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sometimes i think life is like a pro-con list. it can be a really hard choice in deciding if things are going well, badly, or if's just kind of even. you know, sometimes i feel like i truly am a lucky person, but on the other hand, there are these huge periods of pure pain and suffering.

yesterday the application for gerry to become a permanent resident was sent back. there was no real information with it, just one number that only works from canada, and three others that are no longer in service. not that helpful when trying to call from any where not within canada... i mean, like what did they think, only people living in canada want to be there? the london office was closed, so i had to wait to get even less information from the automated answering service. then i called the embassy in dublin...they don't do visas, etc. there, but the woman (who i *finally got after playing the 'guess what button to press to actually speak to a person' game) told me that despite everything online saying to send everything to london, that somewhere there is one comment that says except if you're applying for common-law sponsorship; then you have to send it to mississauga. and no, she can't give me a number to call, but she can give me an email address, and someone will probably get back to me within 48 hours.

let me tell you this. if i hear another person in canada talk about immigrants, and blah blah blah i will freak out at them worse than ever before. if you can manage to get into canada... work away.

so, as it takes at least 1 month to get your application even looked at, our return home has become very much delayed.

after some (lots) of discussion, gerry and i have decided that if we can't be in canada by october, we will be waiting until after christmas (*breathe*) to go. am i upset? very. in fact, very very very. i'm heartbroken. is it the best decision for me? who knows. but as a unit, this is the decision. mind you, if all this gets sorted in two months, you'd better believe i will be booking flights to catch the last of the summer rays.

taking all this into account and because my work screwed me on my vacation, i've given my notice and will now be looking for work somewhere else. i have no idea what i will do next, but as of june 1, i will not be working where i do now. i have given a letter to my supervisor, who i can pretty much guarantee will be shocked. once she reads it, probably tomorrow morning, things might change; i may leave sooner, but as far as i know, they like me there so i might not be pushed out the door.

so, a lot of changes, plans and life stuff.

but on the pro side of all this is that this morning, when i came into work and checked www.canucks.com i covered my eyes with my hands, and said: please please please. it worked! canucks are in round 2! whoot! maybe i can try that move on other things!