keep the faith

(hey, that's a quality bon jovi tune!)

as mentioned, this has been the shittest year of my life. there are people who have had it worse off than me, absolutely. and i'm sure it's a bit arrogant of me to fall onto this, but really, having a blog is a bit arrogant. what should really happen is that i pick up the phone and talk to someone. then again, it is after midnight... who would be up?

i really do feel like my friends are my family, as part of being my friend one of the unspoken deals is that i will want to adopt your parents... or make them want to adopt me. i'm really into parents. they tend to be into me.

it's like i've been searching for replacements in case of emergency. my roommate's parents (from first year) were like my "ontario parents" for a long time. they picked me up and dropped me off at the airport to go home (we usually ran a bit late, but it became expected that i would have to run for the plane) i would go over for easter dinner, they let me drive their car and their daughter to kingston from ottawa. they came to my graduation. honestly, her parents are some of the funniest people you could meet. her dad has unstoppable dad humour, and her mom is so generous and quirky and sweet! i think about them a lot, and should probably have kept in better contact with them.

now my friend will be going through something that i truly would not wish on anyone. her mom is probably about where my mom was 8 months ago. i'm sure part of it is unresolved issues with my mom's death, but i really can't believe that this is happening. i totally totally get that parents will die, and they should before their children. i can't get my head around this... i have so many arguments against this, but i'm just not getting a response.

so, dear friend, please remember that there are people all the way over here who love you and your family. friends that hope for the best, and who understand.

i cried

yesterday was waxing day. if i said it didn't hurt, i'd be lying.

ang, bre, stef and i met up in the Burn and got it done. i also tried threading for the first time. never, ever have your moustache threaded. i don't even think i had more than ten hairs there. i wanted to try threading there, because wax on my face irritates it. threading your eyebrows = great. moustache/upper lip/whatever you want to call it = crying pain. so far no skin irritation from the threading... but man, it hurts!

i haven't decided if i'm going to blog about the rest of the waxing experience. maybe later, when i'm more awake.

yesterday was my friend's mom's birthday. as usual, it was very nice to go to their house and have yummy food, and hang out. oh, and that brings me to my next thing. my friend's sister is an RMT in ontario. but she's come back now, and has to take another course here before she can practise in BC. i want to arrange a time for people to come over for massages. she'll bring her table. $25/30mins and $40/hour. i will also send out an email. i'm only going to have 2 or 3 people over (depending on how long people want massages). so first come, first serve.

in other exciting news, i'm going to try to cut back on wheat and soy permanently. i do realise the implications of this (very little/no toast). ever since i got off the cleanse, i've been feeling really sick. and this yummy soy cereal with soy milk makes me want to barf every morning.

i think i'll do some work today. yay!

new crush

ang blogged about this contest where you take a word and change it by one letter to make a new word. i'm in love with this contest. i think i have a crush on it. thanks for sharing ang!

in a perfect world... all the geeks get girls

wheat sugar dairy

i ate them all yesterday. i don't know if it's connected, but today i felt like crap. so shortly after getting up, i went back to bed. yvonne and i discussed the possibility of my sickness being soy related. there's a good chance, but i'm ignoring that.

i didn't do much today, it felt really weird, because i'm usually busy trying to do/fix something but today i just sat around. i did play some nintendo... a couple games of mariokart, but i totally sucked.

and i met up with ang and her mom for dinner in port moody: yummy. then it was off to the theatre to watch star wars with danielle and jordy, but it was sold out. sadness ensued. so i went with plan B...go home, watch the rock, and do some laundry. not an ideal saturday night, but i wasn't feeling top notch anyway.

ketchup

today i met up with 2 friends, and got lots done. here are the details.

this morning i started to work right away. did a poster/collage thingy in good time. and sent it off.

then i went to the gym. i was so close to not going, but knowing that i was going to meet kirsten at the cinnamon bun place on alma was incentive enough. and i went up two levels on the bike. okay, embarrassingly, i thought there were only 10 levels on the bike when i started, not 20. that's all i'm going to say.

it was so much fun to see her. she is such a riot. she has this naive innocence that is great for someone as sceptical as me to be around. so sweet. we talked about her trip to europe, her art, her work, her now getting married, and me moving and then leaving for europe. all very exciting. she also insisted that i have my now traditional barbeque for the fireworks if i'm still here when they're on in july.

how appropriate will that be? it was my first real party here, the year i moved in, i still don't know how i fit that many people in my house, and for a barbeque, no less. and then losing my keys on the beach, and magically finding them by digging through the sand. sometimes i have good luck...well bad luck to lose them, good luck to find them... it's all about perspective.

yeah, it was really awesome to see her again. i'm glad she's moved back here from the island. much better this way!

then ian came over and we sat around while he ate his cinnamon bun, and i watched oprah while he showered (nicole kidman and will farell, fun show). then we went downtown to return my modem to the telus store, and go to holt's. i *tried* to get him to go to the furla store, and even bothered to lie and say they have men's stuff there. he was having none of it, so instead we went to the bose store and then to chapters. oh, and then to find a basket for my bike. i wasn't super impressed with a basket costing $19.99, mostly because it was wicker. although wicker on a bike is much much much cuter than wicker in one's house.

we went to another bike store, and the baskets cost more there. that's when i decided that having the book rack on the back would be enough, and i could just bungy my own basket to the back. cause the price is right. :o) free.

then we went to wild garlic for dinner. it was pretty yum. usually the mashed taters are better, but there was garlic all around... always a good thing. then, at ian's suggestion, we DQ'd something different. and then i got my ass kicked at scrabble. i can't find our score card, so once i move we're going to have to start again. maybe then i won't have to cheat by using GA. i really thought it was okay. we also talked about boys and girls. and some confessions were made. which can be fun... when i don't have to be the one making them.

also discussed, paint colours, flooring, vaginas being the place to be, and how hot accents are. oh, and my period. that was discussed in some detail.

all in all, a good day. but i think tomorrow i will have rice and veggies. my body will thank me for it. i'm totally garlic/dairy/breaded out.

i caved

sooooo many times today.

i *did* end up going to hope today. i got my eyelashes fixed, deposited money into my mom's account, and then gave my brother cheques so he could pay hydro, gas, and phone. i'd been avoiding his calls for the last couple of days... i could tell he wanted money, he was very nice on the phone. and persistant. both clear signs.

on the way home i called danielle. oh weak am i! she said she was going to the mall. i *may* have mentioned that i need new jeans. we shopped. BUT i didn't buy any underwear, and what i did buy was on a list of things i needed. t-shirts, tanks, and a long shirt, oh and the jeans. the skirt wasn't on a list, but i will wear it to danielle's wedding rehearsal, so i'm sure that at some point it would have been on a list. and i didn't buy shoes either. but now i need a pair of cute pink sandal-ish things to go with the skirt. i never wear skirts. i think they look stupid on me. i know that they do. i may wear it tomorrow and see if anyone says anything. i should fake tan my legs if i do that. they are this gross grey colour that is usually reserved for the dead.

oh yeah, so i bought a million tops today. anticipating that this could be my next favourite shirt, i bought one pink and one white shirt that says i (heart) mom. i love it already. and i bought one to send to my friend sarah. i think we should wear them together. well, i don't really think that. but i can guarantee people would ask about it. i also bought one that says voted best hair, 2005. how could i resist? i would have bought this one with a little chick on it, but it was yellow, and yellow does nothing for my skin. oh and i bought a swimsuit too. and by swim suit i mean bikini. clearly for private and tanning purposes, but übercute. and danielle and i bought tickets to this clinique event at guildford on the 15th. there are going to be lots of goodie bags, and presents and samples, etc.. we are very excited about this. the tickets are $10 but you get a $10 g/c when you go. so it's free if you plan to spend $10 on something. fun!

my abs and shoulders are still hurting from tuesday. for real. i had to ask people to please not make me laugh today because i was in so much pain. it was embarrassing. and since i just spend a million dollars at the mall, i should probably not spend money on a massage, unless i get it from rachel's sister who is an RMT but isn't practicing right now, so i could get one from her for $25. but then i'd have to drive to the rock. boo urns.

day one after the cleanse involved a veggie burger for lunch and more rice pasta for dinner. i had half of a crispy rice and chocolate thing from purdy's. i am very weak. i put some freshly purchased cheddar cheese on the pasta sauce. now i feel somewhat ill. it's hard to tell if it's the abs, the tummy, or a combo.

clarification

clarify my body:

i guess i'm supposed to feel revitalised and stuff. maybe the cleanse was too mild to notice a huge difference, but i think something stronger would probably have killed me! *laugh* i was really excited when i woke up this morning, because the cleanse is OVER! but, as i was cataloguing my food, trying to decide what to eat, i remembered that i gave away all of my good food to that girl at work. this morning's breakfast ended up being rice cakes with organic sugarless cashew butter and some homemade raspberry jam... my sugar fix.

clarify my space:

for people that live far away (cause 2 out of 2 people have said) no, i don't live in the condo in the pictures, someone else does. i had to do a building inspection, to remove the subjects. i move in on the 28th of july. as if i'd have all white walls! gross!

clarify my mind:

i've changed my mind, i'm going to jet to hope today. shower first and then go. hopefully it will be a quick trip. i'm just delaying the inevitable otherwise. because i will have to go to hope, and i will not like it. get it done now, or later. now will feel better in the long run.

working/playing

today i spent hours pricing jewelry at home and listening to leonard cohen (it's what was in my stereo, and i couldn't move for all of the jewelry). at least i didn't have to work at the store. and i got the first look at new soul flower. i think it's susan's best season yet. i picked out a bracelet and earrings, but forgot my wallet when i went in to pay. oops. i also got my ass kicked at a game of carcassonne with jeffy. but i'm still super excited about being able to play online again... and NOT have to get a PC to do so. now we just need to set up a time so that three or more of us can play catan. oooh sweet catan.

