Yesterday we met with our fertility specialist.
Basically it went like this (please note, I am paraphrasing portions):
Me: we had planned for this most recent try to be our last time, but I feel cheated from the first go because of the ovarian hyper stimulation, so I don't feel like my body was at 100% effort. When I talked to the nurse, she said there was a problem with my lining, and we should have a meeting with you.
MD: You're crazy to stop. You have amazing embryos. We just need to get the lining under control. Also - have you considered a surrogate?
Us: But it's tough emotionally for us.
MD: You have fantastic eggs. Don't stop. Let's do this plan... (blah, blah, blah & details).
Me: I'm no quitter, and I'm a sucker for punishment! Let's get on the hell-ride of a roller coaster again!
G: Uh oh.
*later*
Me: G, I feel guilty about reneging on our 'last try' promise, but I also feel guilty about not giving you babies. I think my guilt about no babies is more than going back on my promise, so that's that.
G: I don't resent you. Believe me.
Me: Trust no one!
*even later*
Me: You don't think we'll ever buy a boat, do you?
G: Not now.
Me: Well, I have a plan. Let's sell the house, buy a different house, buy a boat, take the extra time to fix it up, and then next summer year, we'll leave on our adventure.
G: (Oh no, what do I do? That's a great idea, but my automatic response is to dismiss her suggestions.) (With a smile) That might work!
And joy abounds.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Traveling Green
This is a pretty exciting find!
As someone who's been traveling and mostly staying in hotels this last week, it's been interesting to note how few hotels in California have a separate bin for recycling in rooms, and generally how much waste is created with disposable items.
Now there's this: http://www.greenkeyglobal.com/default.asp
You can search the site to find hotels that have committed to not be jerks and want to do more than just put a sign up asking you to not use a billion towels.
Whoo hoo!
As someone who's been traveling and mostly staying in hotels this last week, it's been interesting to note how few hotels in California have a separate bin for recycling in rooms, and generally how much waste is created with disposable items.
Now there's this: http://www.greenkeyglobal.com/default.asp
You can search the site to find hotels that have committed to not be jerks and want to do more than just put a sign up asking you to not use a billion towels.
Whoo hoo!
Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Can't sleep
Today's the big testing day, so my body wanted to be up in time to get to my blood work appointment 4 hours later.
Did a pee test this morning - it's a negative. Logged on to Facebook and the first fecking picture I see is an ultrasound of a baby.
Must give up my Facebook account, I think.
Did a pee test this morning - it's a negative. Logged on to Facebook and the first fecking picture I see is an ultrasound of a baby.
Must give up my Facebook account, I think.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Day 9 of 12 Day Wait
Have been having some spotting for the last few days. I've been kind of panicky and a bit nervous, but of course, trying to stay positive.
But, thanks to Google and the Internets, I'm feeling a lot better now. It seems almost everyone doing the endometrin suppositories has pink on their plasticky thing and some spotting to go with it.
But, thanks to Google and the Internets, I'm feeling a lot better now. It seems almost everyone doing the endometrin suppositories has pink on their plasticky thing and some spotting to go with it.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Here we go!
Round 2 - it's like a season finale over here!
We're going in for our last go at getting knocked up tomorrow. Here's hoping it works. I think they're going to plop two embryos in, we'll hang out for a bit, we'll probably have some dosa, I'll head to work, and then we wait 10 days or so.
It's awesome that the time is finally here, but a bit scary too. I mean, c'mon - we've agreed that this is our last go, so after this, our lives will be greatly influenced by either being pregnant, or not.
We have plans for either scenario, which I feel good about. It's good to have a plan!
So yeah - crazy/nerve racking/exciting but I think the exciting wins for now.
We're going in for our last go at getting knocked up tomorrow. Here's hoping it works. I think they're going to plop two embryos in, we'll hang out for a bit, we'll probably have some dosa, I'll head to work, and then we wait 10 days or so.
It's awesome that the time is finally here, but a bit scary too. I mean, c'mon - we've agreed that this is our last go, so after this, our lives will be greatly influenced by either being pregnant, or not.
We have plans for either scenario, which I feel good about. It's good to have a plan!
So yeah - crazy/nerve racking/exciting but I think the exciting wins for now.
