day 2

remember last year, around this time? i believe the words spoken were: i will never do a cleanse again! sometimes things change, but the sentiment is the same.

about 3 hours into it, i decided i didn't want to do the cleanse anymore. having just returned from canada, i stock-piled on loads of tasty canadian treats: reese's peanut butter cups, nibs, o'henrys, plain marshmallows for rice krispie squares, etc. gerry's a smart man, he put everything away before i woke up.

why did i think i would be strong enough to do a cleanse again, especially when i knew how sick i got last time? well, since coming to ireland i've eaten more chocolate and crap than... hmmm... possibly ever before, and i knew that i needed to do something about it. working at rci killed any thing remotely like healthy eating, even the fruit tasted nasty. blah blah blah. before going to canada, gerry and i decided that it would be wise to get back on track. the idea isn't to cut out all fun things, but to view them more as a treat, which means moderation. good idea, right? the plan was to start once we got back to ireland, cause i wanted to pig out in canada, and get some naturopathic advice from rachel, cause of my headaches, and i didn't want to get anemic again, or make it worse. we started off on a good foot, with good intentions.

here's the problem: i am fully addicted to chocolate now. oh wait, did i mention i have my period now? right. well.

yesterday (i'm still not awake enough today) i was (the only word to use) desperate for chocolate. i hated the cleanse, people associated with it, and heck, even foods associated with it. it wasn't pretty.

what i've learned: don't start a cleanse during pms as it won't be fun for anyone.

things were fine after a while. we had a great lunch and dinner, and gerry even kinda liked the bragg's marinated tofu. yay. i'm not sure if i can get him turned around on the buckwheat porridge, but he sounded a bit positive once he tried it. rice pudding is a no for him, but a total go for me. i've got to pick up some applesauce and juice today. oh and firelogs. who knows if the heater can be fixed when the landlord comes over.