i was tossing around the idea of going to hope tomorrow, but i've decided not to. i can go another day. i have lots of house stuff and general random things to do tomorrow. like pick up my clinique order at holt's and drop off that modem to telus. and a bunch of other less fun things that will feel good to get done.

amazingly, i've stuck to the last day of my cleanse. it's been hardest at the beginning and the end. at the beginning because i was in withdrawal, and at the end because i was in bore-ville. tomorrow i will allow myself some cheese. i'll take it easy... i don't want to make myself sick...but it's very exciting. i didn't go to the grocery store today because i knew i wouldn't be strong enough to resist the freshly baked bread and delicious cheese.

i also got to talk to my friend sarah today. we were online for over an hour and a half. catching up takes a while. she may come out in july for a few days, which would be fun. then i'd get to see her before i leave for europe (just in case i don't go to ontario on my way). it'd be nice to see her mom before i leave.

day 15

i am soooooo tired of this cleanse. i want a sandwich, and although it is one day too early, today could be the day. otherwise the cleanse is going well.

photos

so, the pics are pretty obvious, the one of the kitchen is with rachel's mom - who looks like she's whipping something up to eat, but it's a lie.

pics

i've uploaded some of the pics to flickr. once jeffy comes online i'll get them to my blog. i'm working at home today, yay!

here we go down now to the southside

it's official. on the 28th of july i will move in to my newly purchased, two bedroom, twice as big as my current place, condo in white rock, also known as the rock. it's true that the rock is known as a place where white people go to die, but it's a nice little town, and my condo is a block from the express bus to downtown. and as rachel's mom said, i'll have family near-by; by family she means her family, which is übersweet. and although i can't have a barbeque on my balcony, rachel's mom has told me that if i want to have a barbeque, i can just use their house.

i hope to trade ian my barbeque for services. he needs a barbeque, and i need someone to put flooring in to my apartment... and i'll need him to fix the aluminium wiring... and there's the plug in the bathroom that needs to be changed, and of course painting to be done. and lots of it...

the whole apartment is currently various shades of white. i took lots of polaroids so i can figure out colours, flooring and setup. this will be a little more exciting than when i did my current condo because i feel like i now know what style works best for my life and i won't have to stress about committing to a style. i guess time will tell though - i haven't been able to spend more than 15mins in ikea since i furnished this place three years ago.

i can't figure out uploading pics to my blog (despite detailed instructions from jeffy), so i will scan these tomorrow and email to people.

oh, i got an oil change and the emergency light switch fixed in my car, so now i'm totally ready to roll on short notice.

i am such a bitch

okay, on top of totally PMSing and doing this stupid cleanse, i had to go to CIBC today. not a good time to go there. i totally hate that bank. seriously, i have never been able to say that the service there is good. it makes me annoyed to even have to go there, but my mom's bank account was there, so there i go.

i went to deposit two cheques made out to the estate which is what the bank account now says too. the parking lot was full, and i only had a dime to put in the meter. that got me 6 mins. i was hoping to not get another parking ticket and get this fun bit of my day done with. instead, i had to wait while both tellers were flirting with their current customers taking waaaaay too long. and then it was my turn and the girl was like: are you irene? i'm like, ummm... no, i'm the executor. so she said: i don't know if you can deposit this here, i think it can only be deposited in the home branch (which is 2 hours drive each way). she comes back some minutes later and says sooooo slowly that it irritates me even more: "oh, i'm sorry, you'll have to..." i totally cut her off there, imagining a ticket because i was 5 minutes late, and told her to hurry. seriously, i was like: hurry, yes, i'm in a hurry. and took the cheques and left. if i'd been able to get a parking spot, i could have been nicer and explained that it's far away and that i'm only depositing. but instead, i will call the hope branch and see what they can do for me. i won't hold my breath though, cause they are just as annoying.

oh, and i almost passed out at the store today. i don't know if it's just the heat or the cleanse, or the combo, but this is probably the third time in less than a week that i've gotten dizzy and then felt it all slip away. i haven't actually hit the floor yet. but it's been a struggle to keep it together.

i'm starting to think that it must be the extreme heat at that store because i had a great meal with ang at sala thai today... i was msning with someone this morning and eventually the conversation became about food and by the time i could eat (half an hour after taking the morning cleanse pills) i only had time for an apple. i've been talking about food a lot lately. and i think this is one of the problems with denying yourself things, you totally obsess about what you can't have. i'm certainly not focused on when my next stir fry is coming along, because i know that'll be tomorrow. instead, i'm thinking about chocolate, pancakes, veggie burgers and now scones with jam and whipped cream (thanks lola). i realise there is a need for moderation, but it's going to be hard to control myself when this cleanse is over. so, i'm going to have to plan my activities for the days after the cleanse carefully. meetings with friends should not revolve exclusively around food and if eating some of the forbidden foods, it should be in combination with good things. for example, my sweet sweet love: toast... moderation and combination, it can't just be toast and butter all week. :oD that would be sweet though... *laugh* just kidding. sort of.

in other news, tomorrow is the building inspection! tomorrow is when i know if i'm taking the place in white rock. i'll take pictures and send them to anyone that wants to see. if the inspection goes well, i will start to plan flooring and painting and such... and what i'm going to do with such a small kitchen. eek! i hope rachel's dad can get a lot done while i'm in tahoe...

distractions

the idea for today was that i would get up early enough to go to the gym before i take ang to her doctor's appointment. instead, i've been catching up on blogs. i feel okay with that, except that now i will think about fitting in going all day. it's better to just get the boring things out of the way first thing. i know this, but sometimes i ignore it.

oh, and p.s.

someone found my blog by looking under keywords: sexy, adventures, doctor.

since that pretty much sums me up, i'd like to say: welcome, you've come to the right place. ber ner neh neh.

go for gold

being such a goal oriented person mostly works for me. i make lists. i do them. i feel good. in fact, it feels better and more clear to me when i have a list. i get to plan around it, and organise time and effort. i sometimes overextend myself, but i've been not bad at that lately. except for saturday, and that ended up working out in the end. probably because my priorities have been work and cleanse.

my biggest overall goal lately has been to get happy and don't cave-in to the negative. mini-goals that will lead to this fun event:

•leaving my work (which is happening)
•leaving my too small apartment in kits (which, depending on the building inspection on tuesday, is happening)
•getting more organised for the wedding (my big event this summer)
•travel more (which is totally happening... tahoe and europe)
•finish cleanse and don't revert back to bad habits (the cleanse part is a check, the bad habits, is to be seen)
•don't put off 'til tomorrow what can be done today

these goals have not wavered, and have been mentioned before, it's true. but if something's not finished, it stays on the list, and can even get added to the new list.

lots of things are getting finished up this week and next. and that, martha, is a good thing cause it feels so sweet to cross things off.

in other news, clinique is having its bonus time at holts this week. i've been waiting for months. :o) this bonus comes with an eyelash curler, which is my dream. i don't know why i didn't just get one... i've been thinking about it for about a year now, but i guess it adds to the fate element...

oh. my. god. i just totally freaked myself out. i heard noises from my hallway and then the sound of a door. it was my closet door. i did some laundry tonight and it shakes the doors, so it must have opened them. but (laughing) i did have a CSI panic attack.

anyway. clinique bonus. i probably would have been pissed to buy a curler and then get one for free... i think it might be bed time... and more of olivia joules and the overactive imagination. seems fitting. :o)

laughing at yourself is good

i truly truly believe that you need to be able to laugh at yourself. things get a little easier, and certainly more fun!

the title of "random ramble" started off as "early bird gets the worm". because i got up early that day. somewhere along the line it changed. but the opening sentence didn't. so, my blogging day has started off with a laugh. at myself! YAY!!!

i can't believe it's only 10.30, i've already worked for a couple hours and been to the gym. gross. well, if i shower and play a quick game of catan before i go back to work, i can go to bed at 4pm and have done everything i need to today. oh, after i read the rules. rats. shouldn't take long.

oh and waxing party is on. if you want details, email me. there are some sweet deals to be had!

hot hot heat

wow. i sweat like a pig dog (swine hund) today. for real. i was going to go to the gym after spending (what i thought would be an hour) getting the garage sale ready for the store. nope. 3 hours later, i left to take a shower and then do some coaching. turns out the days were mixed up, and i only have to do some tomorrow.

*but* then i went to danielle's and despite not doing any thing (because of my bad skills as a painter) i was still super hot. i did do a drink run. and safeway was out of ice. *grr* my mad skills as a drink maker were appreciated. and i provided entertainment. in fact, the drinks were so good, they want me back tomorrow, despite knowing that i still won't be painting.

i also borrowed mario kart from danielle (who won't have any time to play it). i've played a few games, but want to play more more more!!! i like the battle part the best. but that's a multi-player thing. which means, i would actually need time to hang out with people in order to play games with them.

had yummy dinner at foundation (a way better veg restaurant than the naam, except they don't have breakkie) with yvonne. and didn't get a ticket (for once) despite my meter running out. extra yahoo!

i planned to do some tidying up around this place tonight, but i'm too hot and tired. it's also a little discouraging when you have like 15 boxes piled up in your already tiny living room. i'm just gonna have to suck it up tomorrow and deal with it.

for now, it's bed time and indulging in some trashy reading: olivia joules... the latest from helen fielding (bridget jones fame) and minutes/rules for what may be my new condo. i need to get up early for part 2 of the garage sale. and do stuff before it's so hot it's impossible. i'd set up my air conditioner, but i think they took the wooden stand thing away. i'll look into that tomorrow.

random ramble

i didn't get any kind of a worm this morning. but i did get a treat. rachel called from korea! yahoo! it was fun talking to her, since i only get a chance to chat online. she will probably stay at my condo (if it becomes mine) while i'm in europe. the good news about that is that then her dad can have lunch made for him while he does some renovations. unless i can con ian into doing some during his birthday month. :oD

i don't know how i do it, but today was my day off, and since i didn't have other plans, i just decided to work all day.

