet potato pie, so i finally got to taste a dessert there. so i was on a good food high, but now i'm crashing.

i didn't do too much else today except avoid committing to working next week, because i'm supposed to be finished!!! and think about how i could be getting work done, but how much i'd rather just sit around, maybe even napping.

tomorrow i work, and try to avoid working next week.

toothpaste

i was trying to explain to someone how anal i am about the littlest thing s. and he sent me this link..

toothpaste song

oh, i broke the rule

but not that drunk. just a little.

ummm... those f;ing prada shoes are so uncomfortable.

and oh, i can't wait fro breakkie. pancakes!!! oh, and apparantly drinking makes me be less sick to wheat, cause i had a pits. no, a pita.

the lord works in mysterious ways

after my morning nap i headed out to the coq to pick up anghold for some knicker-type shopping... how much underwear can a girl have? well, it was specific to the gown i'm wearing in july, so clearly, i didn't have enough.

anyway, i stopped on granville island for a jesus puppet for K, but they were out. they only had abraham (which i would like to mention, i recognised!) so she's going to look at home or order in jesus. that's the news on that, K.

then ang and i went to diane's, and picked up bras. yahoo! and went for dinner at thai away home. then we went to her friend's house to hang out for a bit.

after dropping ang off at school, i headed for church. clearly i misunderstood when the minister said the wednesday class is over in june. i thought he meant at the end, but i guess that's just when he's leaving. that means i got to come home, talk to rachel online and blog. and maybe sweep the floor and shower.


yay!

morning nap

it's almost time to indulge in my recently aquired habit of having a morning nap.

but i only got up an hour and a half ago? i know, but someone's got to be tired. i may only go back for a 1/2 hour. that would require a lot of discipline at this point. but i do have lots of house work to do before i go and pick ang up for some underthings shopping. and dinner.

it's going to be a busy afternoon. i should get some rest... you know, to build up my strength.

keep the faith 2

my friend kenji is one of the wisest people i know (this has nothing to do with any tapes he may be sending me). tonight we talked about a few things, including how i feel like a phoney at church because i don't think i have the right faith. i want to believe, but the concrete evidence part of me is so strong. i am of two minds when it comes to the idea/faith of a lord. kenji, as usual, came to the rescue, "i like thinking of god as sophia, incarnate wisdom". which kinda works for me. and with that in mind, it looks like church this wednesday... with one less thing to feel guilty about and one more person to pray for. thanks kenj.

keep the faith

(hey, that's a quality bon jovi tune!)

as mentioned, this has been the shittest year of my life. there are people who have had it worse off than me, absolutely. and i'm sure it's a bit arrogant of me to fall onto this, but really, having a blog is a bit arrogant. what should really happen is that i pick up the phone and talk to someone. then again, it is after midnight... who would be up?

i really do feel like my friends are my family, as part of being my friend one of the unspoken deals is that i will want to adopt your parents... or make them want to adopt me. i'm really into parents. they tend to be into me.

it's like i've been searching for replacements in case of emergency. my roommate's parents (from first year) were like my "ontario parents" for a long time. they picked me up and dropped me off at the airport to go home (we usually ran a bit late, but it became expected that i would have to run for the plane) i would go over for easter dinner, they let me drive their car and their daughter to kingston from ottawa. they came to my graduation. honestly, her parents are some of the funniest people you could meet. her dad has unstoppable dad humour, and her mom is so generous and quirky and sweet! i think about them a lot, and should probably have kept in better contact with them.

now my friend will be going through something that i truly would not wish on anyone. her mom is probably about where my mom was 8 months ago. i'm sure part of it is unresolved issues with my mom's death, but i really can't believe that this is happening. i totally totally get that parents will die, and they should before their children. i can't get my head around this... i have so many arguments against this, but i'm just not getting a response.

so, dear friend, please remember that there are people all the way over here who love you and your family. friends that hope for the best, and who understand.

i cried

yesterday was waxing day. if i said it didn't hurt, i'd be lying.

ang, bre, stef and i met up in the Burn and got it done. i also tried threading for the first time. never, ever have your moustache threaded. i don't even think i had more than ten hairs there. i wanted to try threading there, because wax on my face irritates it. threading your eyebrows = great. moustache/upper lip/whatever you want to call it = crying pain. so far no skin irritation from the threading... but man, it hurts!

i haven't decided if i'm going to blog about the rest of the waxing experience. maybe later, when i'm more awake.

yesterday was my friend's mom's birthday. as usual, it was very nice to go to their house and have yummy food, and hang out. oh, and that brings me to my next thing. my friend's sister is an RMT in ontario. but she's come back now, and has to take another course here before she can practise in BC. i want to arrange a time for people to come over for massages. she'll bring her table. $25/30mins and $40/hour. i will also send out an email. i'm only going to have 2 or 3 people over (depending on how long people want massages). so first come, first serve.

in other exciting news, i'm going to try to cut back on wheat and soy permanently. i do realise the implications of this (very little/no toast). ever since i got off the cleanse, i've been feeling really sick. and this yummy soy cereal with soy milk makes me want to barf every morning.

i think i'll do some work today. yay!

new crush

ang blogged about this contest where you take a word and change it by one letter to make a new word. i'm in love with this contest. i think i have a crush on it. thanks for sharing ang!

in a perfect world... all the geeks get girls

wheat sugar dairy

i ate them all yesterday. i don't know if it's connected, but today i felt like crap. so shortly after getting up, i went back to bed. yvonne and i discussed the possibility of my sickness being soy related. there's a good chance, but i'm ignoring that.

i didn't do much today, it felt really weird, because i'm usually busy trying to do/fix something but today i just sat around. i did play some nintendo... a couple games of mariokart, but i totally sucked.

and i met up with ang and her mom for dinner in port moody: yummy. then it was off to the theatre to watch star wars with danielle and jordy, but it was sold out. sadness ensued. so i went with plan B...go home, watch the rock, and do some laundry. not an ideal saturday night, but i wasn't feeling top notch anyway.

ketchup

today i met up with 2 friends, and got lots done. here are the details.

this morning i started to work right away. did a poster/collage thingy in good time. and sent it off.

then i went to the gym. i was so close to not going, but knowing that i was going to meet kirsten at the cinnamon bun place on alma was incentive enough. and i went up two levels on the bike. okay, embarrassingly, i thought there were only 10 levels on the bike when i started, not 20. that's all i'm going to say.

