it's really starting. and it's really sucking, this having to say goodbye stuff. i knew when i moved to the rock that i wouldn't see my friends as much because it's less convenient, and being super busy isn't all that great for making hanging out time.
yesterday i said bye to ang and had a discussion with ian about me leaving and how things would be changing in our friendship... it totally sucked. tonight i said bye to yvonne and lola. again sucked. again cried.
wow. i know i'm ready to go... or rather that i need to go. but for some reason (de nile ain't just a river in egypt, i know) i didn't really expect it to be so emotionally draining. i mean, i figured by the time i left ontario i would be a basket case... way too many goodbyes at that point. but i didn't think it would hit me until then... i was wrong. i am so sad to leave, despite it being my choice, and thinking that it's for the best. it's just that it's been a totally crazy year, and my friends, who i am now leaving, have been there for me through it.
in two sleeps i leave. and i'm sad. excited for what's to come, but sad at what i'm choosing to leave behind, and at what i risk losing.
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