Make it so.

Yesterday we met with our fertility specialist.

Basically it went like this (please note, I am paraphrasing portions):

Me: we had planned for this most recent try to be our last time, but I feel cheated from the first go because of the ovarian hyper stimulation, so I don't feel like my body was at 100% effort. When I talked to the nurse, she said there was a problem with my lining, and we should have a meeting with you.

MD: You're crazy to stop. You have amazing embryos. We just need to get the lining under control. Also - have you considered a surrogate?

Us: But it's tough emotionally for us.

MD: You have fantastic eggs. Don't stop. Let's do this plan... (blah, blah, blah & details).

Me: I'm no quitter, and I'm a sucker for punishment! Let's get on the hell-ride of a roller coaster again!

G: Uh oh.

*later*
Me: G, I feel guilty about reneging on our 'last try' promise, but I also feel guilty about not giving you babies. I think my guilt about no babies is more than going back on my promise, so that's that.

G: I don't resent you. Believe me.

Me: Trust no one!

*even later*
Me: You don't think we'll ever buy a boat, do you?
G: Not now.
Me: Well, I have a plan. Let's sell the house, buy a different house, buy a boat, take the extra time to fix it up, and then next summer year, we'll leave on our adventure.
G: (Oh no, what do I do? That's a great idea, but my automatic response is to dismiss her suggestions.) (With a smile) That might work!

And joy abounds.

Traveling Green

This is a pretty exciting find!

As someone who's been traveling and mostly staying in hotels this last week, it's been interesting to note how few hotels in California have a separate bin for recycling in rooms, and generally how much waste is created with disposable items.

Now there's this: http://www.greenkeyglobal.com/default.asp

You can search the site to find hotels that have committed to not be jerks and want to do more than just put a sign up asking you to not use a billion towels.

Whoo hoo!

Can't sleep

Today's the big testing day, so my body wanted to be up in time to get to my blood work appointment 4 hours later.

Did a pee test this morning - it's a negative. Logged on to Facebook and the first fecking picture I see is an ultrasound of a baby.

Must give up my Facebook account, I think.