it was so much fun to see her. she is such a riot. she has this naive innocence that is great for someone as sceptical as me to be around. so sweet. we talked about her trip to europe, her art, her work, her now getting married, and me moving and then leaving for europe. all very exciting. she also insisted that i have my now traditional barbeque for the fireworks if i'm still here when they're on in july.

how appropriate will that be? it was my first real party here, the year i moved in, i still don't know how i fit that many people in my house, and for a barbeque, no less. and then losing my keys on the beach, and magically finding them by digging through the sand. sometimes i have good luck...well bad luck to lose them, good luck to find them... it's all about perspective.

yeah, it was really awesome to see her again. i'm glad she's moved back here from the island. much better this way!

then ian came over and we sat around while he ate his cinnamon bun, and i watched oprah while he showered (nicole kidman and will farell, fun show). then we went downtown to return my modem to the telus store, and go to holt's. i *tried* to get him to go to the furla store, and even bothered to lie and say they have men's stuff there. he was having none of it, so instead we went to the bose store and then to chapters. oh, and then to find a basket for my bike. i wasn't super impressed with a basket costing $19.99, mostly because it was wicker. although wicker on a bike is much much much cuter than wicker in one's house.

we went to another bike store, and the baskets cost more there. that's when i decided that having the book rack on the back would be enough, and i could just bungy my own basket to the back. cause the price is right. :o) free.

then we went to wild garlic for dinner. it was pretty yum. usually the mashed taters are better, but there was garlic all around... always a good thing. then, at ian's suggestion, we DQ'd something different. and then i got my ass kicked at scrabble. i can't find our score card, so once i move we're going to have to start again. maybe then i won't have to cheat by using GA. i really thought it was okay. we also talked about boys and girls. and some confessions were made. which can be fun... when i don't have to be the one making them.

also discussed, paint colours, flooring, vaginas being the place to be, and how hot accents are. oh, and my period. that was discussed in some detail.

all in all, a good day. but i think tomorrow i will have rice and veggies. my body will thank me for it. i'm totally garlic/dairy/breaded out.

i caved

sooooo many times today.

i *did* end up going to hope today. i got my eyelashes fixed, deposited money into my mom's account, and then gave my brother cheques so he could pay hydro, gas, and phone. i'd been avoiding his calls for the last couple of days... i could tell he wanted money, he was very nice on the phone. and persistant. both clear signs.

on the way home i called danielle. oh weak am i! she said she was going to the mall. i *may* have mentioned that i need new jeans. we shopped. BUT i didn't buy any underwear, and what i did buy was on a list of things i needed. t-shirts, tanks, and a long shirt, oh and the jeans. the skirt wasn't on a list, but i will wear it to danielle's wedding rehearsal, so i'm sure that at some point it would have been on a list. and i didn't buy shoes either. but now i need a pair of cute pink sandal-ish things to go with the skirt. i never wear skirts. i think they look stupid on me. i know that they do. i may wear it tomorrow and see if anyone says anything. i should fake tan my legs if i do that. they are this gross grey colour that is usually reserved for the dead.

oh yeah, so i bought a million tops today. anticipating that this could be my next favourite shirt, i bought one pink and one white shirt that says i (heart) mom. i love it already. and i bought one to send to my friend sarah. i think we should wear them together. well, i don't really think that. but i can guarantee people would ask about it. i also bought one that says voted best hair, 2005. how could i resist? i would have bought this one with a little chick on it, but it was yellow, and yellow does nothing for my skin. oh and i bought a swimsuit too. and by swim suit i mean bikini. clearly for private and tanning purposes, but übercute. and danielle and i bought tickets to this clinique event at guildford on the 15th. there are going to be lots of goodie bags, and presents and samples, etc.. we are very excited about this. the tickets are $10 but you get a $10 g/c when you go. so it's free if you plan to spend $10 on something. fun!

my abs and shoulders are still hurting from tuesday. for real. i had to ask people to please not make me laugh today because i was in so much pain. it was embarrassing. and since i just spend a million dollars at the mall, i should probably not spend money on a massage, unless i get it from rachel's sister who is an RMT but isn't practicing right now, so i could get one from her for $25. but then i'd have to drive to the rock. boo urns.

day one after the cleanse involved a veggie burger for lunch and more rice pasta for dinner. i had half of a crispy rice and chocolate thing from purdy's. i am very weak. i put some freshly purchased cheddar cheese on the pasta sauce. now i feel somewhat ill. it's hard to tell if it's the abs, the tummy, or a combo.

clarification

clarify my body:

i guess i'm supposed to feel revitalised and stuff. maybe the cleanse was too mild to notice a huge difference, but i think something stronger would probably have killed me! *laugh* i was really excited when i woke up this morning, because the cleanse is OVER! but, as i was cataloguing my food, trying to decide what to eat, i remembered that i gave away all of my good food to that girl at work. this morning's breakfast ended up being rice cakes with organic sugarless cashew butter and some homemade raspberry jam... my sugar fix.

clarify my space:

for people that live far away (cause 2 out of 2 people have said) no, i don't live in the condo in the pictures, someone else does. i had to do a building inspection, to remove the subjects. i move in on the 28th of july. as if i'd have all white walls! gross!

clarify my mind:

i've changed my mind, i'm going to jet to hope today. shower first and then go. hopefully it will be a quick trip. i'm just delaying the inevitable otherwise. because i will have to go to hope, and i will not like it. get it done now, or later. now will feel better in the long run.

working/playing

today i spent hours pricing jewelry at home and listening to leonard cohen (it's what was in my stereo, and i couldn't move for all of the jewelry). at least i didn't have to work at the store. and i got the first look at new soul flower. i think it's susan's best season yet. i picked out a bracelet and earrings, but forgot my wallet when i went in to pay. oops. i also got my ass kicked at a game of carcassonne with jeffy. but i'm still super excited about being able to play online again... and NOT have to get a PC to do so. now we just need to set up a time so that three or more of us can play catan. oooh sweet catan.

i was tossing around the idea of going to hope tomorrow, but i've decided not to. i can go another day. i have lots of house stuff and general random things to do tomorrow. like pick up my clinique order at holt's and drop off that modem to telus. and a bunch of other less fun things that will feel good to get done.

amazingly, i've stuck to the last day of my cleanse. it's been hardest at the beginning and the end. at the beginning because i was in withdrawal, and at the end because i was in bore-ville. tomorrow i will allow myself some cheese. i'll take it easy... i don't want to make myself sick...but it's very exciting. i didn't go to the grocery store today because i knew i wouldn't be strong enough to resist the freshly baked bread and delicious cheese.