Monday, March 18, 2013
Round 2 - Begins!
Once you have frozen embryos, the process is a bit different.
I've been on estrogen since Day 1 - Period Day 1, that is. The first week is 2 x day, the second week 3 x day. It's easy, because it's just pill, so you can take it anywhere; it's hard, because you're supposed to take it at the same times. It's been over two weeks, and I'm still surprised when the alarm goes off! While Estrace is no Puregon and whatever else I took to brew my millions of eggs, it still totally messes with you: weight gain, emotional sensitivity, and because of my psoriatic arthritis, increased joint pain. I will not miss taking this Estrace, but I think I stay on it for 10 weeks, if this works out.
Anyway, the timeline is this: tomorrow, I go in for my first ultrasound. They'll decide if the lining is good to go. I start Endometrin, after the ultrasound, and also take that for a million weeks. If the lining's not great, we'll do Monday next week.
So, 16 or 17 days from now we'll know if I can do some baby clothes shopping in California, or if I'll be drinking my face off, eating soft cheeses, and going in the hot tub every night.
Wish us luck!
I've been on estrogen since Day 1 - Period Day 1, that is. The first week is 2 x day, the second week 3 x day. It's easy, because it's just pill, so you can take it anywhere; it's hard, because you're supposed to take it at the same times. It's been over two weeks, and I'm still surprised when the alarm goes off! While Estrace is no Puregon and whatever else I took to brew my millions of eggs, it still totally messes with you: weight gain, emotional sensitivity, and because of my psoriatic arthritis, increased joint pain. I will not miss taking this Estrace, but I think I stay on it for 10 weeks, if this works out.
Anyway, the timeline is this: tomorrow, I go in for my first ultrasound. They'll decide if the lining is good to go. I start Endometrin, after the ultrasound, and also take that for a million weeks. If the lining's not great, we'll do Monday next week.
So, 16 or 17 days from now we'll know if I can do some baby clothes shopping in California, or if I'll be drinking my face off, eating soft cheeses, and going in the hot tub every night.
Wish us luck!
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Bistro 72, Surrey
Had an amazing meal this evening at Bistro 72.
They accommodated my celiac ness, as well as my vegetarianism, and fungi-freeness as well, with grace & special meal making.
We had way too much food: nachos, beet salad, fries, roasted pepper, chips, and chocolate pâté. A few delicious drinks, and notable service, and we are happy diners!
Yay!
They accommodated my celiac ness, as well as my vegetarianism, and fungi-freeness as well, with grace & special meal making.
We had way too much food: nachos, beet salad, fries, roasted pepper, chips, and chocolate pâté. A few delicious drinks, and notable service, and we are happy diners!
Yay!
Friday, February 22, 2013
Plan-et
See what I did there? It's a pun. Cause we're starting to plan it. Nailed it!
In keeping our options open, G & I have started looking at boats. He's getting The Spice Necklace, or whatever the follow-up to, An Embarrassment of Mangoes, is called.
We may just end up traveling the world, with our cats in life jackets, and with me learning to eat fish, or at the very least, meat of some sort.
I'd have a tan! And sea-sickness, but word on the street, or ocean, as it were, is you get over that, and, as mentioned previously, I would also have highlights.
Bliss.
In keeping our options open, G & I have started looking at boats. He's getting The Spice Necklace, or whatever the follow-up to, An Embarrassment of Mangoes, is called.
We may just end up traveling the world, with our cats in life jackets, and with me learning to eat fish, or at the very least, meat of some sort.
I'd have a tan! And sea-sickness, but word on the street, or ocean, as it were, is you get over that, and, as mentioned previously, I would also have highlights.
Bliss.
Belle's
Holy gluten-free tasty awesome, probably super high fat, but I don't care, so please don't tell me that kind of shiz, deliciousness in the form of edible treats!
Where's this you ask? The corner of 140th and 32nd Ave in South Surrey.
This girl ain't lying!
Where's this you ask? The corner of 140th and 32nd Ave in South Surrey.
This girl ain't lying!
Thursday, February 14, 2013
I Think I Get It
I think today I finally understood why people spend bazillions of dollars on trying to get pregnant. Another friend (so five this year & six, two years ago) is pregnant. We are, of course, beyond delighted for them, and once again, feeling lots of self pity for ourselves. I am unfortunately & have been told illogically, overwhelmed with guilt.