oh, i almost passed out at the gym! i don't know if i was too hot, or if it's this stupid cleanse (for which i only 6 days left, and i haven't cheated!) but in any case, i got dizzy and super hot suddenly and thenmy head pounded and i thought i was a goner. i held on though! YAY!!!

i also told lisa that i want to be done everything for the store by the end of next week. i can't handle it any more and am willing to tell her that.

good news: i bought some wicked wheat/dairy/sugar free stuff at capers today. i feel like the change in the type of rice i ate for dinner has really picked things up for me.

once again the trolley that allison and caleb got me has been of great service. i brought a girl at work who's traveling from england and currently has no money (she ate tomato soup for breakfast the other day) some food. lots of it. i felt so bad for her, and really, she's traveling. of course she doesn't have money. besides, whenever i travel people take us in and often feed and house us for free. it's what you do. anyway, i brought her wine, cheese and all of the wheat products in my house (like i'm gonna eat them), including proper cereal and stuff and she was like, i have nothing to give in return (like i care!). and later that day, vanessa brought her tonnes of canned and frozen stuff from her house too. it seemed only fitting that she had to use the gifted cart to take her food home. i want to make her and her boyfriend a wicked meal, but i'm doing this cleanse thing, and i really don't think that's much fun to eat around. in fact, i'm so bored of non-wheat products that i don't even want to eat around me.

which reminds me, she brought it (i need a name for my little cart!) back to the store. before i leave, i need that back! it's one of the most useful gifts. i can't believe they gave that up! i can totally see myself using it to go to the store in white rock! ha! they probably have parking for those things there. it's so full of old people... i'll fit right in!

i was talking to vanessa about going to lake tahoe and she said they might have access to a time share there...i think they are townhouses there. not just hotel rooms. actually we started talking about going to cancun on saturday, but i totally can't. i have commitments next week. otherwise, i would be there in a heartbeat. tanning and scuba diving. soooo wicked. anyway, get that thought out of my head. i have to focus on tahoe and europe. clearly i'm ready to go.

oh, and i no longer need to think about budgeting a pc into my future. jeffy introduced me to this other site that has carcasonne and settlers. AND it works for mac. so i need to get a better cushion for this chair! and i need to get a basket installed on my bike. i hate carrying fruit from granville island in a napsack.

and last but not least. stu delivered a package today! yay! thanks stu. you know who loves you, despite your lack of good gaming skills.

looks like i won't be homeless

my offer has been accepted. i now have minutes to read, and a building inspection to do. both of which are boring as hell. but i did hold out on the last counter offer and saved myself 500 bucks. i figured they'd still go for it, and i could treat myself to a massage and a nice dinner out, once this f'ing hell cleanse is over. (i TOTALLY have to go to church next week.)

i'm pretty stoked about this place, so i hope the building inspection goes well. then i have to start thinking about packing. since i move in on the day before i leave for lake tahoe, i really need to focus on getting shit organised and make it as easy as possible to move. i was going to buy some new furniture for my new place, but i think i might just wait. a new bed, armchair, and loveseat are all on the menu for my return. i may just get a term deposit for the amount i want to spend and then go crazy when i get back. i am very interested in a big screen tv... all totally superficial things, but i guess they are things i should think about getting a job to better afford.

speaking of jobs. my job makes me want to kill. so i am going to work hardcore and try to finish everything as quickly as possible in order to prevent any jail time.

also in the works: waxing party. i will try to arrange something asap. i feel like i'm running out of hours in the day though. work harder. work faster.

best laid plans

i didn't even get a chance to go to the gym today, so now i feel bad. i did do and get lots of work done though. that's gotta be something. the worst part is that i was hanging out in my gym clothes all day, thinking about how if i work a bit faster i'll be able to go. i feel disappointed twice.

so some girls from work and i planned to go to gay bingo tonight. we got to the club and it didn't look very gay bingoish. it's closed for the summer. FUCK. i may not be able to go before i leave. we decided to go to planet bingo on main. when you're in the mood for bingo, nothing else will do!

we got our asses kicked all over the place. the caller was super fast. we now know to only play three cards. seriously stressful. but we laughed about it. when we weren't trying to figure out what we were trying to get! and honestly, i cannot believe that people won when we had like 6 numbers to go sometimes. i think something sketchy is going on there. otherwise i would have won, right? or at least one of us would have. we were going to split the winnings which was really exciting when karen only needed one number to win $2000.00. alas, no go.

day 7

according to the booklet that comes with the cleanse i'm doing, removing stress from your life is as important as maintaining the no wheat/dairy/sugar diet. after this morning, i feel like i could eat a loaf of white cobs bread and not compare to my current stress level.

my sister makes me crazy. seriously... like crack open a beer bottle on a table and slash at someone nearby crazy.

this is the same sister who wants to know where i'll be in ireland so she can visit me. obviously i had to tell her that i would be moving around a lot and didn't have any real kind of idea as to where i'll be. does it really sound like i'm running away? oh good, then we're clear about it.

in other news, i can't believe i haven't broken that stupid cleanse yet! last night i was watching hockey highlights (or lowlights, depending on where you're from) and there were tim hortons commercials like crazy. the bread product looked really good.

i'm trying to be full of other stuff, with the hopes that then i won't crave the stuff i can't have. and to work on some stress levels, i will go to the gym (i'm already in my clothes, so how can i say no) after i do some work at the store.

a list to deal with to maintain sanity:

•find somewhere to live (i will know about my counter offer by 2pm today)
•finish list for store so can stop working there (i'm working very very hard on this)
•go to gym (so won't feel guilty)
•eat lots of good things (so don't crave bad things, otherwise will break cleanse, and feel bad about it)
•don't answer phone unless it will lead to crossing off one of the items on the above list.

berry clean

today i saw an ad for more crazy flavours of toothpaste. they're all berry and citrus and stuff like that. it confirms my theory that people are more "extreme" in their desires these days.

personally i just use regular crest. no problems so far.

i lied

since the people that own the condo i want to buy are away for the long weekend, they cannot accept/counter my offer today.

i should find out tomorrow or tuesday.

it's very tempting to do no work tomorrow and just hang about doing nothing. what might happen is that i get up super early, do work, go to the gym and then do nothing. which, in the grand scheme of things, isn't all that bad. especially since i'm more that ready to crash now, and really only made myself stay up to watch episode 2 on the cbc because i don't own it.

now, it's time to brush my teeth and sleep.

housing

today i find out if my offer on the condo is accepted. they may counter-offer, in which case, i am willing to negotiate. i would like to move in at the end of june, but i'm not 100% sure that's gonna happen. it would be a more relaxed move, especially since if i do it at the end of july, i'm going to have to move in the day before i leave for tahoe. that would be a bit nuts. i wouldn't even live there for 2 months before i left for europe. eek.

i hate staff meeting days, because the owner always tries to do everything in the morning and then runs out of time. if it had all been done yesterday she wouldn't be rushing to get stuff done. she'd be rushing to get to the store.

meow. i'm off.

day 4

good things have happened today.

i didn't break my cleanse, despite wanting to grab a piece of baguette from angela's hand, smear it with butter and shove it down my throat. and despite wanted some hot lips... just one, of course. but i didn't.

i put in an offer on this cute condo in white rock. initially i was going to put in an offer on this way bigger one. but i think fate intervened. the realtor for the one that i did put an offer in on, didn't call angela back, so we didn't even get to see it when we had planned. we saw four others, and then had dinner. as soon as we were done dinner the realtor called and was like, why didn't you stop by? blah blah blah we went over to see it, and i really liked it. it only has one bathroom and a smaller kitchen, but it's in a great location, and it feels nice. as long as the building inspection and minutes all check out, this one's a go. so it kind of feels like fate. fingers crossed.

my energy level is getting back to normal. which is extra nice because i have to work tomorrow. it's not totally back, because at 5.30 today i was ready to sleep in the chair. and right now, i'm getting sleeeeeeepy!

yay!

seattle calling

today was the best trip i've had to seattle in a long time. considering the last two involved my sisters, it's really no stretch.

ian and i had planned to go to look for shoes since i've exhausted all possibilities here, and didn't want to buy the prada ones. i ended up buying those shoes, so we went down to look for shoes for him. and maybe some clothes. we didn't even get to the heart of seattle, which had been our initial goal. we stopped at this newish outlet mall because we saw the puma sign, and he had seen a pair of pumas up here that he loved and wanted to price there.

anyway, we didn't see the ones he liked there, but then i saw that the shoes they did have there (which were close) were only $14.95. he bought two pairs. and this adorable zippy top that was way cuter than the adidas one he'd seen and almost bought here. i bought a tank top at the adidas outlet for $10. it was so busy there, because there were tonnes of tourists from canada for the long weekend.

we drove further towards seattle and then went to a mall. the traffic was hell, so we followed my keen instinct that said to exit, and it ended up being the mall we had talked about. we went to victoria's secret, and i bought regular, but adorable, knickers for me, and he got some body crap for his friend who requested it. she also requested lingere but ian felt she should get her own. i know that i've said i'm not buying more underwear... especially since i cleaned my underwear drawer yesterday and threw away over thirty pairs, and kept over thirty. but i am a weak person. maybe because i didn't go to church this week, maybe because of the cleanse.

oh, and the cleanse is going better than ever. well, i was really really tired today. and hungry. *but* we went to olive garden and i only had salad (no cheese, no crutons). no bread sticks. no pasta. seriously. i didn't even have the chocolate that they give you at the end. and the guy brought us 2 each. i had to sit and watch ian eat the yummy yummy garlic bread, and feticcine alfredo all with cheese, i might add... but i resisted. AND then on the way home, we stopped at krispy kreme and ian bought two donuts, and because the light was on, we each got one for free. i was holding the warm wheaty goodness in my hands and gave it to ian. if i can get through today, then i will have little trouble with the rest of the 12 days. i mean olive garden, warm krispy kreme, AND at the outlet mall we walked by rocky mountain chocolate factory. and i resisted all.