i also got to talk to my friend sarah today. we were online for over an hour and a half. catching up takes a while. she may come out in july for a few days, which would be fun. then i'd get to see her before i leave for europe (just in case i don't go to ontario on my way). it'd be nice to see her mom before i leave.

day 15

i am soooooo tired of this cleanse. i want a sandwich, and although it is one day too early, today could be the day. otherwise the cleanse is going well.

photos

so, the pics are pretty obvious, the one of the kitchen is with rachel's mom - who looks like she's whipping something up to eat, but it's a lie.

pics

i've uploaded some of the pics to flickr. once jeffy comes online i'll get them to my blog. i'm working at home today, yay!

here we go down now to the southside

it's official. on the 28th of july i will move in to my newly purchased, two bedroom, twice as big as my current place, condo in white rock, also known as the rock. it's true that the rock is known as a place where white people go to die, but it's a nice little town, and my condo is a block from the express bus to downtown. and as rachel's mom said, i'll have family near-by; by family she means her family, which is übersweet. and although i can't have a barbeque on my balcony, rachel's mom has told me that if i want to have a barbeque, i can just use their house.

i hope to trade ian my barbeque for services. he needs a barbeque, and i need someone to put flooring in to my apartment... and i'll need him to fix the aluminium wiring... and there's the plug in the bathroom that needs to be changed, and of course painting to be done. and lots of it...

the whole apartment is currently various shades of white. i took lots of polaroids so i can figure out colours, flooring and setup. this will be a little more exciting than when i did my current condo because i feel like i now know what style works best for my life and i won't have to stress about committing to a style. i guess time will tell though - i haven't been able to spend more than 15mins in ikea since i furnished this place three years ago.

i can't figure out uploading pics to my blog (despite detailed instructions from jeffy), so i will scan these tomorrow and email to people.

oh, i got an oil change and the emergency light switch fixed in my car, so now i'm totally ready to roll on short notice.

i am such a bitch

okay, on top of totally PMSing and doing this stupid cleanse, i had to go to CIBC today. not a good time to go there. i totally hate that bank. seriously, i have never been able to say that the service there is good. it makes me annoyed to even have to go there, but my mom's bank account was there, so there i go.

i went to deposit two cheques made out to the estate which is what the bank account now says too. the parking lot was full, and i only had a dime to put in the meter. that got me 6 mins. i was hoping to not get another parking ticket and get this fun bit of my day done with. instead, i had to wait while both tellers were flirting with their current customers taking waaaaay too long. and then it was my turn and the girl was like: are you irene? i'm like, ummm... no, i'm the executor. so she said: i don't know if you can deposit this here, i think it can only be deposited in the home branch (which is 2 hours drive each way). she comes back some minutes later and says sooooo slowly that it irritates me even more: "oh, i'm sorry, you'll have to..." i totally cut her off there, imagining a ticket because i was 5 minutes late, and told her to hurry. seriously, i was like: hurry, yes, i'm in a hurry. and took the cheques and left. if i'd been able to get a parking spot, i could have been nicer and explained that it's far away and that i'm only depositing. but instead, i will call the hope branch and see what they can do for me. i won't hold my breath though, cause they are just as annoying.

oh, and i almost passed out at the store today. i don't know if it's just the heat or the cleanse, or the combo, but this is probably the third time in less than a week that i've gotten dizzy and then felt it all slip away. i haven't actually hit the floor yet. but it's been a struggle to keep it together.

i'm starting to think that it must be the extreme heat at that store because i had a great meal with ang at sala thai today... i was msning with someone this morning and eventually the conversation became about food and by the time i could eat (half an hour after taking the morning cleanse pills) i only had time for an apple. i've been talking about food a lot lately. and i think this is one of the problems with denying yourself things, you totally obsess about what you can't have. i'm certainly not focused on when my next stir fry is coming along, because i know that'll be tomorrow. instead, i'm thinking about chocolate, pancakes, veggie burgers and now scones with jam and whipped cream (thanks lola). i realise there is a need for moderation, but it's going to be hard to control myself when this cleanse is over. so, i'm going to have to plan my activities for the days after the cleanse carefully. meetings with friends should not revolve exclusively around food and if eating some of the forbidden foods, it should be in combination with good things. for example, my sweet sweet love: toast... moderation and combination, it can't just be toast and butter all week. :oD that would be sweet though... *laugh* just kidding. sort of.

in other news, tomorrow is the building inspection! tomorrow is when i know if i'm taking the place in white rock. i'll take pictures and send them to anyone that wants to see. if the inspection goes well, i will start to plan flooring and painting and such... and what i'm going to do with such a small kitchen. eek! i hope rachel's dad can get a lot done while i'm in tahoe...

distractions

the idea for today was that i would get up early enough to go to the gym before i take ang to her doctor's appointment. instead, i've been catching up on blogs. i feel okay with that, except that now i will think about fitting in going all day. it's better to just get the boring things out of the way first thing. i know this, but sometimes i ignore it.

oh, and p.s.

someone found my blog by looking under keywords: sexy, adventures, doctor.

since that pretty much sums me up, i'd like to say: welcome, you've come to the right place. ber ner neh neh.

go for gold

being such a goal oriented person mostly works for me. i make lists. i do them. i feel good. in fact, it feels better and more clear to me when i have a list. i get to plan around it, and organise time and effort. i sometimes overextend myself, but i've been not bad at that lately. except for saturday, and that ended up working out in the end. probably because my priorities have been work and cleanse.

my biggest overall goal lately has been to get happy and don't cave-in to the negative. mini-goals that will lead to this fun event:

•leaving my work (which is happening)
•leaving my too small apartment in kits (which, depending on the building inspection on tuesday, is happening)
•getting more organised for the wedding (my big event this summer)
•travel more (which is totally happening... tahoe and europe)
•finish cleanse and don't revert back to bad habits (the cleanse part is a check, the bad habits, is to be seen)
•don't put off 'til tomorrow what can be done today

these goals have not wavered, and have been mentioned before, it's true. but if something's not finished, it stays on the list, and can even get added to the new list.

lots of things are getting finished up this week and next. and that, martha, is a good thing cause it feels so sweet to cross things off.

in other news, clinique is having its bonus time at holts this week. i've been waiting for months. :o) this bonus comes with an eyelash curler, which is my dream. i don't know why i didn't just get one... i've been thinking about it for about a year now, but i guess it adds to the fate element...

oh. my. god. i just totally freaked myself out. i heard noises from my hallway and then the sound of a door. it was my closet door. i did some laundry tonight and it shakes the doors, so it must have opened them. but (laughing) i did have a CSI panic attack.