And that's when it hit me. We have loads of embryos, why don't we just keep trying until we get pregnant, or run out?
I know I've said I'd never do the whole brewing eggs business again, since I still haven't recovered and it was super horrible and shitty and basically an f'ing nightmare, but... BUT... It's not going to be too bad to plop the eggs back in. I just have to take some drugs, endometrin & progesterone, and then spread'em wide... Okay, the whole 'through the cervix' thing sucks, there is that. But overall, not so bad.
And that folks, is why you set limits. And maybe decide to break them. Here's hoping we don't have to.
And that's when it hit me. We have loads of embryos, why don't we just keep trying until we get pregnant, or run out?
I know I've said I'd never do the whole brewing eggs business again, since I still haven't recovered and it was super horrible and shitty and basically an f'ing nightmare, but... BUT... It's not going to be too bad to plop the eggs back in. I just have to take some drugs, endometrin & progesterone, and then spread'em wide... Okay, the whole 'through the cervix' thing sucks, there is that. But overall, not so bad.
And that folks, is why you set limits. And maybe decide to break them. Here's hoping we don't have to.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Friday, January 25, 2013
Expect the Worst, Hope for the Best
Yesterday and the day before I had a tiny bit of spotting. Of course it was a niggling, cause when you've tried to get pregnant for a gazillion years, that's what happens. Truthfully, I wasn't too worried, because, according to the Google Answer Machine, this is decently common.
Today I've started spotting more. Now I am less not-worried/disappointed/sad.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Gluten-Free brown rice Rice Krispie Squares
Did you know that these are now called Rice Krispie Treats? Also! The recipe has changed! Since it's been a while since I made what is truly a specialty of mine, I thought I'd double-check the website. *sigh* they don't even add vanilla? What has the world come to?!
You can tell these aren't the regular Rice Krispies, but they aren't far enough off that it will either matter or taste weird. You can still give them to people you like. I promise.
I melt about 1/4 of butter, then a bag of marshmallows, add about a teaspoon of vanilla to the melty mix, and then pour in Rice Krispies until it's at the ratio you like. I prefer gooey over crisp, so I stop with the cereal when it still looks like there's a tiny bit too much on the marshmallow side. Because it's not.
Transfer to a buttered (lightly) square/rectangular or whatever shape you like, dish, cool, cut, enjoy!
You can tell these aren't the regular Rice Krispies, but they aren't far enough off that it will either matter or taste weird. You can still give them to people you like. I promise.
I melt about 1/4 of butter, then a bag of marshmallows, add about a teaspoon of vanilla to the melty mix, and then pour in Rice Krispies until it's at the ratio you like. I prefer gooey over crisp, so I stop with the cereal when it still looks like there's a tiny bit too much on the marshmallow side. Because it's not.
Transfer to a buttered (lightly) square/rectangular or whatever shape you like, dish, cool, cut, enjoy!
Yay!
I finally get to leave the house. We're going to go to TJ's and Black Pearl.
In other news - measuring your pee sucks.
In other news - measuring your pee sucks.
Friday, January 18, 2013
Gluten-Free Sophie's Cosmic Cafe
Whoo hoo!
Sure, I wanted Eggs Benny at Sophie's today, but I do love me some omelette, so it wasn't a great sadness to order & eat that business.
When I said no to the amazing & delicious Sophie's bread, our waitress offered me some GF toast instead. Yes, please!
I'm pretty sure it's just your standard loaf of Udi's, so it didn't blow my mind, but having the option did. And they had raspberry jam already at my table, which rocked. Love you, Sophie's!
Sure, I wanted Eggs Benny at Sophie's today, but I do love me some omelette, so it wasn't a great sadness to order & eat that business.
When I said no to the amazing & delicious Sophie's bread, our waitress offered me some GF toast instead. Yes, please!
I'm pretty sure it's just your standard loaf of Udi's, so it didn't blow my mind, but having the option did. And they had raspberry jam already at my table, which rocked. Love you, Sophie's!
No Unibrows, Please
Hopefully, in just over 37 weeks, we'll be able to say that this is it's first picture.
W00t!
W00t!
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