we stopped to get some nuts for me. with the idea that they have some weight and would make me feel full. they did the trick, and all is well. oh, but the best best best part of the day. i picked up some cherry coke (not for me, on so many levels) and it had a different price for members. obviously i don't have a card. but when we were in the cash line-up the guy in front of us gave his phone number instead... like at safeway. as he was giving his number i was memorising it. i was just going over the number in my head when ian started to whisper it to me. which in itself was hilarious. then as the guy was leaving, i asked if it was okay to use his number. he was walking away and said sure. so i said his number and was totally blushing. like, what kind of freak memorises someone's number to save a dollar? me. the cashier was like: if he gets a phone call in the middle of the night, we'll know who it was. and he was almost out of the store at that point and totally looked back. i was seriously cracking up.

it was super fun to connect with ian again. we played punch/poke buggy the whole way, and of course i was the champion of all champions. and it was fun to be reminded of how in line we can be sometimes. we totally said the same things at the same time, and laughed at the same stupid stuff. and then the memorising the guy's number thing... it was awesome, especially since we haven't really been hanging out much, and haven't been having this much fun.

good times shopping in the states. and no duty/gst had to be paid. yahoo!

power on

tonight there is a wicked thunder and lightning show, provided by nature. if the power goes out, like it's been threatening to, i'm going to be in trouble, even my emergency candles are packed away.

yay nature!

takin' care of bizness

so, it's not like the "extra energy" part of the cleanse has kicked in. i am only on day one, after all. *but* i am starting to finish up some stuff. except that i got a fresh new list of things to do today. i guess because the end is near, i've been really really really trying to tidy up loose ends. for example, i FINALLY cut the extra length from my shower curtain, i cut my nails, i dropped off the millions of magazines that were in my car to the cancer clinic, found out why i got a ticket somewhere i thought i'd never parked before (we were at the gift show, and lisa was supposed to pay it) and have reminded myself about depositing a cheque. i'm also almost done a tonne of laundry. there are other (much less exciting, if you can believe it) things that i'm getting done at work these days too. they don't feel quite as exciting, simply because of the new list. but i work well from lists. check.

tonight i will have rice and veggies. no sauce. i have a feeling sauces aren't allowed in cleanses. if they were, i don't think doing a cleanse would be that hard. well, except for the fact that right now i can't eat toast, any non-fruit related sugars, and dairy. this means no chocolate, in case you hadn't noticed. i think after a few days i'll be okay. i wish i had more kamut squares.

day 1

today's the first day of my cleanse. yesterday i went to capers and got some cleanse friendly foods, but forgot to get food for breakkie. so i may eat a kamut square. which brings me to my next point: kamut squares are back! yahoo. the only problem is that the f'ing kamut gets everywhere. otherwise i adore the tasty little treats.

tonight (midnight) is the first showing of star wars. if anyone's going before next week (which is when i'll go with d and jordy) please let me know.

work is taking over my living space again. so, as day one of my cleanse, and after i go to the gym, i'm going to sort through and hand-off. the girl who's taking over my job for the summer is getting all of the binders, all of the boxes, and all of the junk that's been hanging around my place because of work. this is very very exciting for me. oh, and i'm determined to drop off those magazines at the cancer clinic today. i need them out of my car. for real.

in other news, last night i made risotto. i thought i had parmesan cheese, but i didn't. so i used cheddar and gouda. worked out alright. it makes tonnes of food though. i may have to freeze it until i'm done the cleanse, or i'll have to force feed people that come over.

say what?!

don't forget to vote! (thanks for the reminder, ang) i'm off to do so right now.

done and done

shoes for wedding
sell house
re-learn sleep
arrange to get a hole-puncher

mad skills, yo

i need to practise more mario party... especially if i want to be any kind of competition against jeffy.

i'm looking for volunteers. must be extra lucky, or have mad mario party skills. oh, and a commitment to the cause is also appreciated.

oh, and i'm starting a cleanse on thursday, so you should have low expectations as to what you can find to eat at my house for the next couple of weeks.

judgement

this morning i was having a shower and was reflecting on the past year. i've been trying to be more patient, more open, and more forgiving. i don't know that it's evident yet, but the effort's been there. i was thinking that i should have added less judging, afterall, who am i to sit on my throne and make judgements? so i thought about it more...

people often talk about how they don't judge people and how it's not anyone's place to judge another. i've decided that i disagree. even meyers-briggs says i'm a judger. and i am. everyone knows it. i think i judge my own actions as harshly as i do that of others (maybe i'm wrong, but that's your decision!). it's a combination of fearing those criticisms and the conclusions that go with judging that keeps people in check. it's moral law.

i think it's good to forgive... it's much healthier if you can do it. besides, the path to nirvana needs you to realise that you cannot control other people's actions, only your reaction. then again, if you go the christian way, your life ends with the ultimate judging: from god.

conclusion: maybe i should work on my reactions... and the becoming less judging will follow naturally.

pooped

work was boring today because it was kinda slow. so i did some tidying and throwing away in the back room. which was needed, and still is needed.

i'm starting to look forward to the fetish party tonight. yvonne picked up some stuff and all together we should be able to work something out. naomi's got some bondage tape and some liquid latex so that should guarantee something interesting.

okay, shower, nap, dress.

tomorrow will hopefully be relaxing enough that i can look through the rough guide to ireland that danielle picked up for me. i wonder where she wants me to go.

sleep me

i am so tired right now, i don't know if i'll make it through the day. i feel like if i just quit today, at least i could get some extra sleep. and maybe play some nintendo!

oy.

doms

today i worked. i actually had a decent sleep last night, which means i wasn't very interested in getting out of bed this morning.

after work i went to the coq and found a pair of army-ish pants and the cutest hoodie. the army pants are for the fetish night tomorrow at sin city, i think i have an idea for the top. i hope it works.

the hoodie is because it looked adorable on me! danielle agreed, so two out of two can't be wrong.

then i played some games (crib and dominos) at ang's place. i think david either thinks i'm totally obnoxious, or a fun person to talk smack with. either way he's probably right.

i'm so tired, you get the short version of the day.

good news: another mushroom free day, peaches. yup, no mushrooms.

busy busy

it was a busy (stressful and hectic) day today. being tired all day didn't help.

i'm so tired, i'm not going to even bother talking about the bad stuff.

some of the good stuff (but not all):

i got a wicked amount of work done today
ate breakkie at sophie's
got some bed time, even if it wasn't sleep time
angela brought samosas
1 for 2 at crib today
had a yummy yummy smoothie
talked to kenji online after lots of hits and misses

and the rest of the day doesn't matter all that much...except that it's now time to try to go to sleep.

actually, i'm allergic to mushrooms

so, a challenge was issued (during my not reading many blogs phase). to jeffy, i say, "i'm allergic to mushrooms". i have convinced my body of this, and am physically unable to consume the fungus. *barf*

i have even told people that i would not kiss them if they ate mushrooms in front of me. yeah, it's true.

anyway, let's come up with a real bet. peaches *heh heh* versus yoshi *yahoo*. as i said on your blog, i'm going to try to figure out a way to get to ontario before (on my way) to europe. i just have to figure out some stuff...including where i will live when i no longer can live here. and other minor details like that. maybe i'll win lots of cash in tahoe. saweet.

hey, isn't peaches princess toadstool? *gross*

insomnia

it sucks.

i've had it for the last few days, and tonight decided that laying in bed was getting me nowhere. now i'm going to work. i'll start with making a list. that always makes me feel better.

church lady

(thanks for the suggestion, yvonne)

today i went to church. it's the first time in a long time... if you want a clearer date, ask kenji. i can guarantee he was preachin' the last time i went.

i went to a small group that has some discussion and is much more personal. as i am in search of a community (among other things) i mistakenly choice wisely.

but did i think i had chosen so wisely when i first go there? well, there was a moment of bliss when i pulled up and there was rockstar parking, and it looked like i was at the right place/right time. and then when i was greeting by this nicely dressed korean man (there's a reason his ethnicity is important) i thought i was a natural at this church thing... the doors weren't even locked... i didn't have to find a special entrance. god was welcoming me. ahhh! the beauty of it.

then the nicely dressed man asked if i was a member of the church (insert panic, and start dropping names). i said no, but that the church was recommended to me, and that i'm here for the 6.45 worship. he then told me about the korean service at 6.45. uh oh... i might have stayed for it, but with my current expertise in korean, i didn't think i could pull it off... besides, i think i might have stood out. anyway, i told him that there's a service at 6.45 and then we cleared things up, i showed him the big sign outside, and he told me where the chapel was.

when i got to the chapel, there was an old guy that looked dutch, so i decided he was the older minister (who from my research is dutch) and that i must be on the right track. and the sign said prayer in silence or something, so i couldn't ask him if i needed a book... when you're in the church all of the materials are in front of you. once other people came in i stopped pretending to be praying and grabbed a book like the other ladies.

it was actually kind of nice. i refused the wine and bread because i'm not baptised, but he was like, oh go ahead if you like. i've only done it once before so i said thank you instead of amen. oops.

basically the ladies there were super nice, and i think i'll go back. i'm really into ladies that age. i like them a lot.

after church, yvonne took me out for indian. yummy!!! thanks yvonne. i'm so f'ing full... and maybe didn't need to go to DQ after. craving or not.

gymmy

i'm going to hit the gym today. it'll be the first time in a looooong time. an embarassingly long time. but i want to get back on track, and since my work day today is very flexible, i might as well take advantage of it.

also today, my house is going to be viewed again. since the last deal fell through. it might actually work out a bit better if i move out of here at the end of june or the end of july instead of mid july because of danielle's wedding.

other exciting things planned for today: church and dinner with yvonne. well, dinner with yvonne... not church.

rats. i should have grabbed my iPod from one of the boxes at ang's... now i have no music to listen to at the gym.

weird

i feel like i'm at this really weird point in most of my relationships. huh, harder to describe than i thought.