anyway. clinique bonus. i probably would have been pissed to buy a curler and then get one for free... i think it might be bed time... and more of olivia joules and the overactive imagination. seems fitting. :o)

laughing at yourself is good

i truly truly believe that you need to be able to laugh at yourself. things get a little easier, and certainly more fun!

the title of "random ramble" started off as "early bird gets the worm". because i got up early that day. somewhere along the line it changed. but the opening sentence didn't. so, my blogging day has started off with a laugh. at myself! YAY!!!

i can't believe it's only 10.30, i've already worked for a couple hours and been to the gym. gross. well, if i shower and play a quick game of catan before i go back to work, i can go to bed at 4pm and have done everything i need to today. oh, after i read the rules. rats. shouldn't take long.

oh and waxing party is on. if you want details, email me. there are some sweet deals to be had!

hot hot heat

wow. i sweat like a pig dog (swine hund) today. for real. i was going to go to the gym after spending (what i thought would be an hour) getting the garage sale ready for the store. nope. 3 hours later, i left to take a shower and then do some coaching. turns out the days were mixed up, and i only have to do some tomorrow.

*but* then i went to danielle's and despite not doing any thing (because of my bad skills as a painter) i was still super hot. i did do a drink run. and safeway was out of ice. *grr* my mad skills as a drink maker were appreciated. and i provided entertainment. in fact, the drinks were so good, they want me back tomorrow, despite knowing that i still won't be painting.

i also borrowed mario kart from danielle (who won't have any time to play it). i've played a few games, but want to play more more more!!! i like the battle part the best. but that's a multi-player thing. which means, i would actually need time to hang out with people in order to play games with them.

had yummy dinner at foundation (a way better veg restaurant than the naam, except they don't have breakkie) with yvonne. and didn't get a ticket (for once) despite my meter running out. extra yahoo!

i planned to do some tidying up around this place tonight, but i'm too hot and tired. it's also a little discouraging when you have like 15 boxes piled up in your already tiny living room. i'm just gonna have to suck it up tomorrow and deal with it.

for now, it's bed time and indulging in some trashy reading: olivia joules... the latest from helen fielding (bridget jones fame) and minutes/rules for what may be my new condo. i need to get up early for part 2 of the garage sale. and do stuff before it's so hot it's impossible. i'd set up my air conditioner, but i think they took the wooden stand thing away. i'll look into that tomorrow.

random ramble

i didn't get any kind of a worm this morning. but i did get a treat. rachel called from korea! yahoo! it was fun talking to her, since i only get a chance to chat online. she will probably stay at my condo (if it becomes mine) while i'm in europe. the good news about that is that then her dad can have lunch made for him while he does some renovations. unless i can con ian into doing some during his birthday month. :oD

i don't know how i do it, but today was my day off, and since i didn't have other plans, i just decided to work all day.

oh, i almost passed out at the gym! i don't know if i was too hot, or if it's this stupid cleanse (for which i only 6 days left, and i haven't cheated!) but in any case, i got dizzy and super hot suddenly and thenmy head pounded and i thought i was a goner. i held on though! YAY!!!

i also told lisa that i want to be done everything for the store by the end of next week. i can't handle it any more and am willing to tell her that.

good news: i bought some wicked wheat/dairy/sugar free stuff at capers today. i feel like the change in the type of rice i ate for dinner has really picked things up for me.

once again the trolley that allison and caleb got me has been of great service. i brought a girl at work who's traveling from england and currently has no money (she ate tomato soup for breakfast the other day) some food. lots of it. i felt so bad for her, and really, she's traveling. of course she doesn't have money. besides, whenever i travel people take us in and often feed and house us for free. it's what you do. anyway, i brought her wine, cheese and all of the wheat products in my house (like i'm gonna eat them), including proper cereal and stuff and she was like, i have nothing to give in return (like i care!). and later that day, vanessa brought her tonnes of canned and frozen stuff from her house too. it seemed only fitting that she had to use the gifted cart to take her food home. i want to make her and her boyfriend a wicked meal, but i'm doing this cleanse thing, and i really don't think that's much fun to eat around. in fact, i'm so bored of non-wheat products that i don't even want to eat around me.

which reminds me, she brought it (i need a name for my little cart!) back to the store. before i leave, i need that back! it's one of the most useful gifts. i can't believe they gave that up! i can totally see myself using it to go to the store in white rock! ha! they probably have parking for those things there. it's so full of old people... i'll fit right in!

i was talking to vanessa about going to lake tahoe and she said they might have access to a time share there...i think they are townhouses there. not just hotel rooms. actually we started talking about going to cancun on saturday, but i totally can't. i have commitments next week. otherwise, i would be there in a heartbeat. tanning and scuba diving. soooo wicked. anyway, get that thought out of my head. i have to focus on tahoe and europe. clearly i'm ready to go.

oh, and i no longer need to think about budgeting a pc into my future. jeffy introduced me to this other site that has carcasonne and settlers. AND it works for mac. so i need to get a better cushion for this chair! and i need to get a basket installed on my bike. i hate carrying fruit from granville island in a napsack.

and last but not least. stu delivered a package today! yay! thanks stu. you know who loves you, despite your lack of good gaming skills.

looks like i won't be homeless

my offer has been accepted. i now have minutes to read, and a building inspection to do. both of which are boring as hell. but i did hold out on the last counter offer and saved myself 500 bucks. i figured they'd still go for it, and i could treat myself to a massage and a nice dinner out, once this f'ing hell cleanse is over. (i TOTALLY have to go to church next week.)

i'm pretty stoked about this place, so i hope the building inspection goes well. then i have to start thinking about packing. since i move in on the day before i leave for lake tahoe, i really need to focus on getting shit organised and make it as easy as possible to move. i was going to buy some new furniture for my new place, but i think i might just wait. a new bed, armchair, and loveseat are all on the menu for my return. i may just get a term deposit for the amount i want to spend and then go crazy when i get back. i am very interested in a big screen tv... all totally superficial things, but i guess they are things i should think about getting a job to better afford.

speaking of jobs. my job makes me want to kill. so i am going to work hardcore and try to finish everything as quickly as possible in order to prevent any jail time.

also in the works: waxing party. i will try to arrange something asap. i feel like i'm running out of hours in the day though. work harder. work faster.

best laid plans

i didn't even get a chance to go to the gym today, so now i feel bad. i did do and get lots of work done though. that's gotta be something. the worst part is that i was hanging out in my gym clothes all day, thinking about how if i work a bit faster i'll be able to go. i feel disappointed twice.

