cliff hanger

okay, so speedle *really* is dead. and that's fine. well, still surprising, despite jeffy's hints two months ago. they did show that super hot guy in the lab, the one that said he expects speedle to walk in at any moment. so maybe he'll have a bigger role now.

also exciting, and happening yesterday: i got my hair did (cut and colour). which *obviously* is very exciting for me. it took hours, and cost too much (as hair things tend to). but it's a bolder, blonder, redder ursula. i would have taken a picture to upload, but i can't upload from my computer, and i don't have a digital camera with which to take the picture. you'll just have to trust me.

it was sooo f'ing cold here last night. after i got my hair done (couldn't get it flattened, because it was raining and would just pouff) i was taking the bus home and my teeth were chattering. i totally crashed when i got home. i couldn't even finish wheel of fortune. i went to bed and slept. a lot.

i took down my flower lights today. my letter said i had until today to do so. i wanted to wait until the last minute. now i have to figure out some way to hang them that doesn't violate strata but are still visible. you know, to piss the one woman that complained off. :o)

OMG

speedle died! i can't believe. this is waaaaay more of a shock than sirius. well, the episode's not over yet. more later.

p.s. kenji, you didn't hint at anything!!!

oh boy...

yesterday, at work, a customer told the person at the cash register that she got a discount because she bought a lot of stuff (fyi, it was only like $100). so the girl gave her a discount. i was so pissed. i almost asked her if she was stupid, since it was the same girl that i had just told to ask me as many questions as needed. instead, i held it together and told her that that's one of the times she should have asked me what was going on.

i may have some firing to do.

toenail dream

not last night, but the night before...

i had a dream that i was making out with a boy and that he saw my toenails and was like: ew! your toenails are sick! they are sooooo long. and he was super grossed out.

it may have something to do with me meaning to cut my toenails for the past few days. it's not like they *were* super long, they just needed a trimming. especially since i prefer to keep them supershort... with almost no white showing. yesterday (which would be the evening after this dream) i cut my toenails.

now i should find this OPI nail polish colour so that i can do some "touch ups".

meow

le tigre show yesterday was fun. i'm sure that is was. thank you to yvonne who convinced me to go despite having yet another crappy feeling day. also, thank you to yvonne for drink number two and for bringing your friend who gladly drank most of my last drink when i was too drunk to keep drinking...but may have done so.

sober urs:
we went to jeff and heidi's where everyone sang happy birthday to me. there was a pre-le tigre dance party and toast talk. then we took the bus downtown... i got a free ride. whoo hoo!
the we walked to the commodore after jeff and others peed in an alley that jeff referred to as "a great place to pee".

we got to the commodore, got drinks, checked jackets/hoodies etc. and got drinks. we were right close for most of it.

drunk urs:
very soon into my first drink, i was buzzed. and realised that i should have eaten dinner. (yeah, if i had wanted to spend tonnes of $$ on drinks!) anyway, the first act was wicked. i have no idea what their name is. but they were from san fran. i totally remember that.

*drinking, dancing*

this girl asks me how she knows me. i have no idea. so then we figure out it's from sophie's my diner up the street. which is wicked. now i'll be friends with all of the waitresses there. she was generous and offered me pot.

i peed like a million times. anyway. everyone was dancing. and it was fun. also! one of the glow in the dark sticks from lesbians on ecstacy got tossed to someone in front of dalia who passed it to dalia who gave it to me. that was sooo wicked. thanks dal.

and then i had to pee in the boys washroom. cause i really had to go. i remember i had to sit on the seat because otherwise i would have fallen over. but i totally wiped it first. and everyone was wishing me happy birthday. janet was with me. thanks janet. also, thanks for letting me lean against your leg, and protecting me from the bouncer who asked if i was alright, cause i was passing out on the lobby floor, against said leg.

fries at fritz are good, but would be better with fried onions, not fresh.

oh, and i remember waiting for the bus for forever, and totally being scared that i was going to get a lung infection/pneumonia again. it was soooo cold and wet. and this guy who was 20 was chatting me up, and i was like, uh, i think i'm too old for you! and then i had to take a cab cause it was too cold. but i got a good deal. $7.