my sister told my other sister and my brother that i was moving away. my brother's reaction (the same brother with whom i haven't spoken since my mom died) was: it's not because of me, is it? my other sister's reaction when told was to call me and ask me if it's true. no hello, no how are you. simply: are you moving to ireland? i can see how she was confused, i've never even been there. i just don't think it matters that much... i'm just gonna do it. if i don't like it, i'll do what should be done when you're not in love with something/someplace: move. it's not like anything's holding me back, really. besides, if i decide where i'm going now, she'll have a plane ticket before me... she's already talked about visiting, and i don't even know where i'm going. *and* right now, the last thing i want is a visit from someone that makes me crazy.

i also feel off kilter with my non-family (and therefore closer) relationships... like i'm not on the same wavelength, there's a lot of explaining, arguing/discussing, disagreeing, whatever. to quote anghold,"i think it might be me".

even this whole work thing has thrown me off. the good news is that i may be leaving sooner than i thought... like end of this month sooner, which wouldn't be bad, what with my maid of honour responsibilties (manicures, pedicures, massages etc.) it's going to be a busy month. well, that and packing.

i want to say this weirdness is a today thing, but i'd be lying. and i hate that word... i use laying as much as possible... grammatically incorrect or not... i much prefer lay over lie. but really, who doesn't?

maybe i just needed a beer tonight... if i hadn't been the one driving home... and if i liked the piss. :o) good games, kids. nice conversation... i'm totally interested in being a robber... but what if there aren't any cops?

don't be cruel

so, i decided on a pair of shoes today. the ones i really like were ordered in from the t dot, but they were too tight for my flippers. thinking about it, i really describe myself as creepy on this blog... :oD ahh... the truth shall set you free!

anyway, the shoes i bought have started to grow on me. they're silver strappy prada mules with a not-so-high heel. i'm probably still under 6 feet in them. but there are two things wrong. the first, and the biggest: the price. they cost more than some people's dresses for the event. and the second: unless the size 10 feels way better than the 10.5, i'm still not going to be overly comfortable. the design doesn't allow for my stubby baby toe to be comfy. i could get it amputated... but *that* may be more that i'm willing to do for this event. sorry danielle.

the good news is, i'm going to seattle, and i'm gonna find something. or, drown my sorrows in some kind of shopping. and then spray paint a pair of shoes silver.

rachel says i have good shoe karma. i would like to argue differently.

xu = 1 million points

but that still isn't enough to beat anghold at scrabble.

yesterday i played a game of catan with ally and caleb. i haven't played catan in a loooong time. it was wicked.

and then it was crib, scrabble, taco salad, and cake at anghold's. good times were had. thanks for entertaining me, ang.

today there was a building inspection at my house. hopefully this is a good thing. we're now also starting to look at houses, not just condos. oy. there are two that have come up already. we'll see how it goes.

also today, i dropped my sister off at the airport. one sibling down, two to go. :o)

oh, that's smooth

i haven't had a smoothie in a while. yesterday i made one. oooh so good. i wasn't going to leave the house today. now i have to go out so that i can get more strawberries. and bananas. rats.

i'll pick up some apples too. just in case i make apples in pyjamas. oh, greasy german comfort food.

today will involve making a list of things to do for the week. playing catan with allison, caleb and the baby in the tummy. it may involve risotto, yvonne et al (is this the correct use? it feels right) and as mentioned, apples in pyjamas.

the rest of my day has been somewhat crap, but hopefully a smoothie will cure some of that. if not, there's always chocolate.

fuck

so i woke up this morning to barrage of thoughts: i hope work doesn't call me. holy crap i'm thirsty. oh, wicked, no hang over. oh fuck, i think i blogged last night. and, i wonder if anyone wants to go for brunch.

i would have erased the blog, but i guess people have already read it.

at least my first rule of drunk held through: do NOT email anyone, under and cicumstances.

clearly, last night was fun. i think i'll lay low, do some work, watch lemony snikket's.

shit

i have the hiccups. severe. okauy, remember (ang) how i had themm earler when i was kicking your ass at mario? hahaha/ anyway. i think i drankt oo much. shit.

maybe i need water.

also. now i'm looking forward a lot to my trip at the end of summer. gerry, can i crash at your house?

also,. oh yeah, ang i blame you for drinking too much. oh and how can i hiccup and sleep? i don't think i ca. remember when you thought that people when they were drunk hiccuped because they did in movies. i was hiccuping before movies. oy. also, i had popcorn tonight at quinn and naomi's. and we did karaoke. andthat was at karaoke box and the cab driver there wouldn't listen to me. ha ha.

oh and maybe it's me because the other guy at the karaoke place wouldn't let me pay for the wine first. also, i wish they had shmkmirrnoff ice. as i am partial to that. i need to put a replacemtent wine in the fridge. ause ang and i drank the other wine. now i have red wine, and i don't realluy like it the best.

what else? oh, i hope james and karen come and visit in june. that would be fune. except if that is when i move. but i don't know. also, i wonder if youhave he same kind of fun if you are an alcoholic or id you are get a different drunk. but how do you aske someone?

oh, and i want to see ummm that movie about elexander the great. that would be cool. and i think i'm tires. so i should brush my te4eth.

i have feeling i will regret leaving on my computer. i hate that. oh well. skip it if you don't loooooooooooove it paris hilton style.

blonde ambition

today i tried to fix lisa's computer. and then went to richmond to pick up the strata mitues for my house sale. i'm going to go and make copies of them soon.

since i was trying to avoid working, and my house certainly didn't need cleaning, i got my hair cut and coloured...you know, for entertainment. this time i'd call it blonde. dark blonde. anyway, it looks hot. whoo hoo! 3.5 hours had better be worth it.

i'm starting to get really excited about episode 3 coming out. i mean come on, it's the last of a legacy. even if you're not totally in love with star wars, it's something to see. i'm trying to not see the commercials, because despite knowing the story line, i'm not interested in seeing half of the movie before i get to see the whole thing.

i guess that sums up my day: computers, hair, and star wars. right on.

trash and bed

today was a "i'm so happy to be leaving work" day. ugh. i just got in from the store, to make up for the hours i skipped out on earlier. skipped out on to go shopping with danielle. we went to holt's and i special ordered the shoes. i hope they work. they should be in overnight from toronto. don't worry... i'll keep everyone posted on the shoe situation. danielle said that she could feel my sadness. if this doesn't work, i'm going to have to start hitting more stores in the states... road trip!

danielle, vanessa and i also went to visit vanessa's connection in the bag industry. i was going to blurb about what was purchased, but i don't want to betray anyone's secrets.

tomorrow i have to make sure i have all of the minutes and financial stuff ready for the buyer of my condo. hopefully i'll also be able to see this sweet place in east van that looks like it could be my next apartment.

ugh. must go to bed. am tired. but what's the trash part of this? the new helen fielding book (bridget jones's diary) that i picked up. oooh how i love trash. :o)

my bum hurts

today i got my ass kicked all over the coq. ang whooped me at crib. but revenge will be mine. mwahhh haaa haaa.

oh! and today a cop called to go over what needed to be done for the hit and run that yvonne and i saw near dalia's. he was super flirty (ask yvonne) and at the end of the conversation asked how old we were. he (maybe joking) said he thought we were 18! but this is the same guy who was like: hello ursula speaking because i answered the phone: ursula speaking. and started the conversation: the way [yvonne] tells it, it was your fault. which totally freaked me out, because i already feel bad that the guy was backing up to let me through. but then he was like: oh, i'm just joking! and he was super impressed by me getting the license plate. he said most people think to get it after it's too late. i replied that i watch a lot of law and order... i've been schooled proper.

tomorrow i'm going to go into the store a bit for some coaching, and then i'm going to go shoe shopping with danielle at holt's. god willing there's something to match my dress. something that will be comfy... and something i can wear more than once. maybe i'll just get a pair of those cute $30 dr.scholl's. there wouldn't be a problem with the heel sinking into the grass at minter gardens.

plans are starting for my big move... the one to europe... not the one within the GVA. looks like i'm going to germany first, i may pick up a car there... haven't decided, but there's a 1971 vw bug with my name on it... since i'll be selling my car here, i may use it for a bit in europe, and then send it over here. it could be fun. anyway, in germany we'll start sorting out some of the furniture and all that kind of stuff left from my oma and dad. and then it's look out ireland... word on the street is that it's better to visit there before the rain starts for the fall/winter. the rest is up in the air. and pre-europe might be (if i can swing it... i have to figure out times and house stuff, etc) a trip to ontario. i can always leave for germany from toronto... there's an airport *and* settlers *and* curry week. anyway, that's what's going on these days. and a whole bunch of work!!!

sold... to the highest bidder

yesterday i got two offers on my house (yay!). one of which has been accepted. i've started getting the minutes together and planning for all of the stuff needed. the guy is using a lawyer, not a real estate agent, so i've got some special requests to work on. it is a huge relief to know that i can now start looking for something to move to.

to celebrate i left (too late) for the coq. there was some serious ass-kicking going on at ang's in the form of cribbage. i almost got double-skunked. which totally hurt my heart. :o) we're still working on the "don't just win, skunk them" policy. and some forms of trash-talking have also been implemented. good times all around. and cookies all around too...thanks to rach's mom.

i think i'm interested in a cinnamon bun. also, i need to figue out what to eat that's not messy (because i still have the building inspection) but is going to be satisfying. there will be a messy party possibly involving the extra tofurkey after all of the things are lifted by the owner.

i guess living at other people's houses and not showering has finally paid off.

help yourself

tonight, while driving home on cambie, i saw a sign that said "help yourself". it's under a sushi sign, on the east side. at first i thought it meant, please, help yourself to... cottage cheese or some such thing. i quickly realised they probably meant help yourself, no one else can/will etc.