so some girls from work and i planned to go to gay bingo tonight. we got to the club and it didn't look very gay bingoish. it's closed for the summer. FUCK. i may not be able to go before i leave. we decided to go to planet bingo on main. when you're in the mood for bingo, nothing else will do!

we got our asses kicked all over the place. the caller was super fast. we now know to only play three cards. seriously stressful. but we laughed about it. when we weren't trying to figure out what we were trying to get! and honestly, i cannot believe that people won when we had like 6 numbers to go sometimes. i think something sketchy is going on there. otherwise i would have won, right? or at least one of us would have. we were going to split the winnings which was really exciting when karen only needed one number to win $2000.00. alas, no go.

day 7

according to the booklet that comes with the cleanse i'm doing, removing stress from your life is as important as maintaining the no wheat/dairy/sugar diet. after this morning, i feel like i could eat a loaf of white cobs bread and not compare to my current stress level.

my sister makes me crazy. seriously... like crack open a beer bottle on a table and slash at someone nearby crazy.

this is the same sister who wants to know where i'll be in ireland so she can visit me. obviously i had to tell her that i would be moving around a lot and didn't have any real kind of idea as to where i'll be. does it really sound like i'm running away? oh good, then we're clear about it.

in other news, i can't believe i haven't broken that stupid cleanse yet! last night i was watching hockey highlights (or lowlights, depending on where you're from) and there were tim hortons commercials like crazy. the bread product looked really good.

i'm trying to be full of other stuff, with the hopes that then i won't crave the stuff i can't have. and to work on some stress levels, i will go to the gym (i'm already in my clothes, so how can i say no) after i do some work at the store.

a list to deal with to maintain sanity:

•find somewhere to live (i will know about my counter offer by 2pm today)
•finish list for store so can stop working there (i'm working very very hard on this)
•go to gym (so won't feel guilty)
•eat lots of good things (so don't crave bad things, otherwise will break cleanse, and feel bad about it)
•don't answer phone unless it will lead to crossing off one of the items on the above list.

berry clean

today i saw an ad for more crazy flavours of toothpaste. they're all berry and citrus and stuff like that. it confirms my theory that people are more "extreme" in their desires these days.

personally i just use regular crest. no problems so far.

i lied

since the people that own the condo i want to buy are away for the long weekend, they cannot accept/counter my offer today.

i should find out tomorrow or tuesday.

it's very tempting to do no work tomorrow and just hang about doing nothing. what might happen is that i get up super early, do work, go to the gym and then do nothing. which, in the grand scheme of things, isn't all that bad. especially since i'm more that ready to crash now, and really only made myself stay up to watch episode 2 on the cbc because i don't own it.

now, it's time to brush my teeth and sleep.

housing

today i find out if my offer on the condo is accepted. they may counter-offer, in which case, i am willing to negotiate. i would like to move in at the end of june, but i'm not 100% sure that's gonna happen. it would be a more relaxed move, especially since if i do it at the end of july, i'm going to have to move in the day before i leave for tahoe. that would be a bit nuts. i wouldn't even live there for 2 months before i left for europe. eek.

i hate staff meeting days, because the owner always tries to do everything in the morning and then runs out of time. if it had all been done yesterday she wouldn't be rushing to get stuff done. she'd be rushing to get to the store.

meow. i'm off.

day 4

good things have happened today.

i didn't break my cleanse, despite wanting to grab a piece of baguette from angela's hand, smear it with butter and shove it down my throat. and despite wanted some hot lips... just one, of course. but i didn't.

i put in an offer on this cute condo in white rock. initially i was going to put in an offer on this way bigger one. but i think fate intervened. the realtor for the one that i did put an offer in on, didn't call angela back, so we didn't even get to see it when we had planned. we saw four others, and then had dinner. as soon as we were done dinner the realtor called and was like, why didn't you stop by? blah blah blah we went over to see it, and i really liked it. it only has one bathroom and a smaller kitchen, but it's in a great location, and it feels nice. as long as the building inspection and minutes all check out, this one's a go. so it kind of feels like fate. fingers crossed.

my energy level is getting back to normal. which is extra nice because i have to work tomorrow. it's not totally back, because at 5.30 today i was ready to sleep in the chair. and right now, i'm getting sleeeeeeepy!

yay!

seattle calling

today was the best trip i've had to seattle in a long time. considering the last two involved my sisters, it's really no stretch.

ian and i had planned to go to look for shoes since i've exhausted all possibilities here, and didn't want to buy the prada ones. i ended up buying those shoes, so we went down to look for shoes for him. and maybe some clothes. we didn't even get to the heart of seattle, which had been our initial goal. we stopped at this newish outlet mall because we saw the puma sign, and he had seen a pair of pumas up here that he loved and wanted to price there.

anyway, we didn't see the ones he liked there, but then i saw that the shoes they did have there (which were close) were only $14.95. he bought two pairs. and this adorable zippy top that was way cuter than the adidas one he'd seen and almost bought here. i bought a tank top at the adidas outlet for $10. it was so busy there, because there were tonnes of tourists from canada for the long weekend.

we drove further towards seattle and then went to a mall. the traffic was hell, so we followed my keen instinct that said to exit, and it ended up being the mall we had talked about. we went to victoria's secret, and i bought regular, but adorable, knickers for me, and he got some body crap for his friend who requested it. she also requested lingere but ian felt she should get her own. i know that i've said i'm not buying more underwear... especially since i cleaned my underwear drawer yesterday and threw away over thirty pairs, and kept over thirty. but i am a weak person. maybe because i didn't go to church this week, maybe because of the cleanse.

oh, and the cleanse is going better than ever. well, i was really really tired today. and hungry. *but* we went to olive garden and i only had salad (no cheese, no crutons). no bread sticks. no pasta. seriously. i didn't even have the chocolate that they give you at the end. and the guy brought us 2 each. i had to sit and watch ian eat the yummy yummy garlic bread, and feticcine alfredo all with cheese, i might add... but i resisted. AND then on the way home, we stopped at krispy kreme and ian bought two donuts, and because the light was on, we each got one for free. i was holding the warm wheaty goodness in my hands and gave it to ian. if i can get through today, then i will have little trouble with the rest of the 12 days. i mean olive garden, warm krispy kreme, AND at the outlet mall we walked by rocky mountain chocolate factory. and i resisted all.