if you know of other things that happened, feel free to add in the comments section!

yay le tigre! meow.

and please check out kenji's blog! i'm going to put effort into supin' up my blog soon. and then i will have a friends list like everyone else.

also, i cleaned my bathroom yesterday, did dishes, did some general tidying and had my laundry done for me on monday. things are starting to get more civilised around here. and my civilised, i mean clean.

uh oh

yvonne has my mobuile. and i am in no ocndition to get it back. also i sprained my ankle. ouch.

it's my birthday!

yay!

so far i've been watching crime shows, and doing laundry. i'm going to eat some mac and cheese for lunch and then do some more cleaning. this may *not* sound like fun birthday stuff, but i'm already feeling better about getting things cleaner.

things to do today include:
scrubbing my tile floors
cleaning the bathroom
getting rid of the jewelry mess that is controlling my house
cleaning my desk
recycling

then i will go to the le tigre concert. whoo hoo!

blogged

so i totally had a decent blog written for today already, but stupid blogger erased it. sucky!

basically it said thanks to everyone that came out last night. and talked about my groovy presents, despite it not being my real real birthday. i'm sure it said more... cause it WAS longer, but i guess the recap is for the time-challenged. oh! fuck that! here goes: sala thai was delish! yum yum! curry and pad thai... yeah! and then dancing was fun. it was cold waiting in line, so i promise to do the guest list for forever now. the music was sucky BUT it was good times... probably because i was drunk, but that's neither here nor there. so far, i've received a massage, some crime tapes, a toque (that fits, and has an orange star on it), an NES game (lolo), six vintage mugs (one of which says YOURS YOURS YOURS YOURS or YO URS YO URS YO URS YO URS that i think is the greatest, and don't think others should be allowed to use), some baileys, hot chocolate, a rolly cart and a new garbage can (the old one to be thrown away tomorrow).

now all i need is for my amazon order to get delivered on tuesday, and for stu to *need* a glass of water, and have to come in! ha ha! i didn't order any pizza!

today i went to hope. it was a hard visit because my mom's losing her optimism. we talked about the doctor's most recent comments... and then i pretended like i really think that everything will work out fine. when she first went in, a few weeks ago, the cancer had spread to her other hip and to her first vertibrae. now it's spreading through her spine. if you touch her back, you can feel the lumps. so, on wednesday, she's going to get radiation which is supposed to also help with the pain, and then start a chemo program that will be a combination of two treatments that she has tried before. on friday, the doctor officially said that this is probably her last christmas. in which case, i think i should stop feeling bad about sneaking her in dq vanilla (without the sauce!) milkshakes. next time i'm going to get the biggest one!

tomorrow i'm going out for lunch and martinis with my boss, and then for dinner with ian. it's been a while since i drank at lunch, but it *is* my birthday fortnight. :oD tuesday is le tigre. yay!

shop lifting

oh, and by the way, i shoplifted today. or rather this evening. i hope my pic doesn't go up on security cameras all over the store.

d and i were looking for a red kitchAid blender. there were only white and black, so then we went to the bay. and i molested some kitchen products, which was fun. and then i saw those big lifesavers and thought they'd be great at the store, cause i always have bad breath after lunch... and it's soooo dry in there. so i grabbed some. and we were still looking around and then an announcement came on that only certain exits would be open after 9.30 so we decided to take off. the woman let us out. when we got outside, i was looking for my keys and remembered them, so i went back in, but the bay door was locked. i held up the lifesavers and shouted: i STOLE these! the woman at the MAC counter did not care. she didn't know how to open the door, and couldn't be bothered to, so she said, whatever.... just take them.

so i did. i will try to remember to pay for them tomorrow. and if i forget, then it will be one more thing i got for free.

one last sleep

'til party time. be there or be square.

i'll be at work until at least 5.30. but i am going to try to duck out a bit early... don't tell anyone.

i'm so tired right now, i should just go to bed. thanks to d for retail therapy and the spa day....ooooh massage!!! and thanks to toren for hooking up adventures of lolo. my mom was thrilled.

