Expect the Worst, Hope for the Best

Yesterday and the day before I had a tiny bit of spotting. Of course it was a niggling, cause when you've tried to get pregnant for a gazillion years, that's what happens. Truthfully, I wasn't too worried, because, according to the Google Answer Machine, this is decently common. Today I've started spotting more. Now I am less not-worried/disappointed/sad.

Gluten-Free brown rice Rice Krispie Squares

Did you know that these are now called Rice Krispie Treats? Also! The recipe has changed! Since it's been a while since I made what is truly a specialty of mine, I thought I'd double-check the website. *sigh* they don't even add vanilla? What has the world come to?!

You can tell these aren't the regular Rice Krispies, but they aren't far enough off that it will either matter or taste weird. You can still give them to people you like. I promise.

I melt about 1/4 of butter, then a bag of marshmallows, add about a teaspoon of vanilla to the melty mix, and then pour in Rice Krispies until it's at the ratio you like. I prefer gooey over crisp, so I stop with the cereal when it still looks like there's a tiny bit too much on the marshmallow side. Because it's not.

Transfer to a buttered (lightly) square/rectangular or whatever shape you like, dish, cool, cut, enjoy!

Yay!

I finally get to leave the house. We're going to go to TJ's and Black Pearl.

In other news - measuring your pee sucks.

Gluten-Free Sophie's Cosmic Cafe

Whoo hoo!

Sure, I wanted Eggs Benny at Sophie's today, but I do love me some omelette, so it wasn't a great sadness to order & eat that business.

When I said no to the amazing & delicious Sophie's bread, our waitress offered me some GF toast instead. Yes, please!

I'm pretty sure it's just your standard loaf of Udi's, so it didn't blow my mind, but having the option did. And they had raspberry jam already at my table, which rocked. Love you, Sophie's!

No Unibrows, Please

Hopefully, in just over 37 weeks, we'll be able to say that this is it's first picture.

W00t!

Transfer Day

7 years ago today, my mom passed away. Today, we're doing the egg transfer.

Egg Out

They retrieved 33 (!) eggs today. Should be a couple of good ones in there. :o)

Will know the final count of good ones tomorrow. In the meantime, I need to take tomorrow and Tuesday off work and there's to be no working out for a month. Boo hiss.

Go time!

Sitting in the recliner, heating blanket & wooly socks on, waiting to get de-egged. A nurse mentioned hatching, and I loved it!

Day 10

Best IVF video EVER! Turns out I've got some OHSS going on. We're going to do the egg retrieval tomorrow morning, and hopefully plop a couple of eggs in on Wednesday or Friday. W00t!

I'm a bad person

How wrong is it that as a guy waked by in a backwards leather beret, I thought: ugh, he shouldn't have children. In my defence, he also had a horrid gotee & and leather jacket.

Day 6

G gets gold stars for making me lunch, bringing me a hot water bottle, an extra blanket & a kitten.

I get a NI for taking too much medication today. Honestly, I am so tired, I'm surprised that's the worst thing that's happened.

In other news, have I mentioned the boulders in my belly? And the freakish amount of mucus? And the sharp shooting pain? Consider them mentioned.

Day 5

Aliens, of Aliens fame have invaded my body. Or else I'm becoming the queen Alien. I am brewing eggs like they're going out of style. They may take over my body like worms & then I'll explode.

Ultrasound and more blood work tomorrow.

Day 3 Later

The rage is building.

Salt

Could I just put salt on my tongue? Is that gross?

TJ's Polenta

Last night we finally broke into the Trader Joe's Creamy Polenta. It's a handily prepared, frozen meal that's gluten-free. It was pretty close to as easy at it gets. You just dump it into a skillet/pan, heat up and it's ready to go. It was decently tasty. You could tell it wasn't homemade, but considering that wasn't going to happen, we pulled through. The texture was good, and it wasn't overwhelmingly creamy sauced. Also - there were peas in it! And I like peas. I would buy this again.

Day 3

This morning it feels like my ovaries are being wish-boned from my uterus.

I could still happily lay in bed all day and have the occasional weep-fest, but I'm way too full of hunger for that kind of business. That and I'm helping G run cables today. I wonder how that's going to go.

Day 2

You know how there's a side-effect called, 'general malaise'. I have that.

The injections are going well. It's the sharp cramping, bloating and 'sensitivity' that's difficult.

Went to bed early last night, but didn't have a great sleep. It's gonna be hard dragging my butt to Pilates this morning.

Rage level: so far, low. Could definitely lie in bed and cry my face off though.

Day 1 - later

Honeymoon's over. Starting to feel 'full' and full of grumpiness. Is it PMS, or side-effects?

Rage level: beginning to feel the brewing of irritation.

Flax 4 Life Muffins

You can get these muffins at some Whole Foods, but we get ours at Fred Meyer in 'Merica. They are gluten-free (obviously) but have some good flavours. Our favourite is the chocolate chip; you feel like you're having a bit of a treat. Warning: they do have a load of calories, so don't be thinking you're going to have this and then a second breakfast. Since they are jam-packed with flax (as the name suggests) and you'll be so full, you probably won't even entertain those second breakfast thoughts anyway. Despite the high calories, I would definitely recommend chomping on these muffins. Microwave them for 25-30 secs, and feel free to store them in the freezer. 2nd Warning: these will regulate the shit out of well, your shit. Say goodbye to any fibre issues you may have had. That's a good thing though, right?

Day 1

This morning was our first injection in preparation for IVF. Gerry had put the menopur in the fridge last night, so it was a bit cold and stingy going in, and I ended up breaking one of the Q caps. In the past, this probably would have thrown me off. Not so much now. I just googled if it's okay to have kept it in the fridge, consensus seems to be it's fine, and I'll just get another Q cap later. Meh, no biggy. For the record, and because I may hate him by the end of this week and may need the reminder, Gerry's been lovely & supportive. We're both excited, not just because the odds are slightly in our favour this time, but because we're going to either be doing this, or closing this door, so that we can jump out the open window. Day 1: So far, so good. Rage level: none