we stopped to get some nuts for me. with the idea that they have some weight and would make me feel full. they did the trick, and all is well. oh, but the best best best part of the day. i picked up some cherry coke (not for me, on so many levels) and it had a different price for members. obviously i don't have a card. but when we were in the cash line-up the guy in front of us gave his phone number instead... like at safeway. as he was giving his number i was memorising it. i was just going over the number in my head when ian started to whisper it to me. which in itself was hilarious. then as the guy was leaving, i asked if it was okay to use his number. he was walking away and said sure. so i said his number and was totally blushing. like, what kind of freak memorises someone's number to save a dollar? me. the cashier was like: if he gets a phone call in the middle of the night, we'll know who it was. and he was almost out of the store at that point and totally looked back. i was seriously cracking up.

it was super fun to connect with ian again. we played punch/poke buggy the whole way, and of course i was the champion of all champions. and it was fun to be reminded of how in line we can be sometimes. we totally said the same things at the same time, and laughed at the same stupid stuff. and then the memorising the guy's number thing... it was awesome, especially since we haven't really been hanging out much, and haven't been having this much fun.

good times shopping in the states. and no duty/gst had to be paid. yahoo!

power on

tonight there is a wicked thunder and lightning show, provided by nature. if the power goes out, like it's been threatening to, i'm going to be in trouble, even my emergency candles are packed away.

yay nature!

takin' care of bizness

so, it's not like the "extra energy" part of the cleanse has kicked in. i am only on day one, after all. *but* i am starting to finish up some stuff. except that i got a fresh new list of things to do today. i guess because the end is near, i've been really really really trying to tidy up loose ends. for example, i FINALLY cut the extra length from my shower curtain, i cut my nails, i dropped off the millions of magazines that were in my car to the cancer clinic, found out why i got a ticket somewhere i thought i'd never parked before (we were at the gift show, and lisa was supposed to pay it) and have reminded myself about depositing a cheque. i'm also almost done a tonne of laundry. there are other (much less exciting, if you can believe it) things that i'm getting done at work these days too. they don't feel quite as exciting, simply because of the new list. but i work well from lists. check.

tonight i will have rice and veggies. no sauce. i have a feeling sauces aren't allowed in cleanses. if they were, i don't think doing a cleanse would be that hard. well, except for the fact that right now i can't eat toast, any non-fruit related sugars, and dairy. this means no chocolate, in case you hadn't noticed. i think after a few days i'll be okay. i wish i had more kamut squares.

day 1

today's the first day of my cleanse. yesterday i went to capers and got some cleanse friendly foods, but forgot to get food for breakkie. so i may eat a kamut square. which brings me to my next point: kamut squares are back! yahoo. the only problem is that the f'ing kamut gets everywhere. otherwise i adore the tasty little treats.

tonight (midnight) is the first showing of star wars. if anyone's going before next week (which is when i'll go with d and jordy) please let me know.

work is taking over my living space again. so, as day one of my cleanse, and after i go to the gym, i'm going to sort through and hand-off. the girl who's taking over my job for the summer is getting all of the binders, all of the boxes, and all of the junk that's been hanging around my place because of work. this is very very exciting for me. oh, and i'm determined to drop off those magazines at the cancer clinic today. i need them out of my car. for real.

in other news, last night i made risotto. i thought i had parmesan cheese, but i didn't. so i used cheddar and gouda. worked out alright. it makes tonnes of food though. i may have to freeze it until i'm done the cleanse, or i'll have to force feed people that come over.

say what?!

don't forget to vote! (thanks for the reminder, ang) i'm off to do so right now.

done and done

shoes for wedding
sell house
re-learn sleep
arrange to get a hole-puncher

mad skills, yo

i need to practise more mario party... especially if i want to be any kind of competition against jeffy.

i'm looking for volunteers. must be extra lucky, or have mad mario party skills. oh, and a commitment to the cause is also appreciated.

oh, and i'm starting a cleanse on thursday, so you should have low expectations as to what you can find to eat at my house for the next couple of weeks.

judgement

this morning i was having a shower and was reflecting on the past year. i've been trying to be more patient, more open, and more forgiving. i don't know that it's evident yet, but the effort's been there. i was thinking that i should have added less judging, afterall, who am i to sit on my throne and make judgements? so i thought about it more...

people often talk about how they don't judge people and how it's not anyone's place to judge another. i've decided that i disagree. even meyers-briggs says i'm a judger. and i am. everyone knows it. i think i judge my own actions as harshly as i do that of others (maybe i'm wrong, but that's your decision!). it's a combination of fearing those criticisms and the conclusions that go with judging that keeps people in check. it's moral law.

i think it's good to forgive... it's much healthier if you can do it. besides, the path to nirvana needs you to realise that you cannot control other people's actions, only your reaction. then again, if you go the christian way, your life ends with the ultimate judging: from god.

conclusion: maybe i should work on my reactions... and the becoming less judging will follow naturally.

pooped

work was boring today because it was kinda slow. so i did some tidying and throwing away in the back room. which was needed, and still is needed.

i'm starting to look forward to the fetish party tonight. yvonne picked up some stuff and all together we should be able to work something out. naomi's got some bondage tape and some liquid latex so that should guarantee something interesting.

okay, shower, nap, dress.

tomorrow will hopefully be relaxing enough that i can look through the rough guide to ireland that danielle picked up for me. i wonder where she wants me to go.

sleep me

i am so tired right now, i don't know if i'll make it through the day. i feel like if i just quit today, at least i could get some extra sleep. and maybe play some nintendo!

oy.

doms

today i worked. i actually had a decent sleep last night, which means i wasn't very interested in getting out of bed this morning.

after work i went to the coq and found a pair of army-ish pants and the cutest hoodie. the army pants are for the fetish night tomorrow at sin city, i think i have an idea for the top. i hope it works.

the hoodie is because it looked adorable on me! danielle agreed, so two out of two can't be wrong.

then i played some games (crib and dominos) at ang's place. i think david either thinks i'm totally obnoxious, or a fun person to talk smack with. either way he's probably right.

i'm so tired, you get the short version of the day.

good news: another mushroom free day, peaches. yup, no mushrooms.

busy busy

it was a busy (stressful and hectic) day today. being tired all day didn't help.

i'm so tired, i'm not going to even bother talking about the bad stuff.

some of the good stuff (but not all):

i got a wicked amount of work done today
ate breakkie at sophie's
got some bed time, even if it wasn't sleep time
angela brought samosas
1 for 2 at crib today
had a yummy yummy smoothie
talked to kenji online after lots of hits and misses

and the rest of the day doesn't matter all that much...except that it's now time to try to go to sleep.