decent

today was alright.

the store was fairly busy, but i still got other stuff done.

my lap dance class was fun... although to get technical, i'm going to stop calling it a lap dancing class, because i don't think that that is very accurate. we were humping the floor tonight, to be clear, there was no one under us, on the floor.

and i picked up lolo 1 from toren, which is wicked, thank you. my mom's gonna be super-stoked. whoo hoo.

now i'm going to have a shower and then chillax and watch some law and order while eating popcorn. super saweet.

not decent, is the amount of laundry i have left to do. i think i may drop off some off the towels and bedding at the laundry mat. just so i can stop thinking about it. huh... now there's an idea!

also decent is that i got paid for the computer work at hope unlimited and that means i can shop for a new kitchenAid blender. that is soooo f'ing exciting. i'm TOTALLY going to get one on friday... or on my day off. i wonder if sears is having a sale? because then i could get red!!!

oh! and i totally forgot to mention that i got hit on at the store last night. and v. importantly: 3 sleeps til party time. whoo hoooooooo!

stu's back!

and in FINE form!

imagine my delight when i got home from work this evening and there was a package waiting for me at my door! i was soooo excited.

1. because i choose to consider this a wicked birthday present. although kenji tapes and sends all of the law & order and CSI shows to me throughout the year (and i adore them even more for it!) this package has come during my birthday week, so i am extra excited for it. thank you thank you thank you.

2. because this means that stu, my favourite mailman, is still delivering to my door. i HATE going to the postoffice... cause i always miss it, and you have to wait at least one more day to get your package, the whole time you have this slip of paper that's a total teaser... your package is probably here, but you can't get it until 5pm tomorrow. suckah! well, that's been solved thanks to stu. whoo hoo! excellent delivery etiquette.

also newsworthy:

1. today we decided the "joy" soap at work is hot guy smell. it smells like tree. vera thinks that it smells like hot nelson boys. i think i should move! maybe i'll pass a bar on to stu.

2. the latest addiction/obsession is holding strong. triple berry smoothies from orange julius. ooooh baby. i think if i start packing a lunch i won't feel guilty about having one almost every day. but if i don't i should really reconsider this one. lap dancing class or not.

flowers for zoe

so, i'm totally trying to save up airmiles to buy stuff. so i took a quick look around myshops.ca to see what was going down. i bought a couple of books and then was easily drawn into the marthastewart site. ooooh how dangerous. at first i was going to drool over the bedding. instead i was lured into the flowers section. i've always been tempted (but prevented by price) by these beautiful arrangements. sooo lovely. and you can get one every month. which is exciting in itself. a consistent delivery of flowers for up to 1 year. also, if i see what's going on then i can create my own at a fraction of the cost.

anyway, because i was looking at this stuff at the time she called, i told yvonne about it. she suggested matt send them to me at work. at first i thought she meant stu, and i was confused, because his name is stu, not matt and stu delivers the mail not flowers. but yvonne meant my fake boyfriend. the one i use to get out of going to work on my days off. or for allowing myself an hour to get to work if i get called in to cover for someone and i'm still in bed. i adore matt, but he lives out of the city, so it takes a while to get to work. since i'm working fulltime now at guildford, i haven't used matt in a while. in fact, i'm worried lisa may be joining the ranks of: isn't ian your boyfriend? and: matt who? in any case, i think matt should send me martha flowers for a year. if only matt had a better job. until then, maybe the three month series will do. afterall, who knows how long this relationship will last...

not so egg-zellent

seriously. where have all of the free range eggs gone? i went to buy eggs for banana bread the other day, but there were only eggs born in captivity. and then today, in a totally different city, 150km away... different chain of super markets... still no free range. the guy said there hadn't been any in weeks. i guess i need to find a farm or something... something being not eat eggs. does this mean i should stop wearing my egg-zellent shirt? what is proper protocol? i need to work on a toast shirt. cobs always has bread. well, except for that one time that they only had the sesame seeds on the white block. hmmmm... i don't know about you, but i do NOT like where this is going.

what's troubling gus

tonight the hip are in vancity. tickets are $$$, and the concert's at gm place. so, ian and i are happy that we went in seattle. yay!