it was good and bad at work. we were crazy busy: good. but someone wanted to buy a locket, and we have this really cute one from früg so i showed her it. it is übercute, and while showing it to her, i thought, huh, i could put a picture of my mom and me in here, that would be so cute. and then i was like, is this for your mom? and she said it was. i swear to you, i started to cry! anyway. i somewhat got over it. after crying three more times. it's not like i hadn't started to tear up thinking about mother's day earlier, but it totally got me today. also it's day one of my period, so i'm super sensitive...and apparently desperate to be crying. and i've been feeling displaced lately because i've been camping at ang's (which has been fun, and super kind of her and her mom, but hard for me, who loves to be at home). anyway. i'm a bit out of sorts.

also today, i ate dinner at yvonne's... risotto to boot! wick-ed! oh, and ian bought his girl something at the store, which was fun. and a bunch of ang's friends met up to go to hitchhiker's guide. okay, apparently (much like the mice and men phenomenon) i didn't start to read the book. it must have been a different one that i now associate with that title. who knows. anyway, it was super funny, and a great watch. i would totally see it again (even in a theatre) and i was impressed. i liked it, and was happy i had totally different expectations about it. two thumbs up.

after the movie, yvonne and i stopped off at lauren's because i promised to stop at her party. lauren also gave me a cute bracelt at work today. she made it for me! yay! as we were leaving, because we couldn't find her, a guy stopped us and totally tried to chat us up. we humoured them for a while and then went back up. okay, by humoured, i mean i teased a bit and possibly destroyed his self-esteem. who knows. boys shouldn't be that delicate, and if you can't handle the teasing/joking around on the first go, it's a good sign things wouldn't work out. i mean, it's not going to get any easier. and he was german. he did follow us upstairs though.

overall, today was a 7. it had a great finish, like the roshambo wine i brought over to yvonne's. :o) and i got to see wheel of fortune and jeopardy for the first time in a week. AND talk to danielle, and see yvonne and ian and ang. AND two customers said i looked hot today. i don't *think* they meant sweaty. :o)

foots

today, because i haven't been able to properly groom (by properly, i mean obsessively) because i haven't been at my house i got a mini-pedicure and now have cute toenails with flowers on the big toe nails. yay cute! and now i don't have to be embarassed to try on shoes. especially fancy wedding style ones. yes, those would be the same ones that i have tried on, but not been inspired or even remotely pleased enough to actually consider purchasing. tomorrow after work, i will go to holt's and ask them to order those shoes in for me. here's hoping they can, and that they will fit me well enough to justify the cost.

also today was driving to hope, getting a million things done. then ang and i went for a walk around the mall. neither bought anything because the shoes suck this season. oh, and my sister (the one who's being nice to me) was being very domestic today and she did some of my laundry for me. which is cool, cause i'm gonna crash here (at ang's again) tonight. my place is being seen tomorrow, once by a new person, once by someone who has already seen it... this is exciting. saturday is another open house. and then there may be people who want to see it again on sunday. but that's when we're accepting offers. sunday evening. then it's make a mess time! and i'll be able to shower at home again.

that's all that's going on. i can't remember blogging about telling my boss that i will be leaving the store in june. this is exciting as well. i told her about my plans to leave for europe. that's all that's happened so far, considering my plans to leave. i don't even have a concrete destination. but i am leaning towards ireland at least for the first bit.

oh, only children.

today i went to work. despite it being my day off. despite me telling my boss that i will be leaving in june and moving to europe in august/september. work including babysitting her son, and doing some small accounting stuff. the accounting stuff is right up my alley. the babysitting was going stellar until he decided that me not listening to him boss me around wasn't a good thing. we were horsing around on the trampoline... he was laughing his ass off. it was great, and then he got grumpy... or too bossy. tomato tomahto. so, until 1/2 hr before i left, i was his favourite person. then i became his least favourite. luckily this means less babysitting. i don't hate him, but it's hard to reason with a kid that's not given enough attention, and then is given whatever so he'll be quiet.

the good part of my day: hot eyelashes are a go. two long shirts are a go. two cute belts, again, a go. things are good. danielle and i met up for eyelashes and shopping and olive garden. i haven't spent time with her in a while, due to a series of unfortunate events (yes, i stole that). so it was very nice.

oh, and i think i sprained my finger horsing around with the kid today. it HURTS.

today was the first open house for my apartment. saturday is the next, and hopefully the last. i wouldn't mind not mooching of the kindness of ang and her mom. haagen daz gifts in return or not.

last night was sleepover at ang's. yvonne, and i watched ang and david play some classic atari games...wait, i guess they are all classic. it is atari. yvonne knit, i priced jewelry, of course. and there was some quality cribbing involved. there was a pretty close one and that was wicked. we all agree... 3 player crib is the hardest.

tonight is maybe doing some work... and hanging out with hoolie 'til ang gets home. i should have made danielle hang out with me longer and go to a movie or something, cause work kinda sucks.

he's just *not* that into you

today i bought some trash books. i had been meaning to get "he's just not that into you" for a while now... ummm... more specifically, since early january.

it's a very quick read. especially if you accidently buy the abridged version. oops.

perhaps the best one is #59: If he's not calling you, it's because you're not on his mind. 'nuff said. People always say stuff like, oh he's not a phone talker, he's really busy, etc. *i've* said it. but there's something about print that can really drive home a message.

tonight i went for dinner to bin 942. i'd been there before and had WICKED risotto. they only had a mushroom risotto tonight. i guess the menu changes more often than i thought.

i played some wicked crib with ang at her house... in both games we were both worried about the other person doing some mad skunking. and then we started a betting game with greg (who kindly brought us slurpees) but i had to run out to meet my sister which ended up being a bit annoying. i was wanting to win some wicked cookies.

thankfully, since my shower this morning, my skin is feeling nice again. i don't *want* to have to stay at people's houses and mooch showers and cooking space, but it could actually be longer than i thought. maybe i should just say fuck it, and get on with my life back at home again. ugh.

permanent vacation

so i feel like i've been having a bit of a vacation. i'm at anghold's and takin it easy. although i'm not sure it counts as much since i've already left myself voice messages at home about work.

as the days go by, and i get more and more involved in this, i want to leave. that kind of happens with a lot of things for me. and probably for lots of people. i'll totally be in love with something and super intense about it, and then one day, it will bore me or not interest me anymore.

in other news, i haven't eaten at home since friday. and i haven't eaten properly since then either.

friday night was at dalia's with ang, yvonne and chris. popsicles were had. saturday night was greg's birthday barbeque, and poker night at quinn and naomi's. good times were had.

perfect

my apartment is currently perfect. there isn't a crumb, hair, or dusty to be seen. today was going to be my open house. due to technology, the open house will be on wednesday. yesterday i seriously considered staying in a hotel until then. it's very hard not to touch or eat anything when it's your own house.

ian and i went shopping yesterday. i found the perfect silver strappy sandals. they only had size 5 left. when we go back on sunday, i'll ask if they can order a 10 in for me. they weren't too high, just simple, and cute.

but i couldn't find a long shirt. the kind that crinkles at the bottom. all the kids are wearing them. i saw some at pacific border, in the window, so i'll see if i can pick one up there.

last night, yvonne and i went to ang's house... well, dalia's, but ang is staying there. anyway, we had popsicles and veggies and hummous and tzatziki.

oh, and we saw a car get hit... again!

i decided to go down her street from the west side, although there is usually parking on the north side, so it wasn't a smart move... because there was parking on the north side, not the south. we turned around in a driveway, and a car waited for us. then the car backed up to let us go. they were driving too fast backwards, and too close to other cars i thought. and then yvonne saw the car lurch and i heard a crash. i noted the plate... you know, just in case... and as we pulled to the side we saw the whole side of the car smashed in.

we decided, because i wasn't 100% sure about the noise, and yvonne didn't see it hit, just the lurch, to write that their car may have been hit... unless this is old damage, give us a call. but then a neighbour came down and was like, are you alright? so we explained, and he said he had come down because of the noise. he added a note to ours, which we changed to, we saw your car get hit, and then we went to ang's. this morning, i got a phone call from the lady. i didn't answer, but i will call her soon.

later stu

i totally forgot to mention my stu adventure today.

i went downstairs, and he was there. since i had decided to tell him about texas hold'em if he was there, i did. we were chatting, and i asked if he likes poker. his answer (and reason enough to stop loving him) was that he's not good at losing, so he doesn't play games like that. (i think my heart broke-because really, can you imagine me hanging out with someone who doesn't like to play games... and worse, likes to, but is a poor loser? i don't think so.) anyway, we went on to joke about how we don't play for money, but reputation and now that he said he's a poor loser his reputation is on the ground.

and wouldn't you know... at the same time as we were talking about texas hold'em, that super hot guy from my building came in. as i told yvonne earlier: it was a hot sandwich.

oh, and as we were driving today, this guy was yelling at me, and honking from his car. he was yelling that there's a green arrow and i should go. for the record, you *can* turn right from that lane, but it's NOT a turning right lane exclusively. to him i say: fuck you, stop trying to ruin my day, jerk face. oh, and learn to drive.

trouble in blogger land

i have been having heaps of trouble with blogger. i am looking for ways to get around my server and read people's blogs, but so far, sometimes they quickly appear and then disappear... sometimes they don't even appear.

it's not that i'm not interested. it's that i can't. and no, i'm not suddenly reading your blog thirteen times in one day... i'm trying to read it... sometimes i try thirteen times.

jimmy buffet

today (sit down for this) i had buffet. it was indian buffet. it was all they had. it wasn't bad. i highly doubt yvonne and i got our money's worth, but the two guys that came in after us sure did!

we went to the homo depot and i got painting stuff (for the microwave shelf) and we got bankers boxes for packing. oh, and p.s. i suck at painting, as proven once again today. abstract stuff, i can do. painting something evenly in one colour... not so super good at.

i made a decent dent today, but have to get up early to start again. molly maid is coming over. at least i don't have to dust and clean the floors, that's my least favourite part of cleaning, although it is supernice to have wickedly clean floors. i enjoy the end result, i just don't like the process. there are other way more fun cleaning things to do.