actually, i'm allergic to mushrooms

so, a challenge was issued (during my not reading many blogs phase). to jeffy, i say, "i'm allergic to mushrooms". i have convinced my body of this, and am physically unable to consume the fungus. *barf*

i have even told people that i would not kiss them if they ate mushrooms in front of me. yeah, it's true.

anyway, let's come up with a real bet. peaches *heh heh* versus yoshi *yahoo*. as i said on your blog, i'm going to try to figure out a way to get to ontario before (on my way) to europe. i just have to figure out some stuff...including where i will live when i no longer can live here. and other minor details like that. maybe i'll win lots of cash in tahoe. saweet.

hey, isn't peaches princess toadstool? *gross*

insomnia

it sucks.

i've had it for the last few days, and tonight decided that laying in bed was getting me nowhere. now i'm going to work. i'll start with making a list. that always makes me feel better.

church lady

(thanks for the suggestion, yvonne)

today i went to church. it's the first time in a long time... if you want a clearer date, ask kenji. i can guarantee he was preachin' the last time i went.

i went to a small group that has some discussion and is much more personal. as i am in search of a community (among other things) i mistakenly choice wisely.

but did i think i had chosen so wisely when i first go there? well, there was a moment of bliss when i pulled up and there was rockstar parking, and it looked like i was at the right place/right time. and then when i was greeting by this nicely dressed korean man (there's a reason his ethnicity is important) i thought i was a natural at this church thing... the doors weren't even locked... i didn't have to find a special entrance. god was welcoming me. ahhh! the beauty of it.

then the nicely dressed man asked if i was a member of the church (insert panic, and start dropping names). i said no, but that the church was recommended to me, and that i'm here for the 6.45 worship. he then told me about the korean service at 6.45. uh oh... i might have stayed for it, but with my current expertise in korean, i didn't think i could pull it off... besides, i think i might have stood out. anyway, i told him that there's a service at 6.45 and then we cleared things up, i showed him the big sign outside, and he told me where the chapel was.

when i got to the chapel, there was an old guy that looked dutch, so i decided he was the older minister (who from my research is dutch) and that i must be on the right track. and the sign said prayer in silence or something, so i couldn't ask him if i needed a book... when you're in the church all of the materials are in front of you. once other people came in i stopped pretending to be praying and grabbed a book like the other ladies.

it was actually kind of nice. i refused the wine and bread because i'm not baptised, but he was like, oh go ahead if you like. i've only done it once before so i said thank you instead of amen. oops.

basically the ladies there were super nice, and i think i'll go back. i'm really into ladies that age. i like them a lot.

after church, yvonne took me out for indian. yummy!!! thanks yvonne. i'm so f'ing full... and maybe didn't need to go to DQ after. craving or not.

gymmy

i'm going to hit the gym today. it'll be the first time in a looooong time. an embarassingly long time. but i want to get back on track, and since my work day today is very flexible, i might as well take advantage of it.

also today, my house is going to be viewed again. since the last deal fell through. it might actually work out a bit better if i move out of here at the end of june or the end of july instead of mid july because of danielle's wedding.

other exciting things planned for today: church and dinner with yvonne. well, dinner with yvonne... not church.

rats. i should have grabbed my iPod from one of the boxes at ang's... now i have no music to listen to at the gym.

weird

i feel like i'm at this really weird point in most of my relationships. huh, harder to describe than i thought.

my sister told my other sister and my brother that i was moving away. my brother's reaction (the same brother with whom i haven't spoken since my mom died) was: it's not because of me, is it? my other sister's reaction when told was to call me and ask me if it's true. no hello, no how are you. simply: are you moving to ireland? i can see how she was confused, i've never even been there. i just don't think it matters that much... i'm just gonna do it. if i don't like it, i'll do what should be done when you're not in love with something/someplace: move. it's not like anything's holding me back, really. besides, if i decide where i'm going now, she'll have a plane ticket before me... she's already talked about visiting, and i don't even know where i'm going. *and* right now, the last thing i want is a visit from someone that makes me crazy.

i also feel off kilter with my non-family (and therefore closer) relationships... like i'm not on the same wavelength, there's a lot of explaining, arguing/discussing, disagreeing, whatever. to quote anghold,"i think it might be me".

even this whole work thing has thrown me off. the good news is that i may be leaving sooner than i thought... like end of this month sooner, which wouldn't be bad, what with my maid of honour responsibilties (manicures, pedicures, massages etc.) it's going to be a busy month. well, that and packing.

i want to say this weirdness is a today thing, but i'd be lying. and i hate that word... i use laying as much as possible... grammatically incorrect or not... i much prefer lay over lie. but really, who doesn't?

maybe i just needed a beer tonight... if i hadn't been the one driving home... and if i liked the piss. :o) good games, kids. nice conversation... i'm totally interested in being a robber... but what if there aren't any cops?

don't be cruel

so, i decided on a pair of shoes today. the ones i really like were ordered in from the t dot, but they were too tight for my flippers. thinking about it, i really describe myself as creepy on this blog... :oD ahh... the truth shall set you free!

anyway, the shoes i bought have started to grow on me. they're silver strappy prada mules with a not-so-high heel. i'm probably still under 6 feet in them. but there are two things wrong. the first, and the biggest: the price. they cost more than some people's dresses for the event. and the second: unless the size 10 feels way better than the 10.5, i'm still not going to be overly comfortable. the design doesn't allow for my stubby baby toe to be comfy. i could get it amputated... but *that* may be more that i'm willing to do for this event. sorry danielle.

the good news is, i'm going to seattle, and i'm gonna find something. or, drown my sorrows in some kind of shopping. and then spray paint a pair of shoes silver.

rachel says i have good shoe karma. i would like to argue differently.

xu = 1 million points

but that still isn't enough to beat anghold at scrabble.

yesterday i played a game of catan with ally and caleb. i haven't played catan in a loooong time. it was wicked.

and then it was crib, scrabble, taco salad, and cake at anghold's. good times were had. thanks for entertaining me, ang.

today there was a building inspection at my house. hopefully this is a good thing. we're now also starting to look at houses, not just condos. oy. there are two that have come up already. we'll see how it goes.

also today, i dropped my sister off at the airport. one sibling down, two to go. :o)

oh, that's smooth

i haven't had a smoothie in a while. yesterday i made one. oooh so good. i wasn't going to leave the house today. now i have to go out so that i can get more strawberries. and bananas. rats.