as i've mentioned a million times before, i'm having a rough month; normally november is a wick-ed month. for obvious reasons :o). everyone's gearing up for christmas and the stores look nice, and shopping is fun, and people are being nice (cause the pressure's not on yet). anyway, november this year has been kinda crap. today was a good day to add to the crap pile.

i decided to finally call my "friend" back today. she called me for the first time in months earlier last week, and i finally got a few minutes to see what she wanted. she asked me how i'm doing and what's been going on. so i filled her in on my work, having been sick, and my mom (cause she met her, and knew she was sick). i also mentioned that i was about to leave to see her in hope. it took me about 30 seconds. then i asked how she was, and how her internet boy was, etc. she then spent the next 1/2 hour (actually more) talking about how they have broken up, and whatever. and then she had to go to the washroom, so she called me back and kept going. then wanted to know about me doing a site for her and bringing in her stuff to the store. sooo annoying.

blah blah blah, then when i was at the hospital, getting ready to leave, cause i still had to meet up with my brother, my sister, heidi said: you know, you're really going to have to spend more time with mom. this made me both mad and sad. sad because i wish i could, and mad because i try to go to hope 3 times a week. my sister does not work and lives 10 mins away. i work cities away and live (during the speediest times) 1.5 hrs away. so i told her that i'm doing what i can and to fuck off. and left. to see my brother. blah blah blah. he got mad at me because i couldn't write him a cheque, and kicked my car, and then threw a stick at it.

ugh. is what i say to today... except for going to anton's with ian. it was my first time...and my second and third. the portions are huge, i'll have it for days! and except for my talk with yvonne... i promise, one time that we talk on the phone, i will not be complaining and crying.

oh, and last night was tonnes of fun for me. which was really nice. james, yvonne and i had a LATE dinner at wild garlic... then did some photo booth pics at the train station (which i used on my birthday invitations) and then had a wicked massage, so totally needed, thanks again! and sat around shooting it. a good evening. a late evening, but good.

ursula h: the edge of reason

just so you know. i give bridget jones 5 out of 5 stars. yay! so funny. we were totally talking at the movie, and clapping etc. good times to be had.

the art of selling

yesterday at work, our sales were sucking. it was brutal. but by the time we closed we were almost at stretch. i was feeling soooo bad about our sales, it was crazy. but you know how when one thing is crap, then everything feels really crap, and it just builds... well, that's what was going on with me. today, we were doing alright. then, for the last hour, i was left alone. and a woman came in and bought over $600 of jewelry. it was awesome. yahoo! she was decent to shop with too, so that was nice.

today i had breakkie in the coq. and i've learned my lesson. do NOT let ian choose the restaurant if he's recently heard an ad for denny's. seriously, we were in the restaurant for a number of minutes, and i hadn't clued in that we were at denny's until i saw the back of a waiter's shirt. i was like: i thought we were at white spot! my toast (like usual) was waaaay too buttered! you'd think that if you order a veggie omlet and multigrain toast, they'd go easy on the butter. but they don't. i had to sop it up with my napkin. then i worked, and bought cute skechers (they're black mary janes with pink insides). i hope they're comfy, cause i want to wear them at work. i just have to figure out what kind of socks i can wear with them. it's my second pair of shoes in a week.

i also had another triple berry smoothie today. they are my crack. and after sushi with gord, vera and ian, i had crac (caramel apple cider). i really only ate one yam roll, and a couple pieces of vegetable roll, but it tasted a bit weird. which TOTALLY sucks, cause i really like that place for sushi. maybe it's because we were there so close to closing. in any case. i was NOT impressed. when we got back to my place after a million detours (all mine, it's true) i made banana muffins. yay!

the plot thickens

so! this may be what is happening on the 20th... i will work. i will try to sneak out early. :oD the manager can do that. i may or may not straighten my hair and then it's party time! well... dinner first. i have no idea where i want to go, but it may be sala thai on burrard. also, i'm kinda thinking the caprice for dancing. for two reasons. i like the top 40 and the last time we went, good times were had.