oh, i also picked up and dropped off some stuff at toren's. i picked up a travel book for greece and spain, and a book on speaking italian. he's going to look for ireland and scotland (the other choices) when he works next. he got some dish soap that i don't like, and some bits of shampoos and conditioners. i may have gotten the better deal, but he did get 1/2 of clinique shampoo... and that's somethin'! i have way too much hair for a shampoo that doesn't foam much. i don't care if it's better for curly hair, my scalp didn't feel clean.

i think i'm going to have to eat out for dinner tomorrow and breakkie on saturday. i have packed away most of my utensils, and have to pack up the drying rack before the cleaners come tomorrow. this means i won't be able to prepare any kind of food. maybe i should shower somewhere else too. i hope no one needs to come back for a second look.

tomorrow i need to:
finish packing
buy some flowers
buy some fruit
take vacuum to garbage bin

discounts

so, i was at work today when someone from my building came in. she has a bit of a loud voice and would pick up an item and ask how much it is, and then how much it would be with my discount. basically, it wasn't going over that well, because there were other customers in the store, and another girl that works there. so, i was just like, look i can't give you a discount, i have to go and see how other people are doing.

she left, and all was quiet. after work, i went home, and headed to the coq to support ang's new habit of shopping. she bought two übercute skirts. soooo fun. i almost bought a jacket. instead, i bought nothing. believe it. i checked my messages at home from my cellphone, and there were two from her. i called her back and she wanted to see if i'd gotten the chinese balls/donuts/rolls whatever they are that she left outside my door. now, the funny part is how she was explaining that she thought i would like them. in case you missed the blog where i went on about how much she loves ian and how she thinks that, "he's a good man, hang on to him", she is under the impression that we are together. ian is half chinese. she explained that she thought i might like them because, you know... apparently she thinks if you like one kind of chinese balls, you'll like them all!

god, that cracked me up. anyway. that was the comedy of the evening. i should go to sleep soon. i need to work hardcore tomorrow packing shit up. i can't wait for this open house to be over. gosh.

welcome to high school

last night, i stayed up too late. i ate pizza too late. and i got a huge zit. yes, i feel like i'm back in high school.

anyway, we played mario party 2 and the game was giving out stars like... ummm... coins? hee hee. so, yoshi ended up with 7 stars and rocked the game. we played mysteryland. and because of our success, we opened a new land. now i have to use some of our coins to open new mini-games. we keep having to play the same ones.

i had the weirdest dream last night. weird, because no one was physically chasing me... but there was a strong, unspoken urgency. ian and i were getting married. it was a (get this) traditional italian wedding. neither of us are italian. not by a long shot. i'm not sure what the rush was, but i know that we were only doing it for another reason. here are the connections i've made from my life to this dream: a new pope was elected in italy...i know he's german, but that's irrelevant, i was doing some wedding-related things, and lisa said yesterday: i'm doing your wedding stuff (she was ordering guest books and such, at my request), i saw ian yesterday and we talked about mesed up marriages, and i ate dinner way too late, all of which contribute to an uneasy and weird-dream filled sleep. maybe that dream was a sign: don't eat dinner after 8pm. :o)

i don't want to go to work today. i'd rather crawl back into bed and snuggle with fluffy bedding and pretend that i don't have a tonne of work left to do before friday. yummy! instead, i'm going to shower and get ready for a hopefully super busy day.

the seattle story

funny, i just told danielle the story today. i felt that one week removed should have been enough. but then i had to pick up the sisters today.

so, last week my sisters slept over at my house, so we could leave early for seattle. they went to my grandpa's 92nd birthday in nevada. anyway, one of my sisters was so upset with me that i had eaten dinner without her, and that she was going to have to order pizza. which is a whole other story. anyway, we played trivial pursuit and then went to bed.

the next day started with one sister complaining about the other one snoring. blah blah blah. we load up and head south. on the way down (while in washington) we were in the express lane, when someone entered the highway and totally sped up to where we were and then cut me off, and slammed on their brakes. fyi, we were doing 140km, and they had passed us. so, i was ticked, but my sister was PISSED, as we passed them on the right, she was out of her seat, screaming and gesturing at them. and then when we were in front of them, she was signing for them to pull over. she was telling me to pull over, and was ready to kick ass. i had to grab her and tell her to sit down. clearly, there was no way i was going to stop. i was just like, sit down, we're in the states, they could have a gun. cause the guy was totally getting ready to pull over.

after that, we stopped at the mall. we were headed upstairs to victoria's secret, when one sister got lost. (i guess going up the escalator was a bit too much for her). once we found her, we got to victoria's secret, and the other one left to buy something else, without telling me. so in the 7 mins i was in the store, both sisters were gone. oy. so, i had to wait for 1/2 (of key shopping time) waiting for them to come back. then one sister went to the info booth to call me, because she couldn't find the store (which was about 30 steps away).

anyway, i just dropped them off and headed home. sweet. quick. home.

today i went to pick them up. i got a speeding ticket on the way down (thankfully i'll be selling my car before i move in august) so no more speeding tickets. everything was fine picking them up. they were waiting right where i told them, and they had only been waiting for like 3 mins. but when i was putting their stuff in the hatch, one sister decided to throw more into there, and i didn't see her, and whacked her in the head with the door. i felt soooooo bad. she was actually really good about it, the other sister was freaking out though, and saying she has a concussion and we should go to the hospital in case there is bleeding on the brain.

i finally got them in the car and we left. we ate lunch, and oddly, things were going well. then we crossed the border, and got cut off by someone who didn't shoulder check. i honked, because otherwise we would have been hit, but the same sister as before totally freaked. it was insane!!! i wanted to kick her out. no one was hurt, and the person didn't hit me, cause i'd honked. then, not about 10 blocks from my house, my other sister was like: turn this cd off! i can't stand it anymore! so i said, we're 5 mins from my house, and it's the hip, how bad can it be? and she continued to rant. so i turned the music off and was like, ummm okay, relax. so then she keeps spouting off about how it was making her crazy. i told her to stop, or it was going back on, but she just continued. we got to my house, and my only choice had been made. no more driving anywhere with my sisters. enough is enough!

and that's the seattle story. i did cross the border with 5 new underwear and a shirt and was passed through without paying duty. possibly the only good thing about this last week and the once dear to my heart, city of seattle.

so much for a short day

ugh. my feet and back are killing me. i was supposed to leave work at 2 today. maybe 3. instead, i just got home. i think it may be a movie night with some kind of faked dinner and popcorn.

short day, long jacket

today will be a short day at work. i was only scheduled for 5 hours, and i've spent the last while working at home. so, i'm only there 'til 2. if it's busy, i'll stay until 3, but if not, i'm going downtown.

i have a meeting at 4, and will spend some time looking at shoes, for the wedding. i really want somewhat comfy shoes, especially since my feet still hurt from last weekend, despite a lovely foot massage. i had dress shoes on (the day after danielle's birthday) because, despite remembering socks, i forgot sneakers. so i ran around the biggest ikea, looking for that green bedding that i was going on about, which they got, and so did i! but i hurt my feet in the process, which totally sucks. it's cause they need to be stretched.

anyway, i got the beautiful beautiful sheets, which will look fab on my new bed, once i buy it, which will be once i find a place and move. but it's very very exciting, since i'd been coveting them for forever.

wow. that's going around the block to say that i want comfy shoes.

also today, no matter how exhausted i am when i get home, i am determined to do house prep. i just need to buckle down, and think about england, oops, that's something else...i mean, think about how it will all be over soon. and once it's over i can do fun things like play poker and drink, and go out even on work nights. i guess i also have some work to do for the staff meeting tomorrow. but maybe i can do that on the bus!!! BRILLIANT!

oh yeah, the long jacket part is because it looks a bit chilly out today... brrr.

german meets english

oh gosh. i just re-read my blog and i spelled apples half-german half-english both times i wrote it. what a nerd! *lmao* i was like, huh, something's not right here. oy.

will work for food

this is ian's motto. it works out well for us, because often, like today, i need stuff done around my house that i'm not really interested in doing.

today ian fixed the fake drawers under the sink, and the loose handle in the bathroom. we played a game of crib, and i insisted we bet. since i beat greg yesterday, i thought i might be on a roll. i'm not. i was in the shit hole and he came up from behind and won. i wanted him to fix (fill and paint) the space where the shelf was by my microwave. i offered to make him apples in pyjamas. a german treat. anyway. i had to barter to get it done. i figure if i haven't done it this past year, i'm probably not going to get around to it in the next week. so all i have to do is make him dinner. i truly got the better deal. if anyone is interested, i am more than willing to cook/bake for your expertise. the apples in pyjamas were wicked. we also went to inspiration furniture again, and i now know what couch i want... when i move.

today i worked, so not i'm beat. it's looking like an early night, cause i'm going in tomorrow too. i was only supposed to work until 2, but i stayed until 4. cause i'm hardcore. and maybe a little dumb when it comes to work.

i can't wait to find a place and move. and then i won't be able to wait until i get settled. eek. i guess i should work on my patience ability.

this shit is bananas... b-a-n-a-n-a-s

this morning (for a lack of toast) i made banana muffins. so now my house, and probably myself, smell like bananas. i also priced some jewelry and found something for someone. that's all i'm saying. :o) it was also reading horoscopes and checking out funky jewelry online.

this afternoon was a quick trip to get superbalm from clinique. and drop yvonne off downtown. i stopped at cobs on the way home. cause i had some sandwich stuff, but no bread to put the stuff into.

last night, yvonne and i hung out... mario (played by yvonne) kicked ass last night at marioparty 2. it is the series she believes she excels at. and i schooled her at tetris.

chapped lips

my lips are soooo chapped that it looks like i'm wearing lipstick. i'm not.

also, today i made potato salad. german style. yummy!

tomorrow is a day off, so i will continue packing, and i will write the story of seattle. just in time, since i have to go back to pick up those very sisters on monday. oy. i'm also going to make "apples in pyjamas" another german treat. and possibly banana muffins because i have been cultivating the bananas to do so.