i'll pick up some apples too. just in case i make apples in pyjamas. oh, greasy german comfort food.

today will involve making a list of things to do for the week. playing catan with allison, caleb and the baby in the tummy. it may involve risotto, yvonne et al (is this the correct use? it feels right) and as mentioned, apples in pyjamas.

the rest of my day has been somewhat crap, but hopefully a smoothie will cure some of that. if not, there's always chocolate.

fuck

so i woke up this morning to barrage of thoughts: i hope work doesn't call me. holy crap i'm thirsty. oh, wicked, no hang over. oh fuck, i think i blogged last night. and, i wonder if anyone wants to go for brunch.

i would have erased the blog, but i guess people have already read it.

at least my first rule of drunk held through: do NOT email anyone, under and cicumstances.

clearly, last night was fun. i think i'll lay low, do some work, watch lemony snikket's.

shit

i have the hiccups. severe. okauy, remember (ang) how i had themm earler when i was kicking your ass at mario? hahaha/ anyway. i think i drankt oo much. shit.

maybe i need water.

also. now i'm looking forward a lot to my trip at the end of summer. gerry, can i crash at your house?

also,. oh yeah, ang i blame you for drinking too much. oh and how can i hiccup and sleep? i don't think i ca. remember when you thought that people when they were drunk hiccuped because they did in movies. i was hiccuping before movies. oy. also, i had popcorn tonight at quinn and naomi's. and we did karaoke. andthat was at karaoke box and the cab driver there wouldn't listen to me. ha ha.

oh and maybe it's me because the other guy at the karaoke place wouldn't let me pay for the wine first. also, i wish they had shmkmirrnoff ice. as i am partial to that. i need to put a replacemtent wine in the fridge. ause ang and i drank the other wine. now i have red wine, and i don't realluy like it the best.

what else? oh, i hope james and karen come and visit in june. that would be fune. except if that is when i move. but i don't know. also, i wonder if youhave he same kind of fun if you are an alcoholic or id you are get a different drunk. but how do you aske someone?

oh, and i want to see ummm that movie about elexander the great. that would be cool. and i think i'm tires. so i should brush my te4eth.

i have feeling i will regret leaving on my computer. i hate that. oh well. skip it if you don't loooooooooooove it paris hilton style.

blonde ambition

today i tried to fix lisa's computer. and then went to richmond to pick up the strata mitues for my house sale. i'm going to go and make copies of them soon.

since i was trying to avoid working, and my house certainly didn't need cleaning, i got my hair cut and coloured...you know, for entertainment. this time i'd call it blonde. dark blonde. anyway, it looks hot. whoo hoo! 3.5 hours had better be worth it.

i'm starting to get really excited about episode 3 coming out. i mean come on, it's the last of a legacy. even if you're not totally in love with star wars, it's something to see. i'm trying to not see the commercials, because despite knowing the story line, i'm not interested in seeing half of the movie before i get to see the whole thing.

i guess that sums up my day: computers, hair, and star wars. right on.

trash and bed

today was a "i'm so happy to be leaving work" day. ugh. i just got in from the store, to make up for the hours i skipped out on earlier. skipped out on to go shopping with danielle. we went to holt's and i special ordered the shoes. i hope they work. they should be in overnight from toronto. don't worry... i'll keep everyone posted on the shoe situation. danielle said that she could feel my sadness. if this doesn't work, i'm going to have to start hitting more stores in the states... road trip!

danielle, vanessa and i also went to visit vanessa's connection in the bag industry. i was going to blurb about what was purchased, but i don't want to betray anyone's secrets.

tomorrow i have to make sure i have all of the minutes and financial stuff ready for the buyer of my condo. hopefully i'll also be able to see this sweet place in east van that looks like it could be my next apartment.

ugh. must go to bed. am tired. but what's the trash part of this? the new helen fielding book (bridget jones's diary) that i picked up. oooh how i love trash. :o)

my bum hurts

today i got my ass kicked all over the coq. ang whooped me at crib. but revenge will be mine. mwahhh haaa haaa.

oh! and today a cop called to go over what needed to be done for the hit and run that yvonne and i saw near dalia's. he was super flirty (ask yvonne) and at the end of the conversation asked how old we were. he (maybe joking) said he thought we were 18! but this is the same guy who was like: hello ursula speaking because i answered the phone: ursula speaking. and started the conversation: the way [yvonne] tells it, it was your fault. which totally freaked me out, because i already feel bad that the guy was backing up to let me through. but then he was like: oh, i'm just joking! and he was super impressed by me getting the license plate. he said most people think to get it after it's too late. i replied that i watch a lot of law and order... i've been schooled proper.

tomorrow i'm going to go into the store a bit for some coaching, and then i'm going to go shoe shopping with danielle at holt's. god willing there's something to match my dress. something that will be comfy... and something i can wear more than once. maybe i'll just get a pair of those cute $30 dr.scholl's. there wouldn't be a problem with the heel sinking into the grass at minter gardens.

plans are starting for my big move... the one to europe... not the one within the GVA. looks like i'm going to germany first, i may pick up a car there... haven't decided, but there's a 1971 vw bug with my name on it... since i'll be selling my car here, i may use it for a bit in europe, and then send it over here. it could be fun. anyway, in germany we'll start sorting out some of the furniture and all that kind of stuff left from my oma and dad. and then it's look out ireland... word on the street is that it's better to visit there before the rain starts for the fall/winter. the rest is up in the air. and pre-europe might be (if i can swing it... i have to figure out times and house stuff, etc) a trip to ontario. i can always leave for germany from toronto... there's an airport *and* settlers *and* curry week. anyway, that's what's going on these days. and a whole bunch of work!!!

sold... to the highest bidder

yesterday i got two offers on my house (yay!). one of which has been accepted. i've started getting the minutes together and planning for all of the stuff needed. the guy is using a lawyer, not a real estate agent, so i've got some special requests to work on. it is a huge relief to know that i can now start looking for something to move to.

to celebrate i left (too late) for the coq. there was some serious ass-kicking going on at ang's in the form of cribbage. i almost got double-skunked. which totally hurt my heart. :o) we're still working on the "don't just win, skunk them" policy. and some forms of trash-talking have also been implemented. good times all around. and cookies all around too...thanks to rach's mom.

i think i'm interested in a cinnamon bun. also, i need to figue out what to eat that's not messy (because i still have the building inspection) but is going to be satisfying. there will be a messy party possibly involving the extra tofurkey after all of the things are lifted by the owner.

i guess living at other people's houses and not showering has finally paid off.