oh, and today at work, i had to tell someone why they weren't chosen after doing a second interview with them. basically, i tried to lie at first, so i wouldn't hurt her feelings. but then she pushed me... i hope she doesn't hate me. urgh. i'm really not into the telling people bad things part of the job. yukky.

and i picked up my car from chilliwack. ooooh baby, things are sweet. turbo is fixed... and sorry to ian for not remembering the name of the pipe with the ball in it that controls something. the pipe having cracked, and needed replacement. anyway, that thing got fixed, and i've got a sweet ride again! whoo hoo! i kept speeding up on hills, just to make sure!

tomorrow is the first stripping class i signed up for with some ladies i know. i am so pmsy that i have to wait til tomorrow to see if i can go. but if i can, that will be the first lesson towards: one night only! ursula mountainview XXX... well, maybe not, but it could be the first lesson of fun and laughs. i'll keep you posted.

it looks like making banana muffins will have to get postponed. unless i get up super early tomorrow... we'll see.

nov. 8 - 15 days to go!

so, i *totally* forgot to mention something that happened during my fun day with d! when we were getting our nails done a woman came bursting in, and i swear she could have just had an accident and needed a doctor the way she was acting! she had chipped a nail. and clearly, she needed it fixed. it was so crazy. i thought she was going to break down.

yesterday was my day off. and i didn't go to hope. cause i went the night before. and i had to work all day. yes. it's true. we had a staff meeting last night, and i needed to do a lot of prep. i didn't get home until midnight. eek. but the meeting went well. and the jeopardy game i set up went really well... there were lots of great prizes. i got some free jewelry from the artists that presented at the meeting...and that is always nice!

today i dropped off my car to get the turbo fixed. my courtesy car is a jetta, in that awesome dark grey that i love, and it's diesel... which rarely happens in a loaner, has heated seats, so it feels like mine, and leather interior. the only bad thing is that it's automatic.

danielle planned a spa trip for us on friday. i have no idea what i'm getting. she's arranged it for me. i'm really excited... i feel like i should give danielle the money and then just pretend like i won it. now that would be sweet... to have won it... not to have to pretend. :o)

the most important day of the year

to me.

as probably all of you know: my birthday is a really big deal to me. you have been warned. there's been lots of shit going on lately so i wasn't sure what, if anything, i would plan for the *big day*. usually invitations would have already been sent out. i decided today that i want to go dancing, and it was a big thing, cause i can't focus enough to make a decision these days. i know i'm going to le tigre on the actual day of my birthday, but i wouldn't mind an optional dinner and mandatory dancing either the saturday before (20th) or the saturday after (27th). normally i pick a date and make everyone revolve around me (you're allowed to behave like this on *your* birthday) but this year, the countess of cute will listen to the people! :oD

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p.s. if you're a newer friend: i'm not kidding about it being very very important.

finicky

so, this is the first time since i last blogged that i could get blogger to work. weird. i'm going to update and catch you kids up.

tuesday
worked. it wasn't very exciting, except i think that that's the day a girl at work (that i was afraid was going to have to be fired...afraid of me being the one to do it, that is) quite. in the process, she almost made me late for work. anyway, rach's mom came in to cover my break. and it was nice to see her. then i went to hope. saw my mom, and she looked way better than sunday. yay! i only drove back to the burn cause i crashed at ian's place. which, for the the record is 15 mins to the mall. i believe i suggested his dad and he hurry up and finish the renovations so that we can switch houses.

wednesday
worked. watched jeopardy and went to bed, i think. to be honest, i can't really remember what happened wednesday. if you were with me, please let me know. this could be the day my blender kicked it. now i have to buy a new one, but ian said that they are on sale at LD for like $170. cause i really want a kitchenaid one, and i still need like 400 airmiles to get one for free. but maybe if i buy one, then i can use the airmiles for something else... like a digital camera. that could be fun! oh, maybe this was the day i was getting into the shower and my right foot slipped and my left shin slammed against the tub. obviously it bruised. i could barely stand up... but i didn't want to die in the shower. naked.