i will not be selling my house on saturday. i am way too stressed out, and i didn't get the days off that i needed to prepare. so i'm not going to do it this weekend. instead, i will do it next weekend. thank god. i am seriously beat. i need to have a vacation!!! ha ha. and quit my job. and move. etc.

condo for sale

today is the day that i list my house. angela nad i will be doing up the contract and all that stuff later. i got three emails with 2 bedrooms for sale. and i didn't want to even see any of this. this is somewhat troublesome, since i'm going to need a place to live soonish.

things to do before saturday:
buy flowers
finish de-junking
donate magazines
donate computer
fix fake drawer under sink

so the seattle story's going to have to wait until this evening, because i am already late begining my day. and i'd like to have some toast before i leave.

road rage

today i had to drive my sisters to sea-tac. oh lord. there is a story here. anyway... stay tuned, once i get this ad done, i'll let you in on the secret.

parties

last night was danielle's birthday party. we went to kelly o'brian's in the scurve and had dinner and drinks. then it was back to her house for games and sundaes. oh! that means i have m&ms in my bag still. yahoo!

today i went to a consignment store with anghold. it mostly sucked. and then we played mario party. she was peaches. and she won. in fact, she slaughtered.

my sisters are coming this evening. one is already here. the other is...*she just called* on her way. the next 18 hours are going to be stressful, wish me luck.

i'm already tired, so maybe i should start getting ready for that little thing called bed.

pack it up, pack it in

today i started to pack up some of my clutter. thank you very very much to jules and dalia. it was fun to hang out with them, and they super helped out!

tonight is danielle's birthday party. must remember swimsuit. i probably should have got some more waxing done today, but i didn't have time, and really, every boy there already has a girlfriend. so, check out my hairy thighs, and don't get lost in the forest.

what will i be wearing? well, i'm glad you're interested. it's pink shirt time, and red push-up bra. :o) to accompany this, i will wear either the silver wedges that hurt my feet (we won't be walking, thank god) or the black ones that i haven't stretched enough yet.

oh, and speaking of shoes! i need to see if there's a skechers store in seattle. i'll need some kind of therapy after being with my sisters for more than 15 mins. and retail therapy works well.

ind(ian)

tonight i had dinner with ian. i haven't really seen/talked to ian very much lately, so it was nice. we had indian. at the oven. delicious as always. horribly, my appetite isn't totally back, so i couldn't eat much. but i did manage to finish my lassie. oh mango lassies!

it was a little bit weird to hang out with him again. but things settled down. we did some lake tahoe planning. which is 100% exciting. there's still space in the car if someone else is interested.

i ended up spending more time at work than i thought i would today, but it was good. got through some stuff. which is really good. tomorrow are interviews in the morning, so i've got to go in early. and next week, vanessa comes back. so that will be fun! i'm looking forward to buying that quilted pink chanel knockoff. that i've had my eye on!

also, i have a weird bruise on my forearm. it's about two inches up from my wrist, on the outside of my arm. if you know anything about this, please contact me.

oh, and if anyone knows someone who'd be interested in doing some traveling, could you please have them contact me. i would like the person to be: funny, not a total pig, and a great kisser... oh wait, that's my personals ad. i would like them to be funny, not a total pig and somewhat responsible. they should have an interest in traveling with a girl like me.

back to life

back to reality.

today i am going into work. for a couple of hours (like, literally 2) . i did go in for an hour on monday, but i was still super out of it. today will be doing real work. so i'd better book it.

also, i need a haircut.

new knife = exciting times

today i tried my new knife. the one i bought at linen 'n' things when we were getting dalia's birthday present (the sexy red pots/pans and knife set). if you've ever tried cooking at my house you will know that for a long time i only had one knife. then ian bought me (out of frustration) a knife at save on. so then i had two. i did buy a knife block from ikea, but that was basically a donation to the corporation. anyway, i practically orgasmed when i used my knife... this may sound creepy, but i don't care... i have no boys in my life right now, so the knife's mad cutting skills will have to be what impresses me. and impress me they do! it's very exciting. so smooth, so sharp! yahoo!

also today, i am feeling much much better. so i did some work, i did eat some pizza, and some salad. and two popsicles. yoshi won at mario party.

oh, and yvonne and i picked up her friend, hillary, from the airport. while we were waiting, we went to 7-11 and i almost exploded with excitement. i wanted everything, but settled on grape juice, and 5 - 5¢ candies. mostly licorice ones, so as not to totally f up my stomach again. and i bought a scratch ticket, because it looked good. it wasn't. but it looked good.

pizza

i am soooo desperate for pizza. i have not had real food (more than 2 pieces of toast) since friday. but i think today's the day. pizza. and peach squashing, what could be better? very little.

down with peaches

okay, for the second time in my life, i was so bored last night, i played a game of supermario party by myself. it's not so party when you're doing it alone. anyway, i was well ahead until the last couple of turns when peaches stole one of my stars, and tonnes of coins. that was right after mario stole a star. i think you should get a bonus star if you've had the most stars in a game.

also, i hate peaches so much, that i've been avoiding the peach mango popsicles in my freezer.

down with peaches. up with yoshi!

wade

wade called me today! this is nice because it's always fun to hear from him, and since i haven't left my house, it's nice to have some kind of contact.

his girlfriend moved out today. it's sad, but she was controlled by her parents anyway, so he's better off without her. if i'm going to move to california, i'd say now's pretty much my chance. i would (as rachel and i have discussed) probably become an alcoholic. but i guess things could be worse!

wade was on his way to retail therapy. when we were there, he was talking about these gucci sunglasses so we had to try them on at neiman marcus. they looked great. today he went to nordstrom to pick them up. if only there were a furla store nearby. he could have picked up a bag for me. :oD

anyway, wade could have solved the problem of where to go for a roadtrip. it's looking like lake tahoe. possibly in july/august. anyone interested? it'll be a wicked trip. and it's closer and way less trashy than vegas.

yay!

my friend sean just msg'd me. he is going to try to come to vancouver in may. he's going to alaska and will try to make his flight through vancouver.

also mentioned, was planning a road trip this summer. he said he has lots of vacation time, and i just have to tell him when and where! yahoo. now i have something to plan for!

scottish medicine

so, i'm starting to feel better. i had toast today.

and i've been watching curling. because the scottish team is playing, and i really enjoy them discussing their moves. it's the hottest curling i've seen in a while. thank you CBC. also, except for one guy, their whole team is super-cute! they may not be winning, but they're adorable.

maybe that's too much excitement for me. time to rest.

mario wins

hmph. thanks to yvonne, who kindly braved the den of disease (who wants to make out) to make me broth and bring me popsicles. popsicles are juice. frozen. they're allowed. also thank to yvonne, mario won tonight. jerk. :oD the good news is peaches had to run off with wario. heh heh! last place peaches!!!

maybe tomorrow i can have toast... that would be exciting.

sick day 5 billion

so, i went to the doctor's today. apparantly it's a good thing i've been keeping up my fluids because otherwise they give you an IV for what ails me (haemorrhoids-i like how the kiwis spell it). anyway, i'm on T3s (the stupid walk-in clinic has stock in tylenol, i think) and a strick diet of grape juice, and salty broths... oh and 7 up. soon i will graduate to toast, applesauce and rice. i am not allowed to use heavy machinery ("don't drive a car or lawnmower, cause the T3s will make you drowsy"). and absolutely NO dairy. what else? ummm... i can't remember... i think the rhoids are affecting my memory. oh, i bought popsicles, and i should have gone with something familiar... these ones suck.

off to lay down.

and p.s.

i agree with yvonne, sick days and birthdays should not happen together, unless you're playing hooky because of a birthday.

happy birthday danielle!

if possible

i feel way worse today than yesterday. i thought i was getting cured yesterday. it may be time to see a doctor.

i am so sick

how can one person be so prone to disease? beats me.

i woke up this morning super confused. when i saw the time, i thought the microwave had gone forward by itself, because it seemed too late. but then i turned on my computer, and now i think my computer did, but my microwave didn't.

yesterday was worse. maybe i'm getting better. i tried to go to work but had this moment where i was sitting down, but could feel myself passing out. i went home after that.

thank you for medicine and popsicles yvonne.

i need to lay down.

the pizza guy

the story i forgot

last week... oh, actually going on two weeks ago now, i picked up yvonne, and we were headed to get anghold to go bra shopping. we were turning left off commercial to her street when there was this guy crossing. and totally taking his time. like really really taking his time.

anyway, of course, i was running late, and his actions were pissing me off... i clearly have not been able to reach the point of realisation where i can truly accept that it is not other people's actions, but your own reactions that will prevent you from reaching nirvana and act accordingly, because i was in my car, and i made a somewhat growling noise/ughing noise of frustration followed with a yell of: guy!!! he totally looked at us, and i swear went slower, despite my: oh sure, go ahead smile. so, we picked up ang, and as i was turning onto commercial there he was again! and he recognised us! i believe i said/yelled: not this guy again! anyway, it was soooooo f'ing funny. yvonne and i were in stitches. i felt like i'd done some major crunches.

yoshi wins again!

i was supposed to work tonight, but things got changed around (thank you jeebus, cause i'm getting sick). so tonight, d and i went for dinner and then played mario party. oh and the crowning moment? watching the edge of reason... where we mooned over mark darcy and loved/hated daniel cleaver.

things got so messed at work, i didn't end up getting a break, so by the time danielle got to the store i was starving. oh how i love soy burgers.

anyway, early night for me i guess, nyquil and bed. oh sweet bed. also, i would like a massage, and am willing to barter for this service.

search words: furla bag shopping

someone came to my blog because of these words! whoever you are, let's go shopping!!!

i'm tired today. and i'm getting sick. i couldn't fall asleep last night. i should have gone to bed at 8, like i was going to, but i thought i should stick it out until a decent time, so i would get up normally. ugh.

i think i want a job where it doesn't matter if i come in or not. well, maybe that would make me feel useless, but at least i would have sick days. or mental health days.

today is work and then the gem show in abbotsford.