thursday
worked. went to another torturous strata meeting. dear god, please make the pain end soon. it lasted so f'ing long. and i was soooo beat afterwards, that i could only watch a little bit of survivor (that i have to tape cause they insist on thursday night strata meetings, despite that being yoga night!).

friday
worked. went to holt's to pick up my clinique order and bonus, and james mcb's present. it was hard to pick out, but the guy at the counter did a great job wrapping it. and he picked a sassy bag for the gift. how fun. i got to ms. scarlett at clue, and i won. i think i had an advantage though... i was totally hopped up on chicklets. oh, and if anyone wants to see the rules, ms. scarlett does get to go first. :op oh, and while making a phone call i was taking off my shirt and i scraped my forehead with my nail (which is pretty short). i now have a scrape in the middle of my head. it's scabbing, a good thing, cause it killed to wash.

saturday
got up early for ihop breakkie in the burn. i really do like the pancakes there. and i'm surprised by the number of people that are up so early on a saturday. it's kinda weird. creepy even. but it was nice to have pancakes. cause i love them so much. i want shirts that say toast-ellent and pancakellent. it would really reflect how i feel.

there's more! i worked. but also i got to do two interviews today. one was a second interview, and one was a group interview (i've never been to one before). but it went well. so we're going to do some test-shifts and see how much we like these ladies.

seriously, there's even more. i bought (hopefully)comfy black shoes (yay!) and two bras today. which IS exciting. oh, and the other day i went to old navy and bought a $6.97 hoodie. so cute. and some other good deal stuff. like a 3.97 t-shirt. and i guess i should look for socks soon... i couldn't go shoe shopping yesterday cause i had a hole in my sock. which is sad, cause they're my cute flower socks from england, and that's like the third pair this week that needed chucking.

then i went to hope to visit my mom, and she beat me 2-1 at crib. and she got up from her bed almost by herself. that was exciting.

and now i'm home and it's way past my bed time. night!

funday

today d and i (cause she kept me company last night and called in sick for work! whoo hoo!) got manicures. and then i wrecked two of my nails. anyway, the colour is so cute and *blush* pink *hee hee* that i love to look at it. d's is a more serious colour, but she has a more serious job. now i have cute toes and fingers and more grrlfriends should visit me so we can move on to facials and massages!

danielle kicked my ass at crib, and then ian (who's only played like twice) kicked my ass at crib. but i had mac and cheese (president's choice white cheddar) so i'm mostly over it... cause i had cob's white bread toast with it! whoo hoo!!! and corn chips. ummm... i think i should make a salad for dinner. i don't think those banana muffins count as fruit. :oD

not fair

as many of you know, i am never serious on my blog, this will be one of the rare times.

because i can't talk about it (i just cry) i'm going to blog about it. cause most of my friends read this, and it'll just be more clear and easy.

i went to see my mom today. danielle came with (thanks d). she was still in emerg, because the hope hospital sucks, and although they do have a hospice (for cancer patients) my mom wasn't allowed in. if she's contagious, they don't want people with weak immune systems having contact with her. it makes sense to me. the hope hospital has basically closed down, except for emerg and the hospice and the long-term care houses. the good news is, she got a private room. the bad news is there's no toilet paper in her washroom.

the scoop is, she either has a lung infection, or the cancer has spread to her lungs...we should know more tomorrow. her white blood cells are super low, and instead of cancer in one hip, it's now in both. and she's in so much pain that she is on a fairly steady dose of morphine. right now she can't walk, but the emerg doctor said once she gets used to the morphine and after some radiation it's possible that she will be able to.

seeing my mom so weak and in pain and out of it was horrible. i'm glad her friend carol is there. she is a fierce woman and loves my mom.

my current mood: i don't think it's fair that my dad died when i was in high school, and now i'm pissed that my mom is so sick.

i really really really won't be able to talk about this in person or over the phone. but i know that most of you have met my mom and think she's really cool...the apple doesn't fall far and all that. :o)

as i said, i will know more tomorrow and will probably see her again on tuesday after work. d's with me now. we went to the olive garden with ian for comfort food, and to ignore shit for a while. i've made banana muffins and am back